Taylor's Journal [19 F]

A Path to Freedom and Faith

Introduction

Welcome to Taylor’s Journal, a sacred space
for renewal, discipline, and spiritual growth.
This journal is more than just a record of
progress–it’s a battlefield where I reclaim
my mind, body, and soul from the grips of
PMO and dedicate myself fully to the Lord.
The journey ahead is not easy, but it is one of
transformation. As a college student, I face
daily exposure to temptation, distractions, and
influences that pull me away from God’s
purpose. However, through discipline, prayer, and a commitment to purity, I will break free
from reliance on PMO and embrace a life of
self-control, wisdom, and godly community.
This journal serves three purposes:

  1. Accountability - A place to track progress
    setbacks, victories, and lessons learned

  2. Spiritual Growth - A reflection of God’s
    work in my life, shaping me into a person of
    faith and integrity

  3. Discipline & Self-Mastery - A structured
    guide to becoming stronger academically,
    mentally, and spiritually

If there is anyone looking to connect, please feel free to do so. This is a safe space.

And a big thank you to Samuel for the help to make this next step in my journey. Stay tuned for more posts!

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Stage 1: Resisting the Urge (Days 0-90)

The first battle is against the urges—the chains that have kept me bound for too long. This is the stage where I break free, where I build the foundation for a new life. The enemy is strong, but my will is stronger.

The Mission

To overcome urges and develop the discipline to say “no” without hesitation. This is where I reclaim control over my mind, body, and spirit.


The Battle Plan for Stage 1

:white_check_mark: Cold Showers – Shock the system, build mental resilience, and remind myself that I am in control.

:white_check_mark: Daily Exercise – Physical strength fuels mental strength. Every rep is a step toward self-mastery.

:white_check_mark: Immediate Action Against Urges – When the temptation comes, I will not entertain it. I will move, breathe, pray—anything but give in.

:white_check_mark: No Triggers, No Excuses – I will cut out anything that fuels the addiction: social media, isolation, or anything that leads to relapse.

:white_check_mark: Scripture & Prayer – God is my strength. Every day, I will arm myself with His word and seek His guidance.

:white_check_mark: Journaling Progress – I will track my battles and victories, learning from every experience.


Surviving the Crucible

The first 30 days will be the hardest—the withdrawal, the cravings, the doubt. But I will endure.

By 60 days, my mind will begin to clear, my energy will rise, and my confidence will grow.

At 90 days, I will emerge victorious, ready to face the next challenge.

The foundation will be set. The chains will be broken. The war will continue.

But I will never be the same again.


Stage 2: Mastering My Emotions (91-181 days)

In this stage, I must go beyond just saying “no” to temptation—I must learn to rule my heart and mind. The storm of emotions, the highs and lows, will come. But I will stand firm.

The Battle Plan for Stage 2

:white_check_mark: 15 minutes of stillness in the sun – Let the light remind me that darkness cannot win.
:white_check_mark: Deep breathing and prayer – To silence the noise within.
:white_check_mark: Acknowledging emotions without being controlled by them – I feel them, but they do not define me.

Self-control begins here. If I master this, nothing can shake me.


Stage 3: Strengthen Self-Control (Day 182-272)

At this stage, the battle shifts from resistance and emotional mastery to fortifying my will. No longer am I merely reacting to temptation or emotions—I am now refining my ability to act with unwavering discipline.

Self-control is the bridge between desire and action. I must strengthen it until my choices align with my highest purpose, without hesitation.

The Battle Plan for Stage 3

:white_check_mark: Train the Mind Daily – Read scripture, journal, and reinforce my principles. No compromise.
:white_check_mark: Discipline in Small Things – How I do one thing is how I do everything. I will practice self-control in diet, exercise, speech, and habits.
:white_check_mark: Delayed Gratification – The ability to wait is power. I will embrace patience, knowing that true rewards come to those who endure.
:white_check_mark: Reject Mediocrity – I will not settle for “good enough.” Every day must be lived with intentionality and excellence.

Self-control is the armor of the soul. When this stage is complete, temptation will hold no sway over me.


Stage 4: Achieve Self-Discipline—God Mode (Day 273-365)

This is the final stage—the transformation into an unshakable man of discipline. I will have mastered my urges, tamed my emotions, and solidified my self-control. Now, my goal is consistency.

Discipline is doing what must be done, even when I don’t feel like it. By this stage, my actions will no longer be ruled by fleeting desires. My purpose will guide me, and nothing will pull me away from it.

The Battle Plan for Stage 4

:white_check_mark: Daily Execution Without Excuses – No motivation needed. I will do what needs to be done, regardless of my mood.
:white_check_mark: Live by Principle, Not Emotion – My actions will be guided by faith and conviction, not by passing feelings.
:white_check_mark: Become a Leader and Inspiration – I will lift others up, showing by example that self-mastery is possible.
:white_check_mark: Unbreakable Focus – No distractions, no wasted time. Every action will align with my purpose.

By the end of this stage, I will not only have overcome my greatest battles, but I will have become the man God intended me to be—a warrior of faith, a man of iron will.


The Journey Ahead

This journal is more than words—it is my testimony, my weapon, my shield. The roadmap is clear:

:one: Stage 1 (0-90 days): Resist the urge.
:two: Stage 2 (91-181 days): Master my emotions.
:three: Stage 3 (182-272 days): Strengthen self-control.
:four: Stage 4 (273-365 days): Achieve self-discipline—God mode.

Each day, I will rise. Each day, I will fight.

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@TaylorTaylorTaylor keep replying in this post to keep track of your journal entry. That way there won’t be to many of your posts in this forum.

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Thank you for the advice!

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Today, I had to take an intentional break from social media on my main account. My main account has so many worldly things that were not helping me on my journey. But, in the end, I got off my phone and focused on working and doing school work.

But, today I also had an emotional day. As my body’s hormonal cycle is beginning to level out, my emotions have been a lot stronger. I got really emotional with my family, and with my friends, and had a bad experience tonight with someone who I am beginning to see isn’t my friend. In order to calm down from all the emotions I was feeling, I put on Christian music and started to just share with my community some of my troubles. Plus journaling earlier than planned. I feel a lot better now. God is my peace.

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I had a good day today. A minimum on the urges. I’ve been going through some ups and downs in mood. But thanks be to God, he is keeping me in peace and helping me to guide my way through life. He is so good to always hear and answer my prayers. My next step in my Christian journey is to try and hear is voice more clearly. So that I can obey his instructions.

Have a good day all. Pray always.

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Having a hard time today. Temptations are strong. Praying for strength.

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Its never worth it. In complete honesty, I had a relapse. I’m not proud, and I regret it. Jesus died for our sins, but its not a free pass. I truly don’t want to keep doing this. But I don’t want to run from God either. Right now, I will pray for forgiveness, and pray that God leads me away from temptation in the future. Today, starts a new path. I will build my faith and strength so that I can become new again, in the sight of God. I don’t want this to have control over me. Please join me in prayer for strength and resolve.

Today starts a new day. A new life in Christ.

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Relapse is a part of this journey learn from it. You are doing absolutely fine , just work on your mistakes. God bless

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I had a good day today. Felt some residual guilt from last night, but I also have a newfound strength. I was reminded of how good God is. He sent his only Son to die for our sins, to make us new, and to cleanse and heal us. And when Jesus ascended, he sent the Holy Spirit to be a friend, and a comforter. God is good all the time. Even when we don’t deserve it, and to be honest, we never do. But God.

Keep me in your prayers, and I will do the same for you.

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I went to church today, and it was really good. But I think I what I got most from leaving my apartment, and going out was being in fellowship with other Christians, and other women of God. It was a good thing that God led me to go to church with my friend today. When you feel or hear the voice and pull of God, follow it.

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