21 June
Feeling sick but enjoyed the day. Watched web series, enjoyed with family.
I noticed one thing, everyone in my new class group is so excited for college. Everyone is planning what to do, what their future be like and here i am, playing games, sleeping. Not a care about studying. It’s like am not motivated. It should be not like this. I should have some goal which can drive me to work. I am not excited about college, nor excited for people. It is possible that i have some underlying problem.
Well, all i can do now is take a deep breath and analyse my situation.
Urges are increasing day by day.
Meditation –
Exercise 
Prayer
Hare krishna 
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Nope. It’s just that you want job more than you want college.
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You are more experienced. I think what you are saying is true…
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Just came back from a marriage. Mannn… Met so many little friends there. Everyone asking ,“what are you doing bhayaa?” with so much enthusiasm.
Reminded me of old days.
Filled me with lot of energy and motivation to improve myself. I want to be my best version l. Let’s push ourselves once more .
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30 June
Chill life. excitement is increasing day by day for life. Getting a clear view of life now.
Although urges are very high. Today I just thought to relapse but I remembered by 200 day promise which helped me stop.
Will restart exercising/meditation soon.
Hare krishna
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Hello bro. I am fine now… what samaranjay said was true. I am more excited for job than for college. I am still waiting for my npcil interview result. Just in case I am selected then I don’t have to go for college.
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Relapsed due to intense urges on day 73. Although I didn’t watch ■■■■ but did watch pics. That’s same 
I wanted to complete 200 days before leaving this app but I guess it will take more discipline to get there. So I am leaving the app. Will come back if I ever complete 200 days. Thanks.
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Hello everyone. I came back. I know it can’t be 200 days so why? Well, I joined new college and I want this time to be disciplined unlike previous one. I messed up my life in previous college. I only can remember few good memories from that time. But this time I want it to be different so i came back…
Tomorrow I will reach there and start new life there, a last chance to enjoy college life properly. So I will try my best.
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So I am in campus rn. With my two room partners in this heat 
. But both are nice. I don’t think I can fall into old habbits in such environment but I should not leave my good habbits like meditation and reading. So I will do these whenever I find time.
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22 July
Roamed around campus with mates. Went to swimming pool, gym. Played volleyball with seniors. Although they were too good with game.
Heat in campus is too high. I am sweating with fan on also .
Social skills are getting somewhat good I guess.
Read book
Meditation
Prayer
Good night. Om namah shivaay
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They don’t Have AC there?
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Nhi bro. Abhi just hostel ban hi rha h. Wifi bhi nhi h.
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Oh ok 
. Kuch time me maybe aa jaega.
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Haa bilkul. Tab tak aise hi rehna pdega. Baki bande kafi ache h yha
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23 July
Woke up 8 am
Chill and sleep was mostly what I did. Read somewhat but had no place for meditation.
Eyes are red due to problem or infection. Let’s see.
From tomorrow starts orientation program. I know it will be boring and stressful but let’s see.
Wifi is soon going to be added in hostel.
Thats all.
Reading
Meditation –
Prayer
Good night. Hare krishna
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Sab log purana college ka experience leke aur mehnat karke phunche hote hain toh mostly sahi log rehte hain.
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24 July
First day of orientation. Listened to many professors, met with classmates. And came to know that I have very limited holidays 
. Mtech is not that good .
Tomorrow is movie night and I’d card making. I hope it’s good.
Meditation
Reading
Prayer
Good night . Hare krishna
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25 July
Another amazing day 
In short, got I’d card made. Process was amazing.
Bought a cycle for roaming around .
Saw a movie in open theatre (top gun) 
Day was chill.
Meditation
Reading
Prayer
Although I am trying, there is one place I am lacking in. That is using mobile. Sometimes I use it a lot not continuously but in many breaks. I will work on it.
Good night. Hare krishna
Om namah shivaay 
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26 July
Had nothing special to do today. So just did normal things. Readjusted my cycle and repaired it. Then in evening went to play games outdoor. That was fun 
.
Heat is too much here. Eagerly waiting for winter season .
Meditation
Reading
Prayer
Om namah shivaay
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27 July
Woke up 8 am
Sleeping late now a days.
I think I am not focusing on my reading habbits much. Gotta focus on them too. This diary writing is helping me to note where I am lacking now.
Anyway day was good.
Went to hall to seniors, enjoyed a lot. Fun time.
Meditation --(no time left)
Reading
Prayer
That’s all. Good night. Hare krishna
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