Relapsed 
I watched an anime which was getting lot of fame. It was intresting but had so many sexual scenes. I controlled but it started thoughts in my brain. To get rid of them I finally relapsed. It feels bad but I know I will come back stronger now. Just gotta be consistent and disciplined…
It’s better to have light mind(urge free) actually. That’s the sole benifit post relapse. Although it stays only for some time.
Now doing the classwork going to sleep early. Good night.
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Bhai 
, you should watch review of that Anime first to avoid such triggers.
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Truee. No that type of anime now
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9 August
This is 3rd day of new streak. So, there were no classes today so we just stayed in room . Went to other rooms … Enjoyed.
Today was my first day of gym here. Honestly my experience bettered after this. I was feeling no anxiety and felt fresh . I feel like I will even forget this change if I do this daily. It was a minute detail…
Lot of work to do although😵…
Lot of self study needed.
That’s all.
No time for meditation, as I was not alone for whole day.
Study 2-3 hrs
Mobile usage 5hrs or less.
Prayer 
Good night. Om namah shivay. Hare Krishna 
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11 August
So, my days are repeating with same procedure. Wake up around 8:30 > go for breakfast > lecture > library > lunch > lecture/sleep > gym > dinner > study > sleep/bakxxxx till 1 pm.
And I don’t find much time left in between these.
Well masters was going to be tough anyway .
My anxiety is decreasing. Life is going good. Just sweating problems 
.
Rest all is good.
Good night. Hare krishna . Jai shree Ram
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Relapsed again
This song matching my mood
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There are a lot of songs by kygo which are quite nice.
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Relapsed yesterday 
But no poxn still, because of the book easy peasy I read. I felt no attraction towards it.
But still it feels bad.
I will try to get disciplined and reduce overconsumption of free dopamine things like YouTube, games etc. Although it would be hard. But let’s see
Key is to be in right mind. Not be overdosed with dopamine… More I stay in right mind more far I will go…
So targets are to slowly reduce consumption of mobile…
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Memories 
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One of my fav songs till date. Especially I like the chorus before the last stanza.
I must say that Bollywood made top quality songs those days compared to now.
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True…
Those days were golden age of music…
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Bhai I remembered that my benchmate in 12th class used to sing this, uske baad maine bhi yaad kar lia tha 
. But bhai ek dum rulane vala hi gaana hai.
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tf am I hearing this song for the first time 
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Oh hell naw 
…
Maybe it was released before you were born
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I was born 3 years before that
I have even seen the movie but don’t remember the song
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Oh ok ok. No issues.
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Bro sometimes it makes me feel old…
Btw this song was super popular that time.
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Used to sing it too…
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y̶o̶u̶ a̶r̶e̶…y̶o̶u̶ a̶r̶e̶ o̶l̶d̶
Nah jk , even I do listen to very old songs , 80s - 90s too . My friends find me strange
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