Steven's Success Diary

Nice to hear it that you won one of the first battle with urges.

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You are on the right track ! Continue accordingly :slight_smile:

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@udaCisie and @FlowForCourage, thanks to both of you!

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4/30 completed :white_check_mark:

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I’m slowly coming back to a healthy sleep schedule. Every day I go to sleep 5/10 minutes earlier. I’m making more gains with speed reading. Progress is everything.

Gradually moving forward!

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5/30 completed :white_check_mark:

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Whenever I get a slight urge, I tell myself: do I really want to give in to the temptation? When will I grow up? Do I really want to be a slave to this addiction in 10 years time? Naaa, I don’t think so. Let’s embrace the pain, the discomfort is only temporary: my mind is healing, and my future self will be very grateful.

Gradually moving forward!

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Powerful mindset! You are unstoppable! Keep doing, bro! :+1:

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Ahah don’t exaggerate @FlowForCourage, but thank you anyway.
It is a powerful mindset because it forces you to look straight in the eyes of your future self. You cannot escape from reality, you are forced to face it.

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6/30 completed :white_check_mark:

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The journey is going well. My levels of energy and confidence are increasing. I’m glad I’m getting better.

Gradually moving forward!

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Day 13

Another week is gone, and I’m getting better at fighting the urges. I’ve had a few of them this week, and now my level of confidence is rising once again.

Life vision: what did I do well? :top:
The burning desire technique is working well (it is making me ibsessed with my goals), as well as the reading sessions in the evening (current reading speed: around 1000 words per minute). I slept a little bit more, and I’m changing mindset in order to get rid of some tics of mine which occur when I feel a lot of stress.
Life vision: how can I improve? :rocket:
Firstly, getting to the damned 8 hours of sleep soon. Second, forcing myself to study faster (or better only what is necessary). Then, doing more journaling sessions and improving a little bit the burning desire techinque in order to target more specific goals.

Reflection of the week :open_book:
We must become obsessed with our goals. Start your day thinking about them, end your day thinking about them. And spend as much time as possible pursuing them.

Quote of the week :fountain_pen:
For anybody who is a perfectionist:
Allowing yourself to make mistakes is the single most effective way to get rid of them.

Stay strong :facepunch: :facepunch:

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:muscle::muscle::muscle: May the Power be with You!

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7/30 completed :white_check_mark:

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Thank you @FlowForCourage! :muscle:

Gradually moving forward!

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8/30 completed :white_check_mark:

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Today I faced an urge, and I defeated it. I’m getting used to winning against my demons. I’m glad it is becoming a habit! :grin:

Gradually moving forward!

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I am proud of you Steven ! Be the best in the world.

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Yes Steven! Well done man!

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It is nice to read it! Keep going! :smiley:

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Thanks to all of you! It is wonderful to see how we all support each other. Your help means a lot. Really. I’m glad you are here. :blush:
Thank you again brothers, and keep going everybody! :facepunch:

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I relapsed.
There are two things which hurt like hell: 1) I didn’t keep my word: I had promised to myself, nd to this forum, that I would have completed Nonut November 2)I am so weak that I cannot control my behaviour.

The cause of the relapse was loneliness. I cannot justify myself. I could have put into action the urge-killing strategy, but I didn’t. My adult content blocker was working very well, pushing me to stop, but I refused to stop. My mind was telling me: “don’t do it, you’ll regret!”, but I didn’t listen. Thus, I only got to day 14, without completing the challenge, betraying myself and all of you.

Bottom line: I’m still weak. Despite of how I decided to call myself, “StevenSuccessJourney”. How am I supposed to achieve success if I continue to give in to temptations? I haven’t improved my streak if compared to the previous one, and I’m not satisfied with this.

How will I improve? Time to put into action the urge-killing technique every single time I find myself at home alone. This is the only trigger which needs to be controlled. I’l turn it into a solid, strong habit.

Accept the urges and let them pass. It’s not good read that you relapsed. Now you have to start all over again. New promises, New thinking this time will be different. Decide once and be determined. Do you really want that success? When you will be fapping even when you will be know few languages, be the best at something you want and simultaneously faping you won’t be happy. Being the Master of your domain also is impossible to be for a person who fap. You lose your energy, your vitality. How do you want to socjalize with people? How do you want to be proud of yourself when you doing things who you know are against your well-being. I don’t like when someone is relapsing. I relapsed many times before and this is not going to work. Even if we achieve 60,90 days everything will be seems great and we’ll relapse everything is starting all over again. And what we built is destroyed and we have to build it again.for what reason? To destroy our life by another future relapsing? Either we quit it once and we’ll not do it at all or it makes no sense at all.

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Not you! Steven??? :roll_eyes:

@udaCisie this is the truth, and it is painful. It is painful also to read your comment, @FlowForCourage.
There hasn’t been any great decision up to this moment. I haven’t been determined to quit so far. I think my mind needs to become more conscious of the harm caused by porn. Then, and only then, I will understand the necessity of resisting the urges.

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