Sacred's Diary (23 M)

I can feel you man, all of us feel the same about pmo. The thing that differenciate this addiction with other is that, it is free and availablee 24x7 and also gives the greatest pleasure that is delivered into us through genes.
100% commitment, accountability and extreme ownership of our life with the help of God can only save us. We are in this together man.

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I agree it really makes people angry and selfish because it’s fake and not real - deep down most people know it but mostly blame others after they relapse again and again, and not only in PMO but after almost every deed. God said many times that people need to do good.

Proverbs 16:18 is a good gem:

“Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.”

I wish you a good journey.

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It’s insane man. Like if Satan was looking for a way to make nearly every man fall he did it. It’s crazy when you really look at it. At least in the past men had to go out and look for women or rent a tape. Now it’s so easily accessible I fear the consequences it’s having on the generations coming up. Thanks for you input bro. God bless.

Yeah bro I’ve always known pmo was one of the root causes of why I act more selfish than I’d like. Ofcourse I’m also selfish to my core but pmo just brings that out to an extreme. Funny that verse you shared recently came to my mind yesterday. I wish you luck aswell bro, God bless you!

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Day 6

Pmo took my life. I will take it back.

If you think about it this statement is very true. For some of us pmo takes our joy, love, hope for a better future, and much more. What is there without these things? You might aswell be a robot at the will of pmo. Who wants this? All addictions have this same thing in common. They seemingly take your free will and make you at the will of something else. No more. Let’s take back what’s ours.

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Day 8

Woke up today feeling refreshed. It’s been a while since I’ve had good sleep. Have a good day everyone. :slight_smile:

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Day 13

Thought of the day:

Let us Strive to become our best selves brothers. No more looking back. Let’s put our focus on what we will become and the motivation will come to get there. Our brain may try to trick us to want pmo but we must place out focus on something else, something better. We have to really want this guys. The old saying goes, “How bad do you want it?”

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Ian with you bro. We got this. This time all of us will succeed and leave this ADDICTION once and for all. We all have had enough with this. We all know how this works, we are experienced enough to not make future mistakes. Keep going.

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Yes bro how wonderful would it be if we were to finally win? I think we all deserve this. We deserve a better life we’ve struggled so much already and haven’t given up. Let’s fight our best now and use everything we’ve learned to beat this thing. We’ve got this bro.

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Day 20

I’ve been able to control myself pretty well these past couple of days. The main issue I face now is just this accumulation of stress that’s really taking its toll on my mental fortitude. I think it’s a combination of things making me overly stressed. Work, tension, recovery, etc. I think I used pmo as my biggest stress reliever and without it my body doesn’t know what to do. I feel like I’m gonna explode sometimes. I’m considering taking up a new hobby to help unwind.

Hopefully things get better soon.

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Day 0

The day count says 0, but I know I’ve made progress. I won’t binge. I will continue tommorow as if it was day 22.

What caused the relapse?
I have many theories as to why I relapsed but it all boils down to that addicted brain right? The addicted brain will try whatever means necessary to convince you to go back. Don’t. We all have our reasons why we shouldn’t go back. Remember those reasons.

What will I try next time?
I will continue to exercise regularly. Continue to eat healthfully. But I will be adding 3 new things into my life.

  1. Abstinence from problematic internet use.
  2. Drawing/Art work
  3. Journaling

What I’ve found to be a personal battle of mine is not only pornography addiction, but also internet addiction. Internet addiction is so sneaky because everyone uses it habitually right? But did you know that overconsumption of the internet causes brain changes similar to other addictions? I’ve read that internet addiction turns off the part of the brain that deals with self-control and makes people much more impulsive. Now how do I expect to beat pmo addiction without self-control? It’s impossible. So I will be limiting my internet entertainment consumption to 2-3hrs a day.

I’m picking up Journaling and Drawing to calm myself down and just as healthy hobbies that I can replace with the destructive habits I had.

September 21st was the day I quit pmo for good. My apologies to anyone I’ve disappointed. But I think it’s a good thing to be accountable here. Sorry people. I’ll do better now. God bless.

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@Sacred You got 100 days before New Year. I know numbers doesn’t as long as you are progressing. I just want to say changing is hard but remember to focus on building the new you than fighting the old you. Look up to the newer version of you and become one.
You know more than any of us how to tackle PMO. Lots of time has gone on fighting it, Let’s leave PMO once and for all and start a fresh year.

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Thanks for the support bro. Yes let’s focus on building our new selves. Can’t believe the year passed by that quickly. Feels like yesterday I promised myself I was gonna quit pmo for my 2020 resolution. Oh well better late than never. Let’s do this bro.

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Day 11

Feeling Amazing. :heart:

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Day 14

Two weeks done.

Just wanted to share this awesome video I found regarding addiction. It changed my whole perspective of what I thought addiction was. Ever since watching this and applying it into my life as truth I’ve felt free. This video changed my perspective on addiction 100%. It Might help someone else out there. Keep going bros! It’s definitely worth it. God bless.

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I thank you for sharing this video.

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Day “24”

I’ve changed so much since 24 days ago and continue to change more & more everyday. It’s quite amazing actually whats happened to me within the month, and it’s only been 24 days!! Like wow…

““Changes that’ve happened naturally””
Increased confidence
Decreased shyness
Increased testosterone
Deeper voice
Strong motivation
Less anxiety

Theres many more things that’ve changed in me. I wake up very early now (4 A.M) and attack the day. No more negative thoughts. I decided to start taking cold showers after i saw how many benefits they bring. I’ve probably lost 5-15lbs of fat mass within this time. I picked up cardio training to help with my weight loss goals. I actually crave connection with people in my life now as before i just wanted to be alone. I desire things again, good things. Theres countless other things that just changed naturally like i dont have the deisre to play videogames anymore. Or that i know myself better than i ever have in the past. This is just amazing man. Nopmo forever. Keep going things WILL get better. Love. :fist::heart:

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Waooow! Sounds great! Keep doing bro!

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Day 27

Could use some encouragement right now bros. I thought I was changing for the better permanently. I feel I’ve regressed back somewhat into my old unmotivated patterns. I still push myself to do those things I’ve dedicated myself to, but the motivation dropped immensely. I find my mood changes so much nowadays.

“Was it only a phase? Will I feel this way forever? Is this worth it?”
Some of the questions that have popped up recently.

It’s hard again, but I won’t quit. By God I must do this. Let’s fight this together bros. :fist:

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You are on the Gods’ road!

Why would you like to go back from where you are from?

Just a fool could do such a stupid thing.

I’m with you! Together at the top. It’s not a choice, but a MUST!

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You’re right only a fool would return back to pmo, but damn life’s hard. Lol. Thanks for the encouragement brother. Let’s keep climbing together!