My day in long
Man , lot of things happened these days. Let me break everything into many
20 April
I relapsed on that day. I cried a lot because of my screwed up lifestyle. I really want to become a man of value. I don’t consider crying someone as feminine. Crying is the symbol of a strong person. Crying is the acceptance you are hurt. So cried a lot and thought of not updating here. Practised the song to be sung at 23 April. Despacito was really tough but learnt it somehow. Let me love you was easy. Also had Scientific computing exam today. But it went well. At least better than Logic circuit design exam.
21 April
Me and my parents decided to go to Trivandrum ( The capital of Kerala ) to attend the marriage of one of my close relatives. Then visited attukal pongala and Sri Padmanabha swami temple ( One of the most sacred temples in Kerala ). I took some photos of Attukal pongala but when took the pics of padmanabha temple, a police officer caught me and told me to delete the photos of it. He even made me to take the recycle bin and delete again.
Stayed in my relative’s house that days. Had a good time with small kids there.
22 April
Visited Kaapil beach in Trivandrum. Me and the boys were playing oyster throwing race. My mom told me that I am more childish that the kids. Playing with those kids reminds my superb childhood. Then had a 7 hour travel from Trivandrum to Kochi.
23 April
I was quite nervous for the program because I haven’t practised the songs for past 2 days. So gathered the courage and entered the stage. But guess what, you won’t believe me. A whole crowd gave me a huge round of applause and a lot of excitement seeing me before even starting the song. I felt like crying in the stage. Why I am surprised is that , I am not a popular guy at all in my college. I think except me , literally every guy have girlfriends. I am like an introvert, helping myself, minding my own business there. Is it due to No fap ? I am just 2 -3 days. Don’t remember.
All the appreciation gave me confidence. And I believe I sung well. After the program, some people complimented me that I sung well. Then I went to men toilet and cried my ass off. Because I have never got such appreciation in my entire life.
Then our eastern band called me that we have a show at NIT Calicut. I have to be ready with Pal Pal dil ke pas song. On on 23 April evening we started our way to Calicut
24 April
We reached calicut by 11 AM. Program starts on 3 PM. Me and Natasha ( The selected female main singer of eastern band ) were practising this song inside the car. All the guitar , mini keyboard was inside the car. It was more like a moving band.
The program went well. Didn’t get as much appreciation compared to earlier. Maybe audience were strangers. But it’s ok for me. But when I was packing the bag to return home , I saw my crush in my 12th standard. She was walking with some friends. My mind was like " What should I do ? What should I do ? " but gathered courage and stood before her. But the good thing is that she recognized me. She was also having the same doubt if the person who sung was me. She was in my school from 1 to 12 standard and never knew I could sing.
We had a chat for 1 hour but was interrupted by band people since they want to go home. So again a long 7 hours journey. But it was a depressing one. Everyone was tired and was sleeping inside the car.
Depressing because I have to face the reality again. The screwed up academics , struggling with PMO and stuff. All these days went like a dream. Reached home at 2 AM.
25 April
Experienced a hangover because of all the programs. My parents went to office. Unfortunately peeked and relapsed yesterday. Blocked Google and YouTube. Didn’t study anything. Nothing much
Had a brainstorming session with myself about how to get an effective blocking system without the help of others. And I found one.
I hope everyone knows Digital detox app. But its ineffective when it’s not on detox mode. I found a method to effectively block an app and there is no way to get out of it once the block starts.
The App block strategy ( For blocking or restricting the use of particular app )
- Download Appblock
- Activate Device administration in settings to prevent uninstalling.
- Give necessary permission required to run the app
- Block or restrict the use of the app.
- Block settings
- Block Appblock with Appblock itself.
By this method, I believe there is no way we will overcome this block. Or at least I believe. If you find a method to overcome this block , please dont tell me.
That’s it
Always thank God for everything
