“It doesn’t matter what you did or what you have done … but it matters what you do. You make the meaning of your own life. Every moment you are free to choose between have peace, virtue and greatness, or the progressive degradation of yourself, never get real satisfaction and finally an empty and meaningless life. Choose wisely.”
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Day 21, 14 hours…
10th & 11 th Attempt failed…
Date: 08-06-2020
Time: 05:55 Pm & 08:30 Pm
Again Day 0
“If you do and relapse you’ll be again at the level you were days AGO, when you were begging for the day you are NOW”
Beleive me friends I didn’t enjoy even 5% …
We will not be happy by watching p…
False pleasure
I just watched a k scene and did m…
Then suddenly stopped and did bath…
Again i watched
But I don’t know what will happen next?..
But I don’t lose hope…
I learnt so much in these 21 days…
I will come back Again …Soon…**
I learnt so many things in these 21 days…
I will fight again…
Which helped me a lot…
- Normal (No urges) up to 3 days…
- Enjoyed with my cousin’s 4 to 5 days. (8 days completed)
- I played games(pub g) a lot instead of watching videos etc…
- I didn’t stop toilet/2 no… even for 1 minute…
Which helped me a lot…
When ever i got urges…i went to toilet …
After some time urges gone…
Stoping toilet/2 no will definitely increases urges to peak level…
Because of this mistake i relapsed…
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I consider you as my own brother. I want you to succeed as badly as I want myself to succeed. Bro, Iam with you. Text me everyday. I’ll do whatever I can to help you. Porn is prison. It is hell. I’ve been there for long and I know how fucked up it is and how it will destroy us. This time we’ll do this together. I’ll visit rewire companion two times a day- at 2 pm and 10 30 pm. After coming, I’ll text you without fail. Be very serious. This time no going back.
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After 2 days
Again Day 0
12 & 13 Attemp failed…
Date: 10-06-2020
Time: 5:30 Pm & 6:55 Pm
@Tagore Brother …
I will send message to you daily…
I will upload my progress here daily…
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Brother you are not serious enough I think. Get back up. I know there will be chaser effect. Don’t give in to it. Fix small goals. 3 days first. Then go up.
Are you doing meditation, exercise etc daily? Without those things it would be impossibily hard to quit this forever. Focus on your purpose. Above all, get into the mindset where you’ll take any amount of pain. Never go back to porn.
Get disciplined as well.
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Hi. I see you’re having big issues with YouTube being a trigger. I have the same issue. Pretty much all of my relapses have been due to YouTube and the triggering videos on there. It’s much too dangerous to continue opening YouTube and watching videos, while you know that you will relapse because of it.
To find the motivation, at first, and later the discipline, which is longer-term than motivation, which fades, you must have a goal. Who do you want to be in two months, after the summer holidays? Imagine and visualise what you will be like. It’s neigh-on impossible to climb a mountain when you have no reason to be at the top. It’s very important to know why you want this. This is something only you can formulate, no-one else can do it for you.
Then, when you have decided who you want to be, you must sacrifice everything that is in the way, or else, your goal becomes the sacrifice. You need to choose one. YouTube is not helping you achieve your goals, rather, it is hindering your progress. It must go, and become part of your past self. Your (near) future self has no such thing as YouTube in his life. It simply cannot co-exist with your ideal state of being.
Of course, you need to evaluate what the barriers in your way are, as I do not know you as well as you know yourself (though nobody really knows themselves fully).
Take care,
And shoot me a message if you need any help in the heat of the moment. Don’t let yourself relapse again. It’s not what you need.
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Day 1, 6 hours…
14 Attempt failed…
Again day 0
I am really sorry friends…
I don’t repeat it Again…
I promise you…
You won’t see Again Day 0 in my dairy
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Brothers i need your support
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What is going on…
Stay strong.
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Stop counting your relapses. It’s previous version of yourself. New yourself don’t relapse. New yourself is great. New yourself prays, takes care of hygiene, has proper sleep schedule, builds new habit by adding +5 minutes everyday.
Definetely, new yourself don’t relapse. Why thinking about past shit when you can think about great future. Why thinking about how to avoid urges when you can think about how to make this day better then previous.
Don’t think about how hard it is to have 7 days streak, think about how great it is to have +1 day of streak.
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15th and 16th Attempt failed…
Date: 13-06-2020 and 18-06-2020
Time: 3:30 Am,1:00 Am Respectively.
Present streak…
6 days, 3 hours…
“Nothing in this world is impossible, our brain can break through the shit you supplied it with. But, patience is the only way you can fight your old dirty habits… Keep Going! Don’t Fap!!”
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15 days…
“Pain and discomfort is temporary. Regret lasts forever!”
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21 days…
“Life is short, stop wasting it. Start living!”
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