November isn’t my proudest moment I don’t know why but when November comes around I relapse every time.
But I will not let this get me down I will rise again. What lead to the relapse mostly was I was creating an image in my mind that was inappropriate. Thank you and again I am sorry.
No bro , you’re not a peasent. 110 days is a dream for some c’mon. One relapse doesn’t mean your progress is over. It’s stored. No matter what’s your position you’re still better than some of us. Be strong man!!
@Prayer_Warrior, so sorry about that. I pray God comforts you and gives you the grace to keep going. Struggling with this won’t always be your story🙏🏾.
We all know full well how you feel at the moment. It’s always heartbreaking when we stumble.
But don’t let this stop you from progressing. The guilt you feel means that the Holy Spirit is in you. God is still at work in you. He hasn’t abandonned you and never will. He loves you so much.
You stumbled once in the road. Ask God for forgiveness and for Him to renew His Grace in you. Seek His Grace not only to be forgiven, but also to be transformed. Then firmly believe that you received it, because God is always faithful and He hears your prayers. Then stand up and walk again.
Remember what God said to Joshua after the death of Moses?
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” Joshua 1:9
Jesus said the same in Matthews 28:20:" And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the world".
And never forget John 3:16-17: “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.”
Never forget His love for you. Continue relying on Him and you will succeed. Tragedy without God means very little. Success without God means very little. But with God, everything is meaningful.
Please read Psalms 69 and pray sincerily to God. He will hear you and bring you back to Him. Ask Him to be strong and courageous as He told Joshua. Remember what Jesus said in Matthews 28:20. And, most importantly, remember His sacrifice for you. For past, present and future sins. He always loves you.
Thank you @TonyTheChristian and yes I will read Psalm 69. I already prayed a prayer of sincerity because right now I am crying about it and I can’t quite crying.
“Forsake the flesh, let desire wither and die.
Embrace the void, let your spirit soar high.
Like Mahoraga, adapt, evolve, transcend.
Shatter the chains of the mortal world, ascend.”
“Purge your mind of earthly desires, let purity reside.
In the stillness of the soul, let true power abide.
Temptation’s whispers, a fleeting dream,
Seek enlightenment, a cosmic supreme.”
“The path to divinity, a solitary quest.
Sacrifice the self, for the ultimate test.
Conquer the darkness within, let the light ignite.
Rise above the mundane, claim your divine right.”
“Like Mahoraga’s wheel, turn endlessly,
Unbound by limitations, eternally free.
In the crucible of suffering, forge your destiny,
A divine being, eternal and mighty.”
Brother, maybe because of all the hype around the november, we tend to put that extra pressure on ourselves and relapse. I have seen that happening with so many people … moustache, no nut, obey traffic rules, hardcore exercise and bla bla bla… its a fact that being the second last month of the year, november is the time when we begin to feel anxious, sometimes doubting ourselves and sometimes losing the sight, seeing the end of the year. It’d be much easier if we could just see november as another month and take it one day at a time…
Forget what happened bro, past is past for a reason. Move on. Your relapse is a closed chapter and you are not relapsing today, alright? And control yourself brother. Find some other ways of release, to get rid of that excess energy and pent up frustration and loneliness… I know that contributes in it as well. Loving God is very powerful. Believe in yourself brother. Do not give up. I am with you in this fight and I stand by you.
Thank you @PrDr for the encouragement. I will rise again victoriously. IronWill is what brings me closer to God. I don’t know if you have see my profile picture but anyhow I will put on the full armour of God. I will stand firm and treat this as any other day and just move on to the next day. I know that I can and I will conquer this beyond a shadow of a doubt. I will take one step at a time and just believe in myself.
That is so true
I used to have minor inconveniences earlier too . Now even when its far better , I feel anxious thinking about the past and that its all about to end , forcing thoughts like I couldn’t be the one I imagined and all that .
So sorry to hear that. I can imagine how you feel. But 110 days is pretty good, and I don’t think all of the progress is erased when we relapse once. At least, that hasn’t been my experience.
I tend to feel like the person who relapses is the one who does all the suffering and shouldn’t need to apologize to the rest of us. Personally, I’m sorry that I haven’t been as active and giving as much encouragement in this forum lately.
I find the early part of November to be difficult. It gets kind of depressing where I live and is dark a lot. Summer is over, the fall colors are falling off the trees, and my mind isn’t in Christmas mode yet.
Thanks @MrSam105 for the encouragement. That’s true Brother but I had to apologize to everyone that I know that I have relapsed. Don’t be sorry Brother you can’t be on here everyday, just only when you can.
, we all know you will break this record 
. You are our brother irrespective of your streak ! IronWill 
