I am a girl rab … without sorry I understand if you will not be comfort to talk with me I will understand … but I have to explain and to be clear …
It’s ok to say man after that like a joke I have no a problem .
Stay expressing and strong , I am sure you will do serious steps about manage your life
We need more people like you in the world!
Dude we need more people like you!! 
like you mate!! 
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Day 20 on going 
Still no fap no ■■■■, although I feel I’m seeking for attention, I told my friend I want to work as a teacher or as a strip dancer , i like for people to look up for me lol 
I didn’t study the whole day, I went back home (not that i was gone long ago), finally the whole family gathered , It was amazing day for all of us , at night (now) i sat to study a little , and my siblings all took care of me, food , coffee, wine
I love them alot, indeed none of my problems matter when I have the people I love around.
Anyway,(finally something for u guys) why am i studying? As I said, I’m super happy today, and so i dont want that to ever end, so I want to study and finish some work so i wake up tomorrow proud and happy.
Thanks alot, I don’t mind male, female , potato , as long as we both help each other so we both get better in the future.
Thanks for reading guys, and everything
Thank You God
That was a wonderful day then, Rab. I think you were in need of something like this to recharge your batteries. Congratulations for your day 20 
Day 21 completed
Busy day, and i have 2 more like it coming , I’ll breath a little at midnight everyday.
I feel alot of stress from university, alot of asignments, and alot of materials to catch on.even though I’m not hard, I thought alot about sex and mastirbation, I feel like I’m giving up something huge, I kind of miss that, way to escape everything for few minutes . But saying that, all of us here, we dont want to run anymore, escape, we want to stand up and face life, find another way to live, solve our problems, be better.
Good luck guys
It’s can be hard to feel depraved of pmo. But always remind yourself what you had to give up in order to pmo!! Inspect this feeling with your brain and vaporize it
I’m so cool, helping someone who has a way bigger streak than myself going on xd
Thanks man, 
Fck university, they lied to me, said it will be your happiest years, full of joy and advantures
They told me it will be fun
Fck fck fck fck,
Day 22
very busy day , still have alot to do. not a single erection .
life is boring,
PMO was big thing in my life, now there is void.
How do you fight something strong, U grow another habbit (positive one) and strengthen it, and so finally it will over come/defeat/replace, the old bad habbit , so u don’t fight it by actually fighting it. play it strategically
anyway, I dont know if i have some habbit that i can invest on somehow, the main change is that instead of PMO, i just stare to the wall, bored with no thoughts ,motivation or a vision. i was feeling empty and still.
I need vision , goals plans, motivation, and purity
lets work on that
Good luck all
Haha maybe the people who told you this are even unhappier right now xd
Same here 
I’m spending hell of a time (always checking it) on this forum only to distract myself a little.
But somehow I don’t have to fight at all atm. It’s very easy and simple: Don’t PMO and if you see an ass just look away
But u’ll succeed. Eventually life will become more interesting, because you allow yourself to be bored a little…
Day 23,
no strong urges, I have many family members around, and busy as hell.
first of all, thank god for all the great people around me. and everything
Having some attention alot of love, there is no reason for me to relapse, or think about it. I still can’t study I have over 80 hours to watch and getting 25 more every week, lectures and else
I dont have motivation to face all that, I cant start when feeling its mission imposible, I dont believe I can, or at least I dont think i found the right way to do it. Alot of pressure on all aspects, university work,life, comunity. people say,’’ leave everything aside, focus on your study , few years it will be over" , even thinking about that makes me mad ,So for all who think like that, fck you will due respect. I dont have time or motivation for university alone, but i cant live without music, sport, without giving to the comunity, without work and money. Sometimes I wish i dont think just do, thinking and planning my schedules and looking forward , and seeing whats yet to come so i be ready overwhelming , I can’t sleep or study or do anything. I literallt dont study, just do assignments/homeworks with my partners , the rest of the time, if im alone ,I’m just sad, not watching somrthing not playing not doing anything, just setting there sad, and even that pleasure PMO not considering, knowing it will do more bad than good.
I never had a gf, I had once a very close female friend, first semester at university, we spent 20 hours together everyday, eat, cook, study, swim, walk, plant, play music, everything, even showering seperatly at her or my appartment, that semester we did just met, and became friends, in alone wierd place, its extra hard for us, because we are a minority, study in 2 languages that are not ours, we barely understand a thing. We where happy, sad, angry… Everything, but could always move mountains, went though imposible obstacles , somehow we overcome all that, and where the top in our class. I gave her all myself and she did the same, and no sex involved at all, I couldn’t risk that relationship, and I couldn’t disappoint her, (I have more than enough sexual problems), I dont need sex, just don’t want to ever feel alone, don’t wan’t to feel alone with my strugels,and that i have to do everything alone just by myself. PMO is nothing but an escape, stupid guy, terrified of life, I am terrified 
eventually, we were supposed to step up one more step in the relationship, but emature me, my fcking ego, stoped me from that. She hurted me alot alot after without knowing, and I cared enough to not tell her, and couldn’t tell her knowing it might hurt her back. , I wish I could have a partner as close as that again. 2 years and half went by, we are still friends , but far far away now, crossed a point where we can never be together,
my current status, no urges, empty, terrified
I didn’t really get this part of the story bro… understanding what really was the problem can help a lot. For you and for other people who can help you.
Thanks bro, but no point of sharing, will just remind me of something i dont like and cant control, only god can help, if im ment to ever live sexual live. Im sorry, ill keep that to myself
That’s fair bro! I don’t share a lot of my past here myself. But here’s the thing, your past may not have been kind to you, and it might not be something that I can fully understand. However I can say this, it’s completely your choose if you wanna continue living in that past. You can move on bro. You should move on. You friend did, so why shouldn’t you?
I dont want to move on, its beautiful memory, I’m grateful for that, even if its short term. I’m trying to move on another, give up sex PMO, for all my life, I wont invest on that side, I want to be free, independent of any sexual desires , all I’m saying , feeling I have to work my ass to survive to stand up to my responsibilities and face them, all by myself, kills me, I cant by my self.
god will help eventually, i might not know how to fulfill all my duties but god knows. I terrified, always been, ill be ok.
Day 24 ,
Very few urges, got erection in public place, some social inviroments gives me eriction ,not that people where talking about sex/porn, or that i was staring , idk just happens. Over all picture I’m gaining control over my life, I’m very moody , but most time I started to feel happy, grateful , positive thinking. I’m surrounded with people I love, we are spending alot of time together playing musci and singing and talking, I was at the church today, it was amazing. today was a happy day.
Good luck guys,
if someone need anything, to talk about something or anything, I’m here
Nice, Rab : )
It’s inspiring to see your evolution.
Keep going, brother.
Nothing related to PMO
Sometimes i make stupid decisions , like choosing my friend as my partner in a project, he’s slow on computers and little bit stupid , and I’m lazy, fck fck fck, since my university sucks, I cant get the program , and wont suck someone’s dick so he install it for me illigally, amd wont fcking pay 60-450$ to do 2 projects each year,(2 weeks)
He have something i dont have, he believe this shit will be over, while i see this mountain on shit cant be over in 2-3 months at least, and i have alot of deadlines, ,second thing he can set and study many hours, ,but I get the lecture from the first time, love from the first sight, while he does it many times… and doesn’t get it… I understand and forget , cause i dont practice much, but hr remembers well. looks like we’re good mix, but sadly I’m not at the campus, and he’s there, I dont have the applications, cumputers,labs… In this tight schedule each will work from his location, untill i go there