Hlo All. I think u may know me as iam always being online here. Here is my intro, I don’t want to reveal my name. My age is 21 , female.
What are all the things with which iam struggling with Corn, masturbation, phone, Tv, listening songs, Daydreaming (gonna speak about it later) , laziness ofcourse, procrastination, unstable sleeping schedule, depression, Inferiority Complex, anti socializing.
I was being a very good girl till I attain my 15 , after that I lost everything… Every thing that everyone should have … U know what my neighbors always show me as example to their children 
… And after I get to know to analyse things much better… I thought that why should I be a good girl. I never loved anyone till 21 . Even i got 6 proposals I just ignored them by saying my parents wont allow this. Even i prayed that day for them for their proposals. That how innocent I was. As I aged 17 , the biggest thunder hit our head which is lock down.
I don’t know what is seex before that. I misunderstood it with rape. And once I got phone. I was very eager to watch that thing as my frd once said the vdo was very good to watch. I can’t ask her what to search. I googled it with rape, love, and then I lost interest. And i get to hear somewhere in a film they said that word. I googled it in night. And i watched it. My heart started to beat very fast . After that I used to watch occasional like once in 3 months. During pandemic I used to watch it daily even while the classes are going on. I would mute mine and watch it. I can’t remember when and where I started masturbating since 2021 … Approx 3 years till now. I know here people have 10+ years addiction. But the problm is more for me
We all have daydreamed once in a month. I want to make a detailed one. Daydreaming is like we dream (not while sleeping ) about having conversations or achievements we don’t have yet. Like if someone is hurted me I daydream like I am scolding them. During my exam preparation I daydreaming about having the things I wished for Car, caring hubby:sweat_smile: and definitely a virgin 
u guys may wonder how a girl having masturbating habit will crave for virgin. (I always complex about my body. People judge a girl who is virgin or not only by the blood in the bed… I do having clit stimulation only) … I am saying this bcoz I can’t do heavy workouts like crunches,squats bcoz I worry about the thing if I will lose mine…this complexity takes me to the point .i don’t even walk in stairs very fast…) ( But I do ex, plank, brisk walking…i does wonder. Feel veey lighted
) true frnds i don’t have like that my parents feeling proud of me. Daydreaming is interconnected with depression, anxiety, or ADHD, I dont know which one I have. The problem is I daydreaming about 8+ hrs a day. Yes, I counted it. If I am laying on my bed at 10 I will sleep at 2 /3 that means I am daydreaming., after wakeup, while bathing, brushing, eating, it came with hiding the reality and iam living in my fantastic world which I created. There i have frds, bf all the things which I dont have right now even separate parents there not my own parents (guilt) . I cant distinguish which is real which one is fake. Some comfusions arise. I think u may get it now. Having 8+ hrs of daydreaming for 3 years will created a entire universe as per my longing. I live there I do home chores there. As of now iam typing this consciously after that I start to daydreaming and ended up long hrs. I will lose the motivation.
And the last thing procrastinating, laziness which I have habit since long years.cant change it sudden. Trying my best in all ways.
I am extrovert but I can’t socialize with loved ones sometimes.
And also a problem there… Very closed one from my family I can’t say it here is staring at me with some intention (physic) 
how awkward it is! I will definitely burry him if once I get all the power. I can get it But i can’t do anything. How can I reveal this to others. My family will force me to get married. I don’t have interest in marriage. I want to be financially independent .
I was very responsible before now I lost everything. How will I change everything. Iam only the last hope for my family to make a change financially. But where did I lose myself. I lost chanting God’s name habit and pray two times everyday. I am far away from God right now.
I don’t know which habit should I change first. If i stop pmo… With my bad sleep schedule I sleep at 2/3 a.m. after daydreaming for hrs. And i would woke up with droopy eyes. I would end up in guilt everyday.
As far now iam preparing for banking. And it also a long story .
I will share my improvements here. I dont know when these things will happen but I should do a change in everyday activity. I never started preparation simply wasted 1 year with shits. I may have exams in November last or dec but there is also a hope if I start from now on study for 9-10 hrs every day. I definitely can crack the exams even in my 1st attempt.
And at last about complexity I don’t know it is complex or something else. Like i will worry abt what others think about me. I will recall or read the words again after I delivered. I think I typed a very long para. sry sometimes I feel like I was ignored by some people here in this forum only bcoz I am girl. In the sense they r pmo free. I tried to have a better convo and to be a good frnd with u all. But i failed. 
Good night.
But i feel light after I typed. I never spoke it out with anyone. I know I said only bcoz u ppl don’t know me. Iam stranger.
you just explained me in first half of 2024
looks like you have been through a lot mentally. i can understand the desperation of not knowing what to do, how to begin?
the frustration of not being able to change and all. mind full of uncertainities.
you did the right thing,
i have opened up about all of my insecurities fears and all in my diary. never hesitate to do that, people here are always there for you.
lastly i would say positive affirmations are very important for you,
you are just 21 youve got a whole life ahead, if you stay consistent in improving yourself you wont even remember these days 5-6 years from now.
all the best! try meditation!
If i read bible, I start to daydream. I feel very ashamed I can’t even spent the mins to God wholeheartedly. I daydream without knowledge while reading bible and doing prayer. But this is not totally addictive. The worst day with DD is 8 hrs. But a day I can’t remember had only 0:50 mins.
All the things I have mentioned is interconnected I can’t start by one thing. But i have to do good work. I know these topics are not relevant to this forum. This is for pmo free . But i wanted to share. I am pleasing u guys u r all at recovery phase u may get any mental issues. Quit it now.
My longest streak is 17; 3 yrs of addiction.
Thnk u so much @nofapstar123 . I will do meditation and everything that will change my current situation. Best of luck for ur future . Yes i got to know these things early. I have lots of time to change things. Hope we do. 
You should try clearing it this year only since nobody knows about the next year. Also, I would suggest you to get a library subscription to go and study there. Give your best shot to it. For accountability there are study servers on discord. I bet there will be one for Banking exams too.
Thnk u @Awaken_one . I will find it out and start my preparation from now on.
Right
Library is best option come out pmo
Constantly focus on studies
What do u do ?
That matters a lot
Your goals , aspirations etc
Make a routine and stick to me.
Write down all the things u want to do in a particular day.
Try do all activities which will impact positivily in all spheres of life.
Namaskaram
Don’t feel bad about that! 
I’m glad you were able to share your story on here! Like some others have said, the people on here are really kind, and very supportive! They want to see you succeed as much, if not more, than you do; and they will be here to cheer for you! God bless you in your fight!
Thnk u so much @user1234567890 @WanderingHermit0 @mani_123 … I will update my progress here. Yes i should move out of my room and comfort zone first.
Well, these problems are quite relatable to me, i also involve in this since last 2 and half year (like excessive daydreaming).when i realise that its too far to achieve i get afraid and cant face the reality and i dont let anyone to say something about my future. Since last 2.5 years only i have done is daydreaming. Now i think i am done with these motivational videos on Instagram beacuse it never ends so i accept it that i got too much motivation and now the only thing i have to do is work, working towards your dream.( So i del my insta) , from my experience i would suggest you that you tell yourself that you got enough motivational videos and fantasy now you have to work on that things to make a reality. Like the main point is to accept that you got enough motivation and information and now you only need to implement and work.
@darwaish I have this prblm since 2 yrs. I deleted all the social media apps but I can’t get over from this. And will update my progress. Movies, songs, and other visuals r the triggers.
Bahan time lagega itna lamba padhne me. Ab pdhunga or kal reply dunga 
(joking 
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Ok now I’ve read the whole paragraph.
Changing routine and adding good habits help us to overcome PMO. You will shine 
More Power to you.
God Bless You 
i think sudden changes can bring more trouble for you so create balance in your life. this means that you create an accountable weekly routine and don’t rush to quit social media 
, i don’t know which social media affects you, so analyze and delete only those that disturb you. however, dont quit social media entirely, try to visit once a day for 5 to 10 minutes okay
lastly remember, don’t rush anything into it and dont forget to create a balanced life and dont run from it okay, take easyy bro
What does it mean? I think u r saying it is very long para nd u don’t have time to read. I too felt that I should add some good habits
Yes. It makes me to mind blocking. I should do it gradually. Sudden changes r making me to confused state.
Sorry, I thought you were Indian so I wrote in Hindi
She’s Indian brother. She’s Tamil, I think.
Not all Indians speak Hindi brother 