Beforehand I would like to apologize. This won’t be exactly an “inspiring” post, so if you were looking for one of those you will find plenty of them elsewhere in the forum.
The title basically sums it up. After a long phase of constant relapses I decided to try again and am currently at 58 days. I will soon surpase my previous streak of 72 days and 90 days + seems really doable from where I am now. So what is the problem?
Well I am not exactly experiencing the “superpowers” people tend to go on about. Sure I am mildly more confident, But that still makes me pretty insecure. Sometimes I feel more awake but usually I am still tired. I think I know why this is the case. Nofap is all I do. I didn’t make groundbreaking changes in my life, like taking on activities, socialising (more) etc. I guess this is my social anxiety which is holding me back, I probably thought the benefits I would gain from nofap would be strong enough to “overpower” the anxiety but this sadly doesn’t seem to be the case.
For a lot of people not fapping seems to be the most challenging thing that consumes all their willpower but for me the other stuff, the stuff you do to build a sucessful life is the most challenging and intimitading thing. So what I am left with is looking at my nofap number going up everyday which does make me proud in a way, I just wish there were more to it.
Again: Sry for the “downer” post. I guess I just wonder if some people on here are struggling with the same issue.