Day 42. I am suffering bad mood swings, from neediness to guilt to depression to shame to malice to jealousy to regret to damn near every negative vibe energy. It was bad last night, and I needed to excuse myself from everyone.
Looks like another test in NoFap has come: the high point of withdrawals. Basically, without meditations and activity, I am one CRANKY mofo! Be prepared, yall! This may not just be exclusive to me. Stay busy and meditate. Stay busy and do hobbies and such. Live your life!
Holy crap, I am halfway there. Living on a prayer Bon Jovi Style. Been feeling down, but very reflective. Been thinking a lot about wanting a wife and kids. With PMO, you kind of throw it all to the side for a time. You numb it all away.
I guessā¦the desire for companionship isnāt just because you are desperate for a dopamine fix; this is possibly the natural, healthy desire that porn destroyed.
You know, the sex drive really is a natural motivator for us to get up and do something with our lives. It really is a powerful tool for us all. We were MEANT to be in a constant state of urges and horniness, as AAHANA mentioned. It gives us power, desire, compassion. The sex drive really IS a blessing and not a curse. We can be free to use that energy for our goals and dreams. Waste all that life energy on porn, and you will fall into depression and stagnation.
We were meant to be in this struggle for sexual desire; it is a powerful motivator and a symbolism of our humanity.
Day 46 almost ending. Okay, that is ANOTHER wet dream now while I was dozing off for a sec. My body really does wanna reboot and keep only the best quality. TMI lol, but I guess this is to be expected during the reboot. It just gets annoying after the third time.
Day 48. A small peek this morning for a second and stopped myself. Fuckā¦third time i peeked in 48 days. Fine, whatever. Slippery slope. I swear this shit is gonna get me if I donāt get right.
Emotions are freaking everywhere. It is like my mind WANTS me to fail. But it really is just me and my fear. Thank you all for holding me accountable; it aint perfect, but this streak is a hell of a lot better than my last ones, even of it is the most painful. Pray for me, as I pray for yall.
Sorry to read that, you are having quite the urges.
The harsh truth is: if you donāt fix your peeking problem now, youāll relapse within 2 to 10 days, guaranteed. You are already reacting to urges instead of proactively reducing them. You wont last long in that state. I know that because Iāve been in your very position quite a few times.
You need more accountability. Have you tried Accountable2You?
Naw, I aint tried. But thanks,bro. Iāll look it up.
Day 50. More than halfway. Thank yall much for the accountability; my last 68 day streak was not even a good one; so much edging and watching, and it felt like a massive cheaand cop out. Never thought I would make it this far. 100 days will come, then 200, then never watch porn, unhealthily mastubate or freaking release unless with a partner or through wet dreams. That life seems more closer than I thought.
itās totally fine. I didnāt get the badge for this month either. maybe it was for a good reason. I just got a place and donāt live in my car anymore. Iāve accomplished that much in those days without PMO. Imagine what else I could accomplish pushing beyond 30 days. Who knows. But I wonāt give up. Iāve finally turned 23 and my birthday. Which means time for change right.?
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Day 51. Thank you, @anon13059885 for the advice, I do need to find an accountability partner. Surprisingly, I am recovering nicely. Been a lazy day, and have been on Reddit looking up posts of people who have had their relationships and lives ruined partly due to porn. A LOOOOOTTTT of hate on the subreddits.
Even hate groups are starting to take notice of Porn addiction and how it affected their lives.
40 days to the 90 day mark. Gonna be a brand new record.
October Challenge 
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