"Check-in" Daily - diary challenge

Week 49 ~ Wednesday

All good, thanks be to God :pray:

Welcome to the Check-in diary @Karan050 @octaveLower :dove:

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Day 2. Check in. May God give me the energy to overcome bad habits😇. Thank you @anon67854825 for the welcome.

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Check in- day 15
All good… glory to God

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Checking in - Thursday 10 October - Day 1

Today was smooth sailing. No urges yet. Took some time to read through some motivational journals and stories.

@anon67854825 and @Forerunner thank you both. I feel very welcome.

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Checking in - Thursday 10th October. All good, thank GOD.

“I have learned over the years that when one’s mind is made up, this diminishes fear.”
Rosa Parks

It was terrifying to say that I would be successful this time, after so many failures. With each one, my self-image worsened and my confidence dropped. That’s something everyone on this journey experiences; a decrease in self-esteem due to being unable to quit. The cycle of shame and guilt erodes our confidence and leads us back to pornography again and again, increasing the damage each time.

But having that mindset was the first step for me. I resolved that no matter what, failure wasn’t an option this time. I would have to do what it took to break free. All those ideas I had in the back of my mind of what would help me, it was time to act them out. I was throwing my life away every day, and it was time to stop.

Now, it’s time to take that same energy and mindset and apply it to self-improvement and turning my life around. With GOD’s Help, I’ll be in a much better place by the end of this year. I’ll put in the effort daily to make that happen.

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Week 49 - ThursDay - Oct 10
Had a small leakage & it’s totally my fault cuz before iEdged for a minute or less (after I stared at cleavage of a lady).
After 19 days – my highest streak in recent time. I was a Freeman, Swordsman & Gentleman but again, I became slave to my Perverted mind. T’was disturbed since y’day but still not an excuse. All my struggles in vain. RESET :fried_egg:

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@rowdy_nik I’m on Day 1 and I can only imagine how tough it gets at day 19. Well done for getting there. Get back up and never give up. We can do this!

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Yes! Thank You brother. That was a journey full of fight against raging emotions & to keep urges in control. But now, I’m not gonna fall into circlejerking. I’ve learnt a little & I will never stop. We’ll get out of this eventually, You too Stay strong brother. Flame On :muscle::fire:

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I relapsed and I feel horrible… :pensive:

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Checkin…thursday and friday…:sunglasses:

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Check in- day 16
All good… glory to God

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Day 3. Check in. We can overcome this habit together. :facepunch:

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Week 11 - Oct 10, Thurs (Check in for Wednesday as well) - Streak: 46 days!

Didn’t check in yesterday because I had to get some sleep.

@octaveLower Welcome to the group man!

@Forerunner Thank you brother, she is indeed something special.

@Positivebloke I haven’t heard of the pomodoro technique, but I’ll check it out! I definitely need some serious study habits.

And I think you are right about the overthinking with schoolwork. It is frustrating, all my work is piling up because of my Calc class. My goal has always been all A’s and I’ve kept it since middle school, but I don’t know if I can do these sleepless nights anymore. I’m getting seriously depressed and worrying about my mental health. The professor isn’t making it any better. Right when I think I have finished all of it for the week, he assigns a huge assignment for the next night and makes a test due on Sunday. I’m losing my mind.

I’m seriously considering just going for C’s in some of these classes and working on building my actually skill. I want to be competitively ahead of my peers when I graduate, and I think skill is what will put me ahead on that, not grades, or at least that’s what I have heard. I mean, what is the selling point of having an A in calculus if I have less programming skills than other possible candidates for hire.

But at the same time, it’s so scary to let go of that. I have had it for so long. And I don’t want to lose my scholarships either.

Jeez la wheez man. I think I do need a serious dose of that meditation your talking about :joy:. I’ll download headspace ASAP.

And thanks bro! She is strong and it’s pretty crazy that I can talk about it with her. My grandparents are who I grew up with and idk how I would ever talk to them about this, but when she came along it changed a lot for me.

Ya sorry for the huge vent.

Also thanks for the recommended read, looks like I could use that right now in my life. I’ll check it out!


Long day, long week.

No urges recently which has been nice. But my prediction is that they will hit hard after all these stressful assignments are over. I think my brain is just in work mode right now. So I’m going to watch out for that.

Even though I’m living moment to moment right now, I have to step back and remember how far I have come this time. This is truly something amazing.

On another note, a girl broke down and started crying in our computer science class today. She just couldn’t take all of this stress from our program along with other things at home going on apparently. I felt really bad for her. I think I’m going to invite her to my friend group group chat for Computer Science. I think it will help her to feel better when she knows all of us are struggling too.

Remember we are not alone guys, in whatever we are doing, wherever we are in life. This addiction doesn’t need to be our demise, the end of our story. And neither does any life circumstance you are going through. We will get through this.

It will take everything we got. It will burn and break us down. But in doing so, we can build ourselves back up with the new knowledge we have gained from this struggle.

It is just like a muscle. When we exercise, we break it and tear it. It hurts, it’s sore, and it sucks. But if we keep at it, it will become stronger as the tissue rebuilds. But we have to keep at it. Persevere through the everyday pain. And day by day, it will become a more capable muscle.

So also will we be more capable with perseverance, with fortitude and resolve in our decision to change.

Stay strong guys :muscle:

Big things are built one brick at a time. Victories are achieved one choice at a time. A life well lived is chosen one day at a time.

-Lysa TerKeurst

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Checking in - Friday 11th October - Day 2

There weren’t any urges today, however, I felt very drained, unproductive and lazy. I’m not sure if this can already be a flatline, just seems too early. Perhaps this low energy and laziness developed because of PMO.

The good news is I fought against this mood no matter how overwhelming it was. I have come to realise that the no PMO lifestyle isn’t about only quitting PMO but also about becoming the best version of yourself that you can be. The time gained should be put to good use.

@Special_Bird thank you for the warm welcome. I wish you all the best with your studies and I hope that you find the right balance for yourself.

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Check-in Thursday & Friday

@rowdy_nik
And specially @anon67854825.
Enough is enough. You can’t keep being stuck at the same cycle anymore.
You need to progress in life, beyond rewire. You deserve better. You deserve Happiness, beyond all these around-the-corner pleasures.

Grab my hand, & rise again.
Promise me, that this is your streak. Promise me, that you’ll do your best.
You have not joined this platform to relapse.
Forgive yourself for what has happened. But make sure you don’t take this forgiveness for granted.

Do not count days, but make each day count.
We cannot let these sex maniacs & child traffickers destroy us as an individual, & more so as a population.
This is not a fight, this is a choice, a choice you land at everyday. Choose mindfully, & join me in my journey :bouquet:
Spread your arms, because I’m giving you a virtual hug :open_hands:
Let’s touch 3 digits together. I want you guys to be there with me for the view from the top :heart:


@Special_Bird
You’ll love the pomodoro technique :ok_hand:
There is an app called goodtime on playstore & also there are lots of websites with pomodoro timers.

It is a timer, basically.
Since we students have to study for hours, focusing seems tiring. And as we are rewiring, stress is common.
So divide your study into chunks of time.

Once you’ve started the pomodoro timer, make sure you respect it enough to not stop it till you’ve achieved the day’s target.
When it starts, first there is a 25 minute timer, where you study with complete focus.
Each study session is of 25 minutes, and counts as 1 pomodoro
After each pomodoro, there is a break for 5 minutes. Do whatever you want in the break session, & don’t push yourself to study.
Washroom, music, chores, walk - choice is yours.

But make sure you come back for the next study session when the bell rings.
After 4 pomodoros, there is a 15 minute break. Which is so enjoyable! :tada:

You’ll realise the importance of these short fragments of time.
5 minutes suddebly starts feeling long.
25 minutes start feeling short.
Wierd, & easy.
You’ll start counting each second subconsciously.

*I have to Study for one pomodoro" sounds better than “I’ll study for 3 hours” because it seems manageable.
You just have to convince yourself to just do one pomodoro & not waste much time procastinating & start the pomodoro timer right away :tada:

You’ll eventually endup doing 4 pomodoros straight (2hours) without even realising the length. It feels shorter.

Try it yourself, there’s alot I can talk about, but it’s better if you discover them yourself.

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That’s a really kind gesture of you wanting to help the girl out. Tells alot about you.
Do it :+1:
Your own stress may relieve while relieving other’s.

And nice analogy with the muscle building. It’s true!
I have read it in robin sharma’s the 5am club, he says that ‘willpower is a muscle, the more you use it the bulkier it becomes.’
And ‘Success is not an event, but a process.’


Everything’s fine here :bouquet:
I have been lazy today. & I won’t let it happen again.
I’ve been struggling with managing my sleep.
Since I am early rising (waking up at 5 am),
I get alot groggy during the day.
I’ve tried napping but, it never works out for me.

The alarm just doesn’t go through my thick skull. I end up oversleeping and disrupting my cycle again.
I’ll wake up at 5 again tomorrow, & try caffeinating.

Anybody got tips for getting freshened up again when feeling drowsy, But without nap?


Imagine an elephant :elephant:
Imagine it walking.
It walks, slowly, majestically. & Keeps walking.

It passes through the thick forest,
Passes through the swamps,
Crosses the river, & the waterfall.
And walks across the grasslands,
And the springs.
Across the valleys, and the desert too.
Uphill & downhill. Doing it’s basic survival activities as it walks.
Across the rocky mountains, & the thick bamboo shoots.

It sees the climate progress along the way.
And walks while it rains,
Walks in the sun’s heat,
Walks as it snows.

But it doesn’t see how far it has reached. All it focuses on is the next step, and the next step, & the next.
One foot, then another, & another. Enjoying the focus, enjoying the silence, even in dangers & noise.

That’s what progress is.
Not how far you reach. But how mindfully you experience the moment, and what you choose to do now.

Good night :crescent_moon:

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I usually try meditation first, but if I still feel depleted I have found that exercising really helps, anything to get the heart pumping and blood flowing, even a brisk walk does the job.

Good luck with this. I have a similar struggle at the moment. If you find something useful that I haven’t mentioned yet please do share. I’m open to new ideas.

I wish you a good nights rest.

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That’s very kind of you @Positivebloke. I’m abstaining 100% from P, also staying off chaser effect. Just have to gain more strength. I promise this time I gonna cross a month n beyond.
Also, heard abt Pomodoro technique before. Will try to adapt it too.

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Checking in - Friday 11th October. All good, thank GOD.

Day 120! :grin::pray:t4::raised_hands:t5:

Time is the most precious element of human existence.
Denis Waitley

An old man presents you with two choices.

One is a massive skyscraper of £20 notes, crumpled, muddy and dusty with cobwebs on them, towering far into the sky. The elderly man tells you that it’s over £1.5 billion. “Ah, but you don’t want that, my friend. Look at how long it would take to clean up! Who wants the stress and hassle? It’s not worth the effort.”

The second choice is a nice, crisp, brand-new £5 note, fresh from the mint. The old man presents it to you with great excitement, like a cheque from the lottery. “This is what you came for! Take it, no strings attached! And I’ve more where that came from!” He shows you hundreds of £5 notes, a shoebox full. “Come back whenever you want, and I’ll hand you another £5!”

What choice do you make? Easy right? I don’t care how dirty £1.5 billion is, I’m cleaning it up and taking it with me! I’ll hire 30 people to clean those notes if that’s what it takes.

But every time we relapse, we choose that shiny £5 note instead of the beautiful life we could be living. We easily forget how precious life is, and the consequences of our actions become cloudy and murky within our minds at the moment of temptation.

That skyscraper represents the next 50 years of your life. Sure, some work will be needed to repair the damage caused by the addiction, but your life is infinitely more worthwhile than 5 seconds of pleasure from pornography. The time we have today, we can never gain again. If you relapse, you’ll wish you had those days in your streak back again. It’s never worth it.

Let’s take charge of our lives and make the next 50 years beautiful!

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Week 49 ~ Friday

Thank you for your kind words of support @Positivebloke :pray: Bless you :dove:

Hey @sdom Thinking of you today :pray:

Unfortunately for the community I had a fall - I know we don’t like them, but I’m fine.
I’ve been overthinking things a lot recently, re-addressing my reasons. My many ideas about why to quit have been smashed - but it’s a good thing.

Today I’m saying “Yes” to 30 days free of pmo, for nothing other than; upholding a decision.
My focus is God alone.

Thanks be to God for today and bringing me here.
Gladly back at Day 0 - pray that I’m always being guided by God and not my ego

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Day 4. Check in. If you think positive, the things always become easier. Its all depend upon our mind.:smiley:

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