@rajameghanan Yes bro, I will surely reach my target this time. @Amitroghates I know bro, this is a very hard path but we need to walk if we need to change.
This will be a eye-opening diary.
My journey started but I ate too much food and didnât exercise today. Because of it I am not feeling sleepy. Yesterday slept at 2 am and now its 12 am here.
Brain getting messed up and routine also.
Personally, Iâd be wary of giving myself monumental targets. You know, failing on the path to your goal may sometimes lead you off track into a downward spiral. But hey, everyoneâs different. Whatever works for you bro. More power to you!
Iâve currently adapted the approach of being better than yesterday.
Donât worry about that buddy, a relapse doesnât delegitimize your journey, itâs a part of it.
That is undoubtedly a great idea. One should not get too hung up on the number of days. Just get busy with your stuff and check in once in a while (or not) to rejoice at the progress youâve made.
I would say never take it as a challenge , it would be more herculean. Do you count whether you have brushed ur teeth, ate food , bathed , slept or studied? Nobody does. So treat it the same. Keep saying to yourself that the there is no thing called porn or fapping. Fapping doesnât exist. As for me, Sexual thoughts donât make me hard anymore, nothing does. I donât get erections anymore. Some will say it is erectile dysfunction. But no erection(unless u have a sexual partner) is a curse if u are practising no fap. I mean u cant resist the urge if u have an erection. Tell me if u agree or diaagree.
I agree with that point.
What I think is âI am not a fapperâ because if I say âI am trying to quitâ Brain will think I am stopping this.
But if I feed my brain saying âI am not a fapperâ so brain will take it as I donât fap anyore
My urge because of erection reduced (100%) by doing 108 rounds of Ashwin Mudra.
But when urge comes , someone in my brain keeps saying âdonât do it, donât do that mudra, urge is a part of life ,accept that urge, itâs sometimes ok to do jâ˘rk.â
Today I chanted Hanuman Chalisa for 3 minutes while practicing Aswin Mudra⌠My urge to jâ˘rk off converted into a feeling of peeing or urination. Completely honest experience.
I released pee in my bathroom. I didnot fâ˘p. No urge for 1 hour.
Again urge came. My strong determination knelt down infront of urge.
Today also I didnât do any workout or study.
All I did was scoring bounty to beat Blacklist racers 15 and 14
Also Psycho Pass anime and Fifa collecting TOTY players
I am free from PMO using this technique from 4 to 5 days using this thought. It is really working.
I even chant Lords Name whenever I felt strong urge. I chant Lord Kalabhairabhâs Name 108 times. Then urge vanishes for 1 - 3 hours.
I usually chanting Lordâs Name mentally throughout the day if I feel lazy and mentally weak to give up.
Today also didnât study, workout or did anything productive. Wasted whole day.
Played Most Wanted most of the time and watched Psycho Pass for few hours.
But I felt a slight pain in my balls and I had dizziness and headache for few hours. Now I am ok
Procrastinated till afternoon without doing anything productive.
I forgot which day I am on. Because of not counting days I am able to maintain my journey well and I am extremely happy.
I got urges today but I kept on switching things and dealt with it. But got emotional and angry over stupid things. Sometimes I feel sick also. Today I had a burning sensation in the Penis. Now itâs gone.
Today my procrastination gets over. Tomorrow onwards full on serious mode.
Making new changes in journal. Like others, I am also gonna add these 2 emojiâs for my dairy.
For task completed
For task not completed
EDIT: I am very happy to say that itâs my DAY 4 without PMO
Due to too much happiness I relapsed But I didnât felt sad, angry or depressed. Will give a shot again.
Not counting days is really working.
Starting again today fresh.
I am feeling improvement now. Till last week I couldnât go beyond day 1 but now I have crossed 4 days.
Same strategy following again.
EDIT: For past few days my routine was messed up and had no interest in working out. From today starts the grind. Also this will be the last time I will be active at this time.
Today onwards will be sleeping at 10:00 am or 10:30 am.
TASKS TODAY
100 bench crunches
Study 6 hours
Cycling 10 km
BODY UPDATE
Not much changes have happened. Itâs hard to produce result but will not give up. The reason for this fat to occur is because of me sitting in the sofa without taking care of my body. Need to burn those extra fat.