You have fulfilled your dream earlier , so be patient and you’ll again fulfill it. Start doing the things which you did earlier when you were living nofap. It’s consistency in our efforts that actually make our work more complete .
Ill definitely try those things again.
Again to Day 0
I relapsed again. Damn this chaser effect. Feeling good at heart is one thing. Seeking bodily pleasure is another. I must not confuse them.
I need to go all out if i want to make another successful streak. This means:
total dopamine detox,
no movies etc
staying the hell away from triggers,
and meditation etc.
I will succeed again. I must. Try Try again and Never give up.
It could’ve been day 2 today… Keep that in mind before you relapse
I’ll keep in mind. Thanks
Remember this feeling if urges hit- A LETTER TO MY FUTURE SELF- DAY 0
If you are tempted to relapse O my future self, then heed my words. I quit PMO for 101 days. And on 101th day, I relapsed. I thought the pleasure is real and satisfactory. But remember, the pleasure is not real (DOPAMINE is addiction chemical, not happiness chemical, it hijacks body’s pleasure systems and depletes the body of true pleasure with a wife every time a person masturbates, it motivates you to jerk off, IT SAYS JERK OFF AND ALL THESE WITHDRAWALS AND LACK OF FOCUS AND CONCENTRATION WILL GO AWAY WICH BTW PMO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR) , it’s temporary and not real. It is not satisfactory. If it were satisfactory, I would have stopped after I jerked off once. But in the past 9 days, I jerked off 30 times with 8 times and 7 times in single days.
Now today, after 8 times, I feel empty. I feel weak. I feel unsatisfied. I have stooped so low on porn that I cannot speak of the things I saw. No person would even look at me if they knew what I jerked off to. All I did in last 9 days was eat like an animal and masturbate like an animal. I watched movies, animes and seasons all day. I didn’t studied even a single word. My routine was fucked up and I tried to correct it, trying hard not to sleep in the day. I ate, jerked off to lowest of porn standard and watched movies all day and night. There is no purpose to how I am living.
If after abstaining from PMO for 101 days and masturbating 30 times the last 9 days, I WISH I HADN’T HAD RELAPSED IN THE FIRST PLACE,
THEN RELAPSING IS NOT WORTH IT!!!
THE PLEASURE IS NOT WORTH IT. YOU WILL REGRET SO BAD THAT YOU WOULD WISH YOU HAD A TIME MACHINE TO STOP YOURSELF THE FIRST EXPOSURE OF PORN. HELL, EVEN STOPPING THE LAST RELAPSE WOULD SEEM A MAGICAL DREAM COME TRUE!!!.
So please, don’t fall down slowly and slowly until you relapse. Don’t stop improving. Don’t watch movies, seasons and animes. Study and exercise everyday. BE BUSY!!!. MEDITATE!!!.
I BEG YOU!!!. MY FUTURE SELF!!!.
PLEASE. DON’T. RELAPSE!
I’M TELLING YOU!.
RELAPSE IS NOT WORTH THE PAIN, REGRET, DISAPPOINTMENT AND GUILT!!!
YOU CAN QUIT, IT’S POSSIBLE!!!. PEOPLE HAVE CROSSED 300, 500 AND 1000 DAYS!!!.
JUST LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES!!!
Become your best version!!!
Imagine yourself with:
A successful CAREER
A beautiful happy WIFE who loves you
No depressing, suicidal, perverted or sad thoughts and mind
A healthy, clean and non addicted MIND
A fit, powerful and healthy BODY
An energetic, motivated, inspiring and motivated PERSONALITY
A beautiful, clean and good SOUL
Endless POTENTIAL and Endless POSSIBILITIES
DON’T SACRIFE ALL THESE only to lose these and gain nothing but SADNESS , REGRET , FAILURE and GUILT.
BE WISE! SAVE YOURSELF!
A sad perverted loser who believes he can change and who NEVER GIVES UP
Wow, thanks bro…bless you brother @madhavbansal