Talked to a very dear friend yesterday. He was busy but didn’t bother about it and I took a lot of his time. I’m feeling terrible right now.
We’re not related by blood but he’s done so many selfless things for me and I won’t be able to pay them back. Other than a parent I doubt anyone would do something like this.
Finding a person like him would be near impossible in this world today. He’s blessed by the divine and I’m blessed to have him. I love him a lot.
I apologized to him but it doesn’t feel enough. Won’t let it stress me out too much though and hopefully he recovers from his own stuff too.
Man I got another nightfall after a gap of just 2 days.
I didn’t even have an erotic dream, I was just badly stressed. It’s not a good thing, but I believe it is a start of something great.
This is true
Also i did notice that many people (including me) mind has corrupted
Like there are thjbgs which should be pwrceievd as work or normal duty
But due to corn we end up thinking that behind something dirty is happening and people laugh about that
I know it sounds vague but i refrain from giving example because i fear some1 might get triggered
Bro you may try the chinese practice Gu Shen Gong (固腎功, the practice to fix kidney), kidney in chinese medicine is the storage tank of semen, this practice can lock the semen and avoid nightfall. You may do this several times before sleep. I practised it and it really helps prevent nightfall.
Yeah i understand it’s hard to believe lol actually i didn’t quite believe in Chinese medicine until my health had been devastated by PMO, and then i realized the knowledge of Chinese medicine is real. I would say our body is very complex that modern science still cannot fully comprehend.
So what is the role of balls in Chinese medicine then?
Also my reason for nightfall is more of a psychological one rather than physiological. It happened because I was badly stressed but I refused to peek. So my mind needed that dopamine high and that’s why it happened.
I finally processed my anxiety today.
It was bugging me for 2 weeks. It’s out and I’m feeling awesome. I’m glad I didn’t give in to urges, took up the no peek challenge and stood my ground.
This is not the end of course and in the upcoming time I’ll need to acquire the skill to process it faster. 2 weeks is a long ■■■ time.
It mentions little about the balls, Chinese medicine kind of seeing the body as a whole rather than separate organs. It focuses on 5 organs (or systems with the organ as representative): heart, liver, spleen, lung and kidney. We may say the balls belong to kidney. It is hard to understand scientifically, but we can feel it. After O, we would feel our waist get cold and weak, also our legs would be weaker, that’s the symptoms of depletion of essence from kidney (essence is the same as semen in chinese). More importantly, kidney dominates growth of nervous system, so depletion of semen would impact brain functioning.
Another important part of Chinese medicine is meridians, each organ has its own meridian. And the Gu Shen Gong practice can activate the gall bladder meridian and kidney meridian, so can help lock the semen.
Kind of complicated wish it helps a bit
Well that’s similar to Ayurveda (traditional Indian medicine) and I believe modern medicine has come to accept it as well, but that is in primitive stage.
Of course withdrawal symptoms prove it, because mental problems affect the whole body. Digestion is affected too.
Okay I got it now. The whole lower area is the domain of kidney.
I had forgotten where did I get my profile picture from . Now I know and now I’ll keep it here.
And for those who don’t know, he is called Bhishma. He’s a character in Hindu epic called Mahabharata, who had taken a vow of lifetime celibacy and had never spilled his seed in his entire life.
He was possibly the strongest mortal in the epic and even at a very old age (with all white hair and beard) he was near impossible to be killed. When he fought against his grandchildren (well technically step grand nephews, as he never had kids but his step siblings did) and they were all scared of him.
The similarity I see here
In Ayurveda there’s a concept called Ojas, which is your life force and it is present in your heart. It is owing to this Ojas you are able to do anything with all your might. You are able to put your heart into anything. But when you fap you lose your Ojas and the results are quite clear. Loss of motivation.
Bhishma had the highest concentration of Ojas owing to never have spilled his seed and thus even at old age he was an invincible warrior.
That’s what lifetime of celibacy does to you.
This is exactly the same as Essence/semen (精) in Chinese medicine. In detail, we have 3 treasures in our body: essence, vital energy and spirit (精氣神), the essence is described as the subtle matter of the body, only if our body is full of essence we can develop vital energy and spirit. That’s why semen retention can help us gain vitality and a clear mind.
We are blessed as Chinese and Indians that our ancestors left us the wisdom of ancient medicine, so we know the damage of PMO and the ways to recover our body.
So yesterday was actually good. I spent around 5-6 hours at library. I need to do it more often. My phone was on digital detox for the entire day, so no watching ■■■■ was out of the question. It’s been roughly 18 days since no peek challenge, and I haven’t given thoughts to sexual stuff as well so it’s been going good.
A 3rd thing I learned
Now I have to work on my other goals and get productive.
I now realize that people get really happy when their streak is 4-5 days, however as someone who has been practicing nofap my heart tells me that 4-5 days is barely something. I’m not disrespecting those who reached that milestone, but addressing the problem regarding coomers who masturbate every single day. It is not normal at all, it is highly damaging to one’s body and psyche. That’s why people who attempt to stop it and reach a week feel so proud of themselves. Of course they should feel proud of being able to fight through an addiction, no doubt about it. But if we compare today’s men with our ancestors, they aren’t really men.
Our ancestors were really strong, and if we were to brag to them about our achievements, they will laugh at us. Because what we are struggling to do today was normal and effortless for them.
Our mind looking for a girl’s body parts instead of face and not being able to interact with her is not a normal thing at all. You should be able to have female friends without such second thoughts.
You should be able to see her as a person with thoughts and ideas instead of breasts and whatever is between her legs. (I’m talking about women who don’t sexualize themselves, of course there’s plenty of them on the internet who use their looks and body to draw attention, we’re not talking about that.)
Yes her undergarments might be visible sometimes, so what? Why make a big deal about it? She’s a human just like you are. She obviously has genitals just like she has arms and legs. You have them too. You wear undergarments too. You breathe, she breathes too. You eat and poop out, no doubt she does the same. It’s the human body. Eating, breathing, excretion, reproduction all are common to every human body that exists. But humans are more than that. They are beings with thoughts and ideas.
I will keep contemplating on this because I need to make it my normal. I might be better than many in this world, but it is not enough.
Majority of people in this world have their psyche damaged as of today, thanks to ■■■■. Some of us are trying to fix it, and they’re on this forum.
To everyone who is struggling be proud of yourself and keep moving ahead. Realize that you are way superior to those who don’t try at all and especially those who mock you or call nofap cringe or what not. It’s definitely a dark tunnel but when you start seeing the light their opinions won’t matter to you at all.
wish it helps a bit
