Name : atharva_aaaaaa
Code : 5tegrc
Highest streak : idk
Current streak : will start tomorrow
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17 January check-in 
Day 66 
Today was the most dangerous day in my journey as i was about to relapse
And i totally learned a lot from this day
Today i was going to take my shower as usual
But this went different
As before i went to bathroom
My family told me they are going out
So the first thing that came to my mind is PMO
But i ignored that feeling and continued
So here is the thing
i am one of the people that take thier phone with them in the bathroom
So imagine it
Alone + in the bathroom + phone
I think you all know what will happen
Of course the majority will relapse directly
So i was using Pinterest ( which also is a dangerous app as it might urge you easily )
A photo came to my eye that gave me instant urge
In this moment there was no will power anymore
It’s the moment of weakness
That beated most of the heroes before
So what saved me from this moment then ?
It’s the knowledge power
As an expert no fapper i read a lot of topics about PMO
I read books
I read everything
So this moment was to prove what i
learned so far
There is also one thing that prevented me besides the knowledge power
It’s you guys
Yes you (my family)
If i relapsed then how i will show myself to you ?
I am trying to prove something to you and to myself before you
But what makes me annoyed is where is my god from all that ??
Why haven’t i thought in that moment that HE sees me donig sin
I needed to remember that also
That’s is more important than anything else
But i am asking forgiveness from the sin i was about to do
And i am also thankful to ALLAH as he prevented me from this trap
So what did i learn from that day
- Don’t take your phone with you to the bathroom
2.read as much as possible anything related to NoFapping ( books -topics - researches -etc…)
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Day 90, here we come
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The only way to get out of this. It’s with someone who can give you love and everything you deserve. She will be your p*** and not the online. However fighting single and without help of anybody on this, is impossible.
I’m sorry but you might not hear of me again once I have found a girl and is not lonely anymore. However I might never be back. Good journey to all. My mental health is in trouble I can’t fight I gotta be happy or I’ll die of depression if I don’t.
I wish to find that girl someday and be able to get away from this pain good bye.
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@andythepro65 brother don’t worry. You do what you think is good for you. Take care of your mental health. Just remember that you are not alone. You have loving parents and family. You have friends. You have us, your RC companions. You are not alone and you don’t need a girl to go on this rewiring journey.
Many people fell back to this PMO because their girl left them. They went into depression. Believe me, being single is not a bad thing.
You take care of yourself and do your best. Good wishes to you. Return when you feel like it. All the best.
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@VAGABOND wow man, that’s so scary to read. We could have read your ‘I relapsed’ message. This is a close call.
You have come so far brother, you are our inspiration. You should up your game. Do more thinking and meditation. Maybe you should stop using mobile in toilet too. Take care brother. You are doing great. Maybe a very dangerous urge will come in your future. An urge if you overcome you will be free. A final test. So be prepared brother. You are not done yet. You can do it.
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@VAGABOND it’s true brother. Do not ignore this. This is exactly how I relapsed so please be prepared for your final test
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@NeverGiveup420 @Binocular
They say
WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER
So i have become more aware now
This was a slip
But you know in my second biggest streak i relapsed in these days also (on day 71 )
But i am completely different now
And i am expecting more hardships from now on
But let them come to me
I am not scared and i will not relapse
These are my words
Mark them
And i really appreciate your words , brothers
Thank you very much 
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Check in day 28
Daily tasks
- Meditation
- Watched motivational video
- Exercise
- Study
- No trigger from screen
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Check in day 29
Daily task
- Meditation
- Watched motivational video
- Exercise
- Study
- No trigger from screen
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Congrats bro for defeating the urge by knowledge. In this case i relapsed in day 52, 5 days ago. A small photo opened all the demons inside me. From that day, i kept on relapsing 3 days continuously and i couldn’t stop it. Today i completed day 1. Hope i wont again do that mistake again.
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Thanks
And it’s not impossible to beat PMO
You just need calm mind + growing knowledge + will power + busy day
This is the needings to fight PMO properly
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19 January check-in
Day 68
Some urges
Was a little close
But no worry i am taking care
And i will not relapse
You hear me ?
Mark my words
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Hello guys I am so sorry its all my fault all my friends im sorry. You guys might be mad at me. I never wanted this but I have started to suffer from depression I had to take a break and I gotta get it away from me, this is how its been going for me. HOWEVER I AM NOT GIVING UP THIS TIME, AND I MEAN IT WITH ALL MY WILL AND POWER. WITH ALL MY DREAMS AND KNOWLEDGE, A CHANGE HAS STARTED:
My mental health has been a disaster. I eventually got addicted to energy drinks, my mind has been feeling sad and bad lately making me want to feel all that sadness. I have taken a test and I am assure I have depression. My anxiety skyrockets like everyday. I feel like I do something wrong. Why would I do this get back give up get back give up. I can’t give up. My favorite singer chester bennington, told a quote many years ago. He said:
“You can’t be afraid of people willing to hurt you, cause if you fear life, then you will never live”.
This quote has saved me and made me think. My mental health got bad. Because of many events between me vs lgbtq. They got worse once I found out my ex is now lesbian and someone I always loved rejected me when I tried my hardest to get her. She ended up with a trans. It all happened on vacation and once I got back my mental health worsened. I am doing bad at math and worried about it, I shouldn’t. My mom pushing me to get a job. It’s hurting me. This have all been going to me.
Thanks to chester bennington his own words saved me from almost going insane like he did. And I might end up suiciding some years later. I can’t do that. I know god is watching me and tries to make all the better for me. So I am back. This time I will change for real. This time is no more playing games. I will now achieve over 30 days, and live happily. Also girls hah they will come their way and if they don’t who cares. Gotta be happy than being sad all the time…
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No-fap start. A new recovery. Through sadness and pain. The light will always show the way.
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I finally see it man. I love being single. Now I don’t care about any girl or love. Gotta be happy which is all that matters and I am ready to fight. I might also not let go my energy drink addiction because it’s actually been helping me than hurting me. It has made me think why do all of this stay active go run a 10 mile. I gotta lose weight and well I will do moderation but I will still drink it.
Why: somehow this drink been a problem solver towards me. Helping my sadness go away. The great things is that I can push those drinks away for an entire month. All I will get is wanting more of it but I got water don’t I. But yes it will be really helpful for my exercise, and a great way to lose weight finally look skinny like I always wanted and later start hitting the gym once again since I also gave up on it.
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Keep striving consistently.you will Win ultimately…Hit the gym ,it will improve mood very much …
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Check in day 30
Daily task
- Meditation
- Watched motivational video
- Exercise
- Study
- No trigger from screen
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Day 3 going to complete with a positive thought.
Of course, the day is not perfect as planned.
Just lived in the process of goodness.
Good feeling at the end of this day by accepting things as it is. But at the same time, stood for myself through my actions.
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