Yes that is the reason why. I’m sorry man, it was all in my mind since today I will delete all that stuff and stop thinking about that with all my will.
And yes I know I always say I will make this and then I fail. I don’t want to make myself feel like a loser for not caring about what I was doing wrong. I must fight this time for real and stop this madness at once.
You finally got someone else on your side this time.