Hi all!
Call me Tiger. This is my first topic. I’m writing this to introduce myself to the Rewire Companion community. I also wanna provide motivation or inspiration, hope, support and a relatable story. Thanks Taher for making this app, forum and connecting us.
It started when I was 9 or 10 with watching nude pictures on adult websites. Then I got access to faster internet. I started downloading and watching adult videos on my desktop. I also bought and fapped to adult video CDs and DVDs. Fast forward a decade, I have high speed internet, portable devices and freely available adult content and I’m hooked. My compulsion is mild. Also, I never explored or ever needed any extreme or dark contents.
I wanna quit this because it’s destroying my life - slowly, gradually, invisibly, but surely. Often I find it hard to get and stay motivated to start working and get things done. I feel lazy and want things to be easy. So I often procrastinate. I feel PMO (maybe also YouTube) has made it harder for me to focus, be present, listen deeply and connect fully with others. I find it hard to be interested in others and have fulfilling conversations. Maybe it also damaged my attraction to women in real life. I wanna overcome this to heal my childhood trauma. My ACE score is 6 or 7.
Although I’m trying to win one day at a time, my goal is to complete a 30-day and then a 90-day hard reboot. For me soft reboot doesn’t seem to work. Once I fap, then it goes downhill, maybe it’s chaser effect. I hope the app and community will help me overcome this compulsion for good. Last time I found the app’s message board to be helpful, especially on the days with high temptation and urges. My longest streak is 30 days and 12 hours, last December.
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Thank you for reading!
