Unfortunately, I have just relapsed. This is the most amount of despair I have experienced in a really long time but I will not surrender. Life is a journey and the fight isn’t over till it’s over.
The fall caught me by surprise and was one of simple impulse. looking back it was easy to see how this happened. I got hurt and then went on vacation. I was unable to practice physical self discipline which led me to stop in all areas of life. my defences were weak and when the impulses came I failed. I will learn from this experience and start fresh tomorrow.
From now on, no more unnecessary internet use. I will allow this forum and even that I will try to limit to once a day.
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April 25
Day 1
A new beginning.
For fighters Friday I am limiting my internet use to necessary internet only. Over all my self discipline has been bad the past 2 weeks. Need to buckle down
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
My Long term Goals for mind, body and soul!
Mind Goals
- Learn a Language
- Learn an Instrument
- Kinesics (Mentalist)understanding Body language
- Master apologetics -understand and be able to prove the existence of God and not just feel it. through philosophy, science, metaphysics
Body Goals - Muscle up
- Hand stand push up
- “Bring sally up” pushup challenge
- 1000lb club
- Run a Marathon
- Complete a Murph (1 mile run, 100pull-ups, 200 push-ups,300 squats, 1 mile run with 20lb under 60 min)
Soul Goals - Purity of heart
- Stop sinning entirely
- Master scripture (the word of God)
- Endure a 7 day fast (nothing but water)
- Build a deep personable relationship with God
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It really hit me in the chest when I read this. I was so happy for you when I read that you made it to 30 days because I’d just recently failed. Some of your triggers seem to be similar to mine, and I fell down hard recently too. I’m happy to walk the beginning of the path together with you. Looking up to you for support
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Hey brother,
I just read about your relapse. I hope that you can help me understand, how do you fall when you are married? I am getting married in three months and I just needs some tips on how to make her happy. Brother you got 30 days the last time I know you can do it again with even more days.
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First of all congrats on your upcoming marriage! That’s awesome! Secondly I would love to share any wisdom I can give.
When I First got married I didn’t watch p for 8 months but over time it came back into my life.
I have to warn you that marriage is not a magic solution. It’s not like you get married and so suddenly your will power has changed. You still have to master your self and not be a slave to your passions even if you are married or single.
I will admit that it’s easier for me to reach longer streaks simply because I’m married and the opportunity to watch p is not there as much as when I was single. But there are times when you are awake and your wife is sleeping or you are away at work or you are home alone sick.
Whatever you do, you must continue to practice self discipline and self sacrifice. @Knight_Rider
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April 26
Day 2
I’m coming back swinging! I refuse to quit and I will be free with the help of God. I want to become so pure of heart that demons flee in shame at their own inability to touch me. St. Joseph is my model and patron for this journey as he holds the awesome title “terror of demons”
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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April 27
Day 3
I’m really focusing on limiting my internet use to work related things as well as this forum 1 or 2 time a day. I decided that I will also allow myself to check the news 2 times a week.
Being very strict in my discipline will give me some buffer room before I start running into triggers.
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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April 28
Day 4
Going away on a construction trip for a couple of days. I’m excited about the opportunity but I will be more open to attacks so I need to be super careful while I’m gone. It’s a good way to challenge myself and while starting a new streak that hopefully last forever. With the help of God I will be free
Done | Fulfillment For Today
|----|----|
| | Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times |
| | 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me |
| | Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure |
| | focus on nose breathing |
| | 50 push-ups |
| | No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) |
| | no unnecessary internet |
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April 29
Day 5
Getting some good long days of work in on my work trip. It keeps me busy and it makes me tired so I can sleep very easily. Temptations are strong but I’m staying in the fight
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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As much as it pains me to say it I messed up again. I still had the low energy and motivation from my last fall a couple days ago and entered a spiral. I will start again fresh tomorrow. Hoping the love date challenge will boost my motivation because it’s pretty low right now.
1 day at a time and with the help of God I will be free
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May 1
Day 1
I have a ton of motivation going into this next streak. When I reach 1000 days I will stop counting. 1 day at a time. Refuse to quit and I am relentless.
With Gods help I will be free.
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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May 2
Day 2
I’m going home today after being gone all week on a work trip. I’m excited to see my wife and son again 
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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May 3
Day 3
I went to a priest today and talked. I also spoke with some people who were suffering and had recovered from terrible addictions. It has given me a ton of motivation. I know I will be free from the help of God. I’m nervous going into this week. Will be away from home for 5 days. Temptations will be strong. Must stay vigilant and disciplined
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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May 4
Day 4
Going on another work trip tomorrow and I will be gone for the week. I’m nervous about how much time I will have to myself without my wife being there. I need to be strong and rely heavily on God for help.
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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Brother which job offers so many trips ?
I’m Little confused, u used to search for work and now it seems like u had a job since eternity. Anyways…congrats 
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Thanks but it’s a lot of jumping around. I’m doing construction right now on a site away from home. I’m picking up jobs when they are available. It’s definitely not the most stable way to live but it is paying the bills and I’m able to provide for my wife and son. I have faith and trust that the Lord will provide for me.
I’m still applying for jobs in the hopes of having a more stable work/home situation
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May 5
Day 5
Staying strong and really focused on discipline in all areas of life. I have to be super strict while I’m away. No excuses.
I’m leaving this addiction in the past!
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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Ohh I got it… thanks for clearing my doubts 
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May 6
Day 6
Had some temptations this morning but instead had a big glass of water did some praying and now I’m ready to take on the day.
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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May 7
Day 7
Having of strong urges and little moments of weakness. Need to be super strict today or I will fall
| Done | Fulfillment For Today |
|---|---|
| Nofap (no triggers, no social media, custody of the eyes and mind at all times | |
| 15 minutes of daily conversational prayer. Need to build a relationship with the one who strengthens me | |
| Cold showers. must learn to say no to pleasure | |
| focus on nose breathing | |
| 50 push-ups | |
| No phone in the restroom. Waste to much time at home and at work (this weeks add on) | |
| no unnecessary internet |
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