My journey about how masturbation destroyed me

HII Everyone
Today I’m gonna share my journey with you guys.
I’m 24 years old and was addicted to masturbation from last 8 years .
I still remember the first day when i jerked off it was something unique and different experience which i had never experienced in my life and this lead to the down fall of my self.
I wanted to experience the same pleasure which i had experienced from masturbation and i continue to do it
Gradually it became my habit in next 2 years.
Now I’m not satisfied by masturbation once a day i continue to masturbate around 3-4 time a day.
I used to be the topper of my class, confident guy who use to take part in various cultural activities,even the most beautiful girl of my class was my girlfriend but even then also i was so indulged in mastrubation.
My stamina got reduce, body became weak, got dark circles around my eyes, grades reduces rapidly.
I realised that this habit of mine eating me everyday and wanted to stop this.
But when everytime i try to stop it i fails and started doing the fapping.
My girlfriend was also not happy with me because i was masturbating everyday, not able to give her time used to sleep early, gradually it lead to fall of the relationship.
She was beautiful,helping, supportive,caring but i lost a good person because of this habit of mine and i regret it till today.
And then i made up my mind that now no matter what I will stop masturbation,porn everything which deal to downfall of mine.
i was able to control my self for around 30 days but then i was not able to control my urges and started faping now this time around 6-7 times a day .
Hair started to fall .suffered from epidimities(testicular pain )but still continues to mastrubate. Completed my engineering but still not able to stop masturbation.
From last 4 years i wanted to stop this habit of mine but everytime i fails and regret my self that i indulged in the loop again.
Maximum i was able to stop for 30-40 days and my skin started to glow i gain little confidence in my self ,girls started approaching me but then boom
The next day i was betting my meat for around 6-7 times a day.
But
Now I started doing mediation, exercise because this time I won’t quit.
I’m gonna make a life style with out porn nd no betting my dick no matter what nd became that same handsome,intelligent, confident person whom i was proud of myself.
I know the journey is hard to break my habit from last 8 years.
But i believe in my self
Thank god I had found a community of men who wanted to improve themselves and beat the devil inside them.

I need your support guys
Please comment for some suggestions and ignore if any grammatical mistake.
Thankyou

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Whoa.

Sounds a lot like my story. I’m also 24 but I fell into this hole 13 years ago. Although initially it was not porn.

I also feel that I’ve wasted a lot of my potential due to this dark habit.

Stay strong brother. It’s better late than never. We all will achieve back what was taken from us.

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Thanks brother.
We gonna make it :muscle:

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I also started my journey because of these reasons plus some more.
However I m 20 years old but I lost many things bcz of PMO. So yeah cheers to you for your journey and don’t hesitate to ask for any help. :maple_leaf:

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Thankyou brother.
It’s good to know you have started this PMO journey in 20.
All the best for your career.

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I hope you could get a better life with no PMO brother. We are there for you. Keep going.

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If you are interested, join in this challenge bro.

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Thanks brother for the support.
Yes i had enrolled in this challenge and gonna make sure i complete this one without any fail .

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Hey bro what is your sharing code?

It is similar to my story too. I am 24 and i had the most beautiful girl of school as my girlfriend in class 11th but i was unable to quit porn and masturbation so after 6 years of long relationship and all her support though i was unable to stop it and then she changed her priorities left me studied hard cleared net jrf and started doing p.hd and i am still trying to stop fapping but i am unable to. I know one day i will but losing her is something very hurtbreaking for me . I loved her but this porn and masturbation thing snatched her from me my memory from me and all my talents of singing drawing painting all it took my confidence away and made me a sick person who is always fighting with his porn addiction not quiting somehow.i know this is the kind of fight which I’ll have to fight for my whole life but i want results i want to be successful in my career i want to get out of my mind
I meditate i exercise but nothing is showing results because i am masturbating too…
So fucked up

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This is my code bro:
n5ws7n

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Don’t lose hope my friend.
I know the journey is hard but the result of this will be extraordinary.
Watch salil jamadar porn series on you tube it have 3 episodes.it will provide you motivation

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Okay friend
Thank you for your support

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This is nice, keep it up

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Looks like you have had a life much similar to mine. I also joined this community when I was 24, used to be the topper, intelligent and what not. Even this is funny that my addiction was as bad as yours, if not worse. Except that I never really had a lover. I started when I was like 14-15, and came her after ten years. So, you’re also here much earlier than me. Additionally, you’re an engineer which means you are more employable than me lol. You have got a lot going your way, champ. If I could overcome it then there’s not a flake of doubt that you’ll win the battle too. Just believe in yourself. All the best.

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Thanks brother.:blush::muscle::muscle:
I will surely beat that devil inside me and gonna be the best version of myself.

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