Upto Aug 12,2020 I used to watch porn and masturbate twice a week.
I thought not to masturbate for some time to get high libido. On Aug 21,2020. I felt the urge to watch porn and masturbate. On that particular day parents aggressively started looking for a partner in matrimonial sites. All this stress about future life partner and whether I will be able to perform with her made me mental pressure. I could not maintain erection with porn. I got more panic. 2 days later I again started watching porn. I was getting erections. On Aug 28,2020 I went to a spa where I got a good handjob. Though had anxiety I got Erection.
Due to this ongoing anxiety I consulted a doctor. He gave me efil. It worked. But I got more consumed in porn and spa. Since I was getting addicted to the meds. I left the meds.
Down to October 15, October 17,October 18. I watched porn, masturbated. Did not have satisfying erection on 18 October.
I completely stopped watching porn from 19th October. Initial days 21,23,25,26 October I was very horny and I had non penetrative sex in Spas. I was confident. But on 28 October suddenly I lost erection, I suddenly lost desire of sex, anxiety took over me, I felt fatigue.
Does this happen in the 10th day of nofap journey.?
Will I be able lose the performance anxiety that sometimes come in my mind? I have seen my erection loose after performance anxiety.
I have also felt my testes bigger today. Today is day 12. But have no sexual desire. No libido.
I am easily able to overcome porn addiction. I am in control of not watching.
Please someone guide me.
If possible I want to chat with a companion with similar situation. I started all this for my betterment and for my future.