@EvilMorty I understand your point of view, do what you think is good for you, this is your life and your journay. Personally for me as a relapse I count porn and masturbation. Good luck bro!
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Hey guys, hope you all are doing well, apologies for not being active for past few weeks. From this Incident I was not really me and we as a family were in a crucial time I don’t want to go in details but the thing is, corono affected two of my family members, one survived other couldn’t make it, she was like a mentor to me, her loss made me fell into greater depression.
My friends saw this and asked me to come to one of my friend’s birthday party yesterday. I refused but they forcefully took me to the party. I drank liquor after 8months, I forgot all the pain started dancing and enjoyed very well. At the end of the day, return to my home sneaked into my room without anyone noticing and I relapsed I don’t know why and what made me do that I was pretty much high at the time, I don’t remember the time when I relapsed so reset my counter at the time when I woke up.
For the past few hours I’ve been thinking, I cannot change the past and if I keep on thinking about it I won’t come out if it, lost is lost at the same time I won’t be able to forgot about her but all I can try to do is concentrate on something else to feel better.
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I’m so sorry for your loss, brother. I know what it feels like. I lost my mentor of life on June 26. I miss her everyday. She was the one who loved me most after my mom. And you wouldn’t believe it, but a month ago of that day, on May 26, I lost my grandpa. I actually don’t feel bad for them anymore so much, they passed away a few months ago Coronavirus started. They are loved ones from God. It feels so empty when they are not here.
I also feel bad for your streak, bro, you were going quite well. I relapsed about 2 days ago. I have some nerve problems and that is the reason to it, can’t talk about it, too much.
But anyways, don’t take this as a failure, but a lesson to not to fap again. “It can’t be easy, if it was easy, then everyone could achieve it”
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Back to Day 1!!! [24 August 2020 time is 8:48AM IST]
New start, new opportunities, as a experienced failure now I have some knowledge how I’m failing, utilizing it to conquer the addiction once in for all 
Staying hard 
To infinity and beyond
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Let the climb begin
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Day 2 [25 August 2020 time is 8:48AM IST]
Yesterday was a normal day, things went well. Thought chaser effect might be hard, luckily I haven’t had any urges. Work load was pretty high but managed to complete everything on time. Overall a normal day for a start
Woke up early 
Excerise
Meditation
Learning 
Work
Positivity
Reduced mobile usage
Drink lots of water
Spend time with family
Get motivated
Motivate others
Going to bed early
“A Journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step” -Lao-tzu
Staying strong To infinity and beyond
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Day 3 [26 August 2020 time is 8:26AM IST]
Yesterday was a normal day, same routine same old stuffs 
work load was bit more and it got extended a bit worked for around 12hrs, on the bright side started learning about a new platform in my domain, interesting subject to learn. Overall a good day 
Woke up early
Excerise
Meditation
Learning
Work
Positivity
Reduced mobile usage
Drink lots of water
Spend time with family
Get motivated
Motivate others
Going to bed early
What comes easy won’t last long, and what lasts long won’t come easy.
Staying strong To infinity and beyond
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Day 4 [26 August 2020 time is 9:36AM IST]
Yesterday was a normal day as previous days same old stuffs but later in the evening started getting more frequent urges, which made me to not sleep on time. Tried mediation and exercise none of it worked, opened Reddit (r/nofap) and started reading posts on it, after some time heard some quite music and fell asleep around 12.30AM. At the end of the day, I survived
Woke up early
Excerise
Meditation
Learning
Work
Positivity
Reduced mobile usage
Drink lots of water
Spend time with family
Get motivated
Motivate others
Going to bed early
If you’re going through hell, keep going. - Winston Churchill
Staying strong To infinity and beyond
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Day 5 [26 August 2020 time is 8:08AM IST]
Yesterday was a good day, started getting back to normal, feeling fresh and happy. From morning till late evening haven’t had any urges but on the moment I lay on bed, mind convinced me to go back to PMO and got strong urges. Went to yourbrainonporn website and read some articles then watched some nofap motivating videos on YouTube, meditated for sometime, urges slowly fade away then went back to sleep. Let the urges kill me its fine, but not ready to relapse again
Woke up early
Excerise
Meditation
Learning
Work
Positivity
Reduced mobile usage
Drink lots of water
Spend time with family
Get motivated
Motivate others
Going to bed early
I hated every minute of training, but I said, ‘Don’t quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion.’ - Muhammad Ali
Staying strong To infinity and beyond
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Day 6 [29 August 2020 time is 9:50AM IST]
Yesterday was a good day, had few urges in the day time but over came it and went to sleep earlier as possible but dunno what happened had wet dreams, I’m on day 6 only but it happened when I woke up today around 5.30 I was surprised and it made me miss my gym today 
frustrated to the core, if anyone experienced the same thing please let me know. I’m very much confused right now.
Woke up early
Excerise
Meditation
Learning
Work
Positivity
Reduced mobile usage
Drink lots of water
Spend time with family
Get motivated
Motivate others
Going to bed early
Yesterday was a perfect 
but dunno why this happened, also would like to update here that I ate homemade pasta as the dinner around 8PM, it made me sick(food poison kind of) for sometime and I vomited before going to sleep around 10PM. Does this have any connection to wet dreams? Apart from this I don’t even had erotic dream or any sort of trigger before bed 
“The harder the struggle, the more glorious the triumph. Self-realization demands very great struggle.” -Swami Sivananda
Staying strong To infinity and beyond
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No need to feel frustrated dear @EvilMorty,
It happens that consciously you are doing perfect but sometimes nocturnal emission may happen.
Causes are various, including physiological as well as psychological.
Physiological
Yes stomach is cause of many issues. It is said to be second brain in our body. I have experienced that an upset stomach can wreak havoc. Thats why I have made a habit to go toilet twice, once in evening-so that there is no unnecessary pressure on abdomen while sleeping. Take light dinner if possible, and try sleeping on your left side at night-ignites fire, good for digestion and activates Surya nadi. Can consider taking Amla/Triphala powder just before going to bed.
(I did not mentioned the excess vital energy not transmuted, consciously)
Psychological
I have experienced this- It happened whenever I am emotionally agitated and not peaceful.
Try to be as peaceful, happy and positive as possible while sleeping. Avoid bad emotions, especially in evening time like anger, anxiety etc. Don’t let bad thoughts stay longer in your mind, shoo them away. With practice the bad memories will fade and ultimately the subconscious mind will also fall in line. Personally I recite (mentally) Gayatri Mantra to diverge negativity(…may almighty enlighten my mind and simulate towards positive thoughts…) And meditate on the divine feminine figure (ya Devi Sarva bhuteshu Shakti rupena samsthita namastasye namastasye namastasye namo namah) as and when needed.
In conclusion, it’s about training concious mind repeatedly so that the learning percolate down to subconscious mind. So that the nocturnal emission is not caused atleast by psychological reasons.
Maybe one day, the mind never think otherwise, and we don’t need to train it more…
Hope that helps.
Cheers
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Thank you so much for much needed guidance brother 
this really helps 
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Bro…what’s up…you’re doing really great with your streak. Carry on. Keep writing motivational thought. 
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@MM2020 thanks for checking in bro… actually I was on digital detox for the past week, will share my experience in this thread soon
Growing stronger
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Hello guys, hope you all are doing fine. Due to some personal reasons I’m stepping out of this forum, Informed Taher to delete my account as well, so it will get deleted soon. Before saying good bye I want to say thank you guys for this constant support from the beginning. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going back to PMO but there are somethings going on which I cannot here explain hope you guys understood.
It’s been a great 3 months in this community will miss you guys for sure. I will be forever grateful for teaching me lot of things 
will miss you guys for sure…
Good bye 
To infinity and beyond 
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Have a great life buddy. Make the best of it.
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Thank you for being with us.
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Will miss your presence @EvilMorty in the community. You were always in the reflection and improvement path. Always striving and becoming better. Hope whatever issue you have gets resolved.
Continue to become 1% better daily and stay strong on NoFap. God bless.
Wish you the best
Ash
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