Congrats @maze runner
We are overcomers and we dont give up, we keep FIGHTING in Jesus name amen
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Yea @Mazerunner
Have u watched ABEJOYE season 1 to 3?
Google it or search on YouTube,
Watch it and letās talk about it ok?
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Day 15.
I feel suckt up of my energy. Feel miserable since my last relapse though, my last relapse was very painful, it was straight to heart. Iāll never do it again. Get out of my life PMO shit.
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Day21.
Today I get out of the house and run for 40 min and I noticed the weakness of my body. A guy promised to me after all this virus ends he will introduce me to an boxing coach, but he said I have to quit smoking and drinking and start training home, and run, I took the deal.
Couple of days ago I found myself in a group of people and I couldnāt say anything , they were talking and laughing and I felt awkward, because I couldnāt articulate any proposition. Very awkward. Itās true, between PMO and socialising is no connection.
15 years of PMO slavery and this shit turned me into an introvert, fuck man.
My next goal is 30 days and from there to 90, and from there to a 1000, and from there to never ever again.
Today also while waiting in the queue at the shop a 34 yo woman starts to talk to me, she was fast talking, I couldnāt keep the pace, but she bought me a beer eventually, we drunk that beer together and she took off her crucifix and gave it to me after I said to her Iām a Christian. She told me with Jesus everything is possible. Nobody did this to me so far.
I want to go so far from PMO, so when Iām thinking about it to be like a old nightmare in black and white colours. I want to jump in new habits and learn how to hold a conversation in a group of people.
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Day 28 streak.
I have to stay humble, demon of lust is in my heart and waits to be feed with some arousal things so he can take control of my life again. No man I know the magic trick and Iām staying far from it.
Iām part of NHS now and Iām glad I got this job, because Iām in social environment and helps a lot, every day I change words with people.
Step by step I started talking with girls too, itās hard to talk without thinking to fuck them, but I really want to go to that stage to have females friends as well, because they can be very helpful for a man. I observed if I can make a woman laugh she will stick around.
Looking back 2 months ago I was sitting in my room alone drinking, smoking, doing PMO, oversleeping and now Iām in NHS team helping out with this virus. Thank God for this opportunity.
PMO have no future for me, only slavery and regret. Soon it will be a harmless crying baby before me.
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Day 31.
Today someone told me that itās better to lose a hand or a leg than to lose your identity. That was like a shock for me, because is what porn did to me, stolen my identity for 15 years. Damn man, how smart devil is, and how it worked me out. Now I think I understand some things. God help me.
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Day 36.
I donāt really know what to say, one thing is for sure I donāt feel so empty anymore, some confidence taking place inside me. Iām looking for my wife, is not easy at all to find her, but I put my trust in God, He will find her for me, because now Iām listening to Him. Some girls at work give me looks, but I aināt enough confident to step in and talk to them. I started to work out at home and go out for running, I feel good when Iām fit, gives me a little bit of edge.
Iām heading for 90 days now and from there to 1000 days and from there to never do it again.
We donāt have the right to judge ourselves anymore as long as God gives another chance to come back to Him. Is up to Him to judge and if mighty God forgive us we should do the same.
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Day 37.
āTo see a man beaten NOT by a better opponent, by himself is a tragedyā - Cus DāAmato
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Day 39
āThe way you fight your fight is the way you live your lifeā- Cus DāAmato
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Day 41
Guys please donāt do porn anymore. Please please please. God bless you all brothers.
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Day 42.
āI donāt allow people to intimidate meā - Cus DāAmato
How many people do they let themselves to be intimidated by pornstars. This is how they win against us, we allow to be intimidated by their ads, by they triggers, and after they easily win.
Mafia try to intimidate Cus DāAmato and he did not allow them to do that. The same mafia continue to intimidate us, and Cus created the best boxer in my opinion (Mike Tyson), for going against them and protect his fighter, so we should do the same, and who may know what we can become.
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Day 43.
I have this crazy dream to become world champion in boxing. Itās crazy but some how I believe in it, something in me desperately want to jump in a boxing gym and start proper training. But they are all closed temporarily. Iām waiting, they will open soon.
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Day 44.
Do not invite demons to enter your soul and heart through watching ā ā ā ā , because that what we do when we watch that shit, and then complain about our lives,why? because demons take over when enter our souls and their nature is to destroy and break down everything. Now stop it before is to late, because you donāt want to go in eternity with that regret. God bless you all brothers.
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Day 46.
God give me the joy I had when I was a kid. Thanks my Lord.
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Day 48.
Do not let any woman to control you.
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Day 50.
I havenāt urges to watch porn or to picking for the last 3 weeks, since I started praying. I observing how devil toys have no power against my heart or my mind anymore because this weapon called prayer, I havenāt used for ages and forgot about the benefits of doing it.
My ruined past it looks far away now,
and a bright future seems to get closer and that because God does the healing process. Itās like an surgery on heart, but God does it in mysterious ways, and sometimes it is painful but I understand pain is a must for this process.
I thought 50 days of nofapp will give me super powers but instead is only flatline and it will be flatline after another 50 days too, because I donāt do productive activities.
Anyway Iām happy I achieved this streak and the journey starts from now.
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Congratulations brotherā¦for making half century.
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Thanks mate . I appreciate your encouraging words 
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Day 52.
Yes I asked a girl from my work for her phone number and she gave it to me. I did it with a miserable desire, to have sex with her and thatās it. But after a while I reconsidered and I said I donāt want to hurt her feelings, because she likes me, I can tell that by the way sheās looking at me, and I donāt like her that much.
Part of the desire is I want to release my semen, but I donāt want to do it meaningless, like I really need to like that girl and have some feelings too for her, I donāt want to do it only for the orgasm.
So I decided not to call her.
Iām very protective with my semen because I know there is all my vitamins and proteins and what my brain needs to be in a good mood, so I donāt want to give it away for any random girl, and this is a bit funny because 2 months ago I would have bang any girl, just bring it I would say, and Iāll do all the nasty things I know from porn, but it wasnāt any girl, I was invisible for them that time.
I was desperate to apply all the dirty things and insecure to open my mouth to talk with them, but God changed my heart along this 50 days and He teaches me good things.
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