I went 2 times out for a walk today , one time at 8:30 and second at 13:00.
I feel naturally to go out now, I don’t put any effort into as I did in PMO days. I would stay 3 - 4 days inside without feeling the need for going out.
But now is opposite, I want to spend more time outside as I don’t feel good anymore inside my room.
Another thing happened today, as I walked second time I saw a girl walking towards me and she was going probably to gym as she was wearing leggings. She was blonde and beautiful face. I said to me I have to make eye contact , I got to do this, as we getting closer I kept looking at her face hoping to rise her eyes on me, and when we approached, she did, we did eye contact and she dropped it first, but the crazy thing is I said hello to her, but I don’t think she heard me because she had Bluetooth ear pads, of course I turned my head after passing each other and she was fit.
After I felt ashamed a bit but also I liked it, it was a good feeling though.
In my youth, I could have conversation with girls, this is my personality actually but PMO buried it under a massive pile of rubbish called dirty, deviant, severe porn addiction and this, leads to a suffocate death.