Still remember the last time I fapped to and then was looking for something new again to fap better. The never ending novelty.
And here it’s 90 days TOTAL CLEAN.
Time flies, Indeed.
Urge is absolutely controllable.
Huge confidence talking to anyone
Never feel weak or brain fog.
Although The desire to have “secks” is still there. I think we are evolutionary programmed that way. The constant urge to spread our genes.
Porn is indeed an addiction and we can live life without it easily. When we watch porn, we fap to every single thing that’s slightly sexual. You just need a reason or sight.
When this addiction isn’t there, you look for the better thing & that’s secks. I think each nofapper enthusiast should atleast have one or two time intercourse with the loved one. Why? Cause Porn and secks are totally different. Only then you’re able to distinguish what the hell you were jerking off too. Secks is great but not glamorous and exaggerating like porn. It builds up motivation from inner side. No matter how many articles you read, unless and untill you experience it with your end you won’t get the real point.
The more you fap to porn, the less pleasurable secks will be and vice versa. So better not ruin your as well as your future partners life. Watching porn is disrespectful for your future partner.
Also lust is the biggest enemy of a man. The less you fulfill your sexual urges, the more masculine you become.
90 days Small yet a big thing for me cause despite having prior streak, I was still struggling to start again a nofap streak after having a mega relapse few months ago. It was like starting and relapsing again in every 5/6 days. Then I wanted to visit a forum for companions and I’m glad i came to this app and read others journal ( @drago@The_integrous_one@NukePizza@Sholt_Tenkerrot@The_Ambitious_One@BlackMagic123 etc ) which motivated me hugely to start all over again.
These days I’m kind of busy so can’t able to write journal daily but i visit every now and then read others journal.
30 minute excersise followed by intake of some good nutritional foods.
30 mins of break
tracking every hours I spend on by writing a mini journal
Sleep after 1 pm
Wake up by 9 and breakfast
Monotonous but still not bad.
I feel great if the day is well spent.
And the overwhelming feeling after 30 mins of hard excersise is just awesome. I take an evening walk in the break period for refreshment instead of songs/yt shorts or videos or insta. cause those are addictive and disgenerating.
The dopamine you get from a well spent day is way superior than the dopamine you get from infinite scrolling.
Idk but maybe I’m going through a flatline. No mood swings or such stuffs but there’s absolutely no spontaneous erection.It’s sad cause the shaft feels total dead. Urge for sex is there(though minimal) but there’s sometime sudden urge of PMO.
Have been experiencing the benifits as well cause there’s no sort of weakness, brain fog, Clear and deep focus. Looking at females feels way greater. Also I’ve noticed I’ve been getting more female attention and stares.
Today I took some break from study and classes and went outside to see some puja.
It felt great. Idk but I never enjoyed festivals. But today it was something different.
There were few girls, Who sat beside me and I sensed one was interested as she was stealing looks. I thanked myself for exercising daily and eating healthy foods. I mean it’s fucking worth it. It builds confidence as you know you’re fit. I checked her out as well but my mind just like Dhoom movie, took her instantly to Oyo room. lol.
Anyway I could’ve made some move but I just refrained and came back.
Brahmacharya: Abstaining from all kind of of maithuna(sexual entertainment) from all kind of places - Physically, Mentally and verbally, FOREVER.
That implies
I can’t do Intercourse,
I can’t check out girls with desire,
I can’t check sensitive parts of girls
I can’t see sex related memes
I can’t read non veg posts or jokes
I can’t speak about sex,
I can’t talk about it,
I can’t chat about it,
I can’t THINK about it
I can’t fantasise about anyone or anything
I can’t think about anything that’s remotely sexual.
Seems interesting. let’s see if I can do this for next 5 days.
Generally I feel enthusiastic when I go out to buy something. But not today. It was almost zero zeal to go out today why? Cause my mind already knows I’m not allowed to see/check out girls as per Brahmacharya rules.
Anyway I went out and it was fucking hard to ignore all the beautiful females that passed by. seems like female detox. Im sure the ladies thought me as gay. l didn’t even look up. lol
On the positive site, The productivity and focus has increased alot. Cause in mind there’s no place of even thinking of something relating girls.
I tried and somehow succeeded to some good extent.
Earlier, Although in NoPMO mode, I used to think stuffs, or imagination or thoughts even if not, I used to check out girls when went out(100% guys do), but I’m refraining from that as well now(trying).
& It worked great for me and my mind is completely free and fresh all the time. Focus clarity and concentration increased 10X.
Woke up with some mild fever. Studied a while and then fatigue again. Less energy and couldn’t concentrate well.
In the evening I had to go out for some reason but I had no energy nor interest so I just said myself You can see the girls(as reward) in the street and went out. And after returning to room I realized some wave of urges started hitting me. I saw one hot girl in the ATM queue and she looked back at me as well. That kinda disturbing me. lol.
I’m completely fine today. Got rid of the fever. However the day was unproductive.
As I was physically feeling good, after the first slot of morning hours, I bombarded my mind with lots of entertaining source like Twitter, YouTube, quora with the excuse of break hour. And How time passed I didn’t even realize. All this infinite scrollable media apps are designed to take most of the time of people.
And due to some induced minor triggers, I was fighting with Moderate to heavy level urges, throughout the day.
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