Journey of an Addict to a Leader (Brahmacharya Mode) -Mahesh's Journal

Om Ganeshaya Namah

So i just created a Journal and i swear to God that i will be punctual in doing this as best i can(valid reasons for absence are exempted)

So I just got the idea of Challenging Myself. And experiencing that Brahmachari Life once again. That was the most peaceful time of my life. There is a point system i introduced and will reward myself with points when each task is done.

Points system - (+2 if done, -1 if not)

• Waking up at 4-5
• Meditation for 10 min
• Exercise/Yoga for 15-20 minutes
• Chant Hari naam for 1 rounds atleast.
• Study for 6 hours
• Bath twice a day
• No sexual thoughts for more than a few seconds (each thought = (-1)
• No PMO
• social media less than 1 hour
• Phone usage under 3 hours
• Dont get angry. Be calm.
• No Abuses
• Only Classical Music and Bhakti songs allowed.

Note - productivity apps/usage is not included.

Uninstalled all unnecessary apps and games. (20 GB material) was that. And thats kinda relaxing to take this step.

So there were countless Relapses of me till date. But now I am a different guy. And there be no Entries in my Relapse list.
And I will make it happen. I promise this to myself, My mom, My girl, and most imp. To the Supreme Godhead Shri Krishna.

Points Tally

october

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November

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December

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List of Relapses


2022
Previous Months

This is the first month of Transformation

Current Month

October

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8

||Hare Krishna Hare Krishna
Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Ram Hare Ram
Ram Ram Hare Hare||

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Watching you bro…:eye::eye:
And I am also doing chanting but only 2 rounds + Geeta . Will slowly increase it.

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Do at your pace. Its just I am reliving my Brahmachari Life again. So it will be only hard work all the day with minimal rest and super productivity. Hare krsna.

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I am with you bro. I want to follow the same routine as well.

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Day 1.

Waking up at 4-5. || :white_check_mark:
• Meditation for 10 min || :white_check_mark:
• Exercise/Yoga for 15-20 minutes✅
• Chant Hari naam for 16 rounds atleast.:x:
• Study for 12 hours✅
• Bath twice a day❌
• No sexual thoughts for more than a few seconds (each thought = (-1):white_check_mark:
• No PMO✅
• No Social Media, YT❌
• Phone usage under 3 hours❌
• Dont get angry. Be calm.:x:
• No Abuses​:x::x::x::x:
• Only Classical Music and Bhakti songs allowed.:white_check_mark:

1+1+1-1+1-1+1+1-1-1-1-4+1= (-2)

Total -2 points for the 1st Day…

Taget for 2nd Day will be to Make Total Positive Points atleast.


So I procrastinated a lot today…I wasted a lot time on YT and Rewire. I need to check on that tommorow.

Had many small Urges but overall it’s OK.

Hare Krsna. Please give me the strength to pursue Brahmacharya with full power.

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I chanted 13 rounds for now. Yoyr message gave me the motivation to do 3 more rounds and then sleep.

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Let’s see who does more tomorrow :smirk:

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Are you comedy me???

It’s obviously me!

Because…


And I got this piece right

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I got this piece 2weeks ago:)

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@Mahesh27_03
I chanted 15 rounds. I will chant 1 more round before sleep.

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DAY 2.
Brahmacharya Streak Reset

Waking up at 4-5 :x:
• Meditation for 10 min❌
• Exercise/Yoga for 15-20 minutes❌
• Chant Hari naam for 16 rounds atleast.:x:
• Study for 12 hours❌
• Bath twice a day❌
• No sexual thoughts for more than a few seconds (each thought = (-1):x::x::x::x:
• No PMO❌
• No Social Media, YT❌
• Phone usage under 3 hours❌
• Dont get angry. Be calm.:x::x:
• No Abuses​:x::x::x:
• Only Classical Music and Bhakti songs allowed.:white_check_mark:

Total points = (-17)

Need some real inner motivation. Need to evaluate myself.

I need to understand. Its a War with my struggles. Its either I will slay them else they will slay me.

I can beat all these obstacles. I am the children of Maharishi Bhradwaj and Veer Dronacharya Ji. That Dronacharya ji who was almost impossible to be killed. He got killed by his own choice. I cant let them down. I have a responsibility of not drowning their name. I will not lose.
"जो तुझसे लिपटी बेड़ियाँ
बना ले इनको शस्त्र तू "
Remember
“Hard Times creates Strong Man”

Jai siya ram. Hare Krsna. Haribol.

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I did 14 rounds chanting. Will do 2 more now before sleeping.

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I am such a disgrace to this human. I fucking wanna die. I am failing daily. I wish I could end my life but it’s impossible for me. And the funny part is I won’t do it because my Lord forbids me to do it. But he also forbids me to think abt women of others. And I fucking do it. I claim that I love my girl so much. I lie. I lie daily to my parents l, my friends, my relatives, my love and to even myself. I fucking can’t understand why I m still alive. Why god don’t take my life and make me a crab or something. I am fed up of this life.
I got around -15 points daily. (Average). I broke my promises. I broke my vows. I hate myself. I cant do anything. I am such a shit. Its better if I go and work on a shop or whatever. That where I deserve to be. I am a total asshole.

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Bro. Don’t use such words for yourself. You know I also think like that about myself but remember one small defeat is not gonna change anything. Just bring back slowly. As advice Don’t use your mobile too much …and keep calm.

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Day 10.

Waking up at 4-5. || :x:
• Meditation for 10 min || :white_check_mark:
• Exercise/Yoga for 15-20 minutes❌
• Chant Hari naam for 16 rounds atleast.:white_check_mark:
• Study for 12 hours❌
• Bath twice a day✅
• No sexual thoughts for more than a few seconds (each thought = (-1):white_check_mark:
• No PMO✅
• No Social Media, YT❌
• Phone usage under 3 hours❌
• Dont get angry. Be calm.:x:
• No Abuses​:x:
• Only Classical Music and Bhakti songs allowed.:white_check_mark:

Total = +5

A good day after a major mental breakdown. Will work hard to be productive as hell again.

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May 1, 2022

Waking up at 4-5 :x:
• Meditation for 10 min❌
• Exercise/Yoga for 15-20 minutes❌
• Chant Hari naam for 16 rounds atleast.:x:
• Study for 12 hours❌
• Bath twice a day❌
• No sexual thoughts for more than a few seconds (each thought = (-1):x::x::x::x:
• No PMO :ballot_box_with_check:
• No Social Media, YT❌
• Phone usage under 3 hours❌
• Dont get angry. Be calm.:x::x:
• No Abuses​:x::x::x:
• Only Classical Music and Bhakti songs allowed.:white_check_mark:

Total points = (-7)

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Welcome back bro… long time

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I had bike accident. Unluckily my right elbow joint fractured. So i couldnt use my mobile phone/laptop. Now its fine.

I have few days record with me. Thanks to voice typing.

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May 20, 2022

Waking up at 4-5 :white_check_mark:
• Meditation for 10 min✅️
• Exercise/Yoga for 15-20 minutes✅️
• Chant Hari naam for 16 rounds atleast.:x:
• Study for 12 hours❌
• Bath twice a day❌
• No sexual thoughts for more than a few seconds (each thought = (-1) :x::x::x:
• No PMO :x:
• No Social Media, YT❌
• Phone usage under 3 hours❌
• Dont get angry. Be calm.:x::x:
• No Abuses​:x::x:
• Only Classical Music and Bhakti songs allowed.:white_check_mark::x:

Total points = (-8)

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