So today I decided to create a journal to motivate myself out of this hole.
I’m at zero day, not even a prisoner yet.
My eyes are heavy and I feel lethargic. I woke up early and went to sleep early last night but I don’t feel rested. I feel tired.
It’s time to start a new journey.
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This is the best way to start a new Journal. Start at day 1 and work your way up. You got this brother!
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Thank you mate. I’ll do my best.
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Best of Luck ahead bro
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Thank you, my friend. Time to grow.
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Day 1. Feeling more at easy. I noticed some thoughts pushing me to PMO but I resisted.
Yesterday I meditated for 8 minutes and did a quick workout. No YouTube.
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Day 2. Migrant; the same could be said about my thoughts. Had some urges but menaged to stay clean.
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Relapsed.
I slept poorly, and when I woke up first thing a did was look into my phone. Then the old habit kick back in.
I must not use the cellphone when I’m sleepy.
I’m gonna sleep with it out of my bedroom.
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Sorry to hear about the relapse brother. 
I hope that you rise above this relapse and come out stronger. Don’t give up hope brother relapses are part of the process. Be perceptive and don’t worry about perfection. Always sleep with your phone away from you and not with you. I learned this the hard way a long time ago. Be positive and be strong.
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Thanks for the incentive. I have a lot to learn indeed to be free again.
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Day One again. A prisoner. I gotta learn how to break out of this prison.
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You need some sort of meditation to control those urges. If you meditate the feeling of repress will go away. Be stronger than your urges brother.
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Relapsed again. Now that I have this journal, I can see the frequency of it. Made me feel even more ashamed than usual. I thought about omitting it, but what’s the point in having a journal if I’m gonna lye to myself?
So here it is, another relapse.
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I agree. Thank you for the advice. I’ll start an habit of meditation.
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Day 1
I’m a prisoner but yesterday a made a commitment to stop this once and for all. I meditated. It’s time to take this challenge more serious.
I was looking for some compression bands and an ad of clothes showed up, of women in a provocative way. Unconsciously I started to look, but after a few seconds I noticed what happened and stopped at once. I even stopped looking for the bands.
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Keep it brother, be strong and don’t give up. Your journey is just beginning.
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Thank you brother. I’m just learning all the way.
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Day 2 Migrante. Time to move past the usual thinking that leads me to relapse. Time to engage in different activities. I’m meditating more for once.
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Day 3. One more day. Feeling a little bit better. Struggling with thoughts about girls, which is better then thoughts about corn, I guess.
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Thoughts about girls is good thing. When you think about girls that is a healing process that takes time. Whenever you reach a higher number of days your confidence will spike to talk to them comfortably.
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