@john98 wow, that is a great title for a diary. Long walk to freedom. I remember, I have read it somewhere, yes, in Nelson Mandela’s biography. I read your posts, you need to be more consistent friend. Try setting your environment in such a way that motivates you to be cleanand keep working hard
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Hahaha yes you have correctly found my title reference to one of the greatest humans to walk the planet. It goes without saying that I am by no means trying to make a comparison to Mandela’s 27 years in prison and ending apartheid, I simply thought it was a cool diary title. 
That said I might have to revisit this thread if in 27 years I am still struggling with my porn habit lol
Also @Jaskeerat thanks for the advice on staying consistent. I admit it is something I do struggle with, like I can have a good streak of a few weeks, and then fall of the rails. Will definitely work on this point!
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D1:
No PMO:
It is 2 am now and am on my phone in bed but it is just to make this post so I see it as an exception. Today was a chill Sunday for me, spend time cleaning my room, watching the chess world cup, and catching some sunlight.
No major urges.
Feels good to be back on my diary and tracking my progress once more!
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D2:
No PMO⚽
Honestly had the hardest time sleeping yesterday night so was a bit exhausted today. However have not relapsed and am spending my night watching the movie the purge 
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Ohh… the purge… I remember that one. I had seen it in 2018. It is still a good action movie. People are polite in the morning but they will shoot you and kill you during night time just to control the population. A good fiction movie and filled with enough action is enough to satisfy. You should aso try transporter series and hitman series too. They both are good
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D3:
No Pmo
Faced a lot of urges tonight, but was able to keep myself from opening any sites I shouldn’t be on.
Something that is bothering me is that I am lacking motivation these past few weeks. Like I normally have a lot of plans and goals but recently am quite tired, and lack of energy to do much at all during my days. Idk, any advice welcome.
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D4:
No PMO:
Spending time outside and getting fresh air right now but honestly don’t know where my head is. I have university studies in September but am lacking energy and motivation for it. I feel emotionally drained, no energy for anything. I am hoping it is just temporary.
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D5:
No Pmo:
Mad urges Tonight, it’s 3 am soon, didn’t follow my rule about no phones in bed. Am very close to a relapse. I am mentally tired but in a state of waiting for pleasure before going to bed. Fuck it sucks to feel this way!!! Will simply turn off phone and try to sleep
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D6:
Don’t know how I have still not relapsed haha. Once more phone in bed is breaking my first rule, Feeling a bit stressed out and so looking for gratification. Don’t worry I will not do it, just being honest. Will once more just go to bed.
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D7:
Ridiculous that I actually made it to a week. Was on the edge several times. Feelings of worthlessness while being tired and worrying about shit at night definitely makes for an interesting cocktail.
The sobering thought is that my problems do not disappear in the morning, and my will power will not be strengthened
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D8:
Nothing major today, got some exercise, and watched a movie. Gonna make sure to get some sleep because tomorrow starts a new week and I have a lot to get done
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D0:
Struggled with my self esteem today, ended up relapsing. Will work out a strategy tomorrow. Rtn am too tired and disappointed
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You shouldn’t be, you are still struggling . Everyone struggles in life, its not meant to be easy. But when you are disappointed over failures, you lose too much of your valuable time thinking and grieving over something that cannot be changed. Surest way to win is to get up and keep fighting again and again. Who am I to tell you any of this anyways? You know all of this already, right? So get up and never give up.
Thanks my friend, you are right, none of this is news. Time to dust off and give it a serious effort
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D0 (again)
Another relapse, was feeling stressed, restless, had a bit to Drink, and didn’t manage to just turn off the phone and get to bed 
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D1:
5:29
Let’s go! No more looking back. My last D1 truuuust me on that one
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D4: 
Was a bit busy recently with some traveling back home to see family, but I have kept it clean.
D13:
Been a while since posting, but all is going well. Have been spending time with family, and have not had any fallbacks.
Onwards and upwards.
D0: reset and reboot. Had the phone in my bedroom was the issue
When are things going to change John? It’s time to stop scoring goals for the other team.
Remember how good it felt to achieve 30 days for the first time? That was the real you in action. I’ve been there and struggled with self-esteem too. We feel like that because we know greatness is within us and we are living so far below our potential. We can see that we’re continuing to hold ourselves back everyday, and we don’t like ourselves soft it. Don’t hold yourself back from freedom any longer. It’s high time to bring home all the trophies and live your best life.
Obviously, the issue isn’t having your phone in your bedroom bro. Everyone does it. It’s not the greatest habit, but people who have been free from pornography and masturbation for YEARS still wake up next to their phones like everyone else. The issue is that even after everything it’s taken from us, we still want to watch pornography and masturbate. If not, then you wouldn’t have relapsed and would have just looked at funny memes on your phone for hours or played a mobile game for too long.
There’s no need to keep doing it bro. It’s a worthless activity with zero benefits. All that is does is a high spike of dopamine for a little while as we browse sexually arousing content, and when that high fades we are left feeling worse than before we started. We can say no more and be done with it. The last relapse can truly be the last one.
Read easypeasymethod.org and gain the knowledge to break free from the relapse cycle permanently.
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