Loving the positive change in attitude man! You’re making great progress!
One day at a time man, this month is yours! You’re doing it!
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After this month my next goal is to join you in the 100 day club.
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God is Good! Glad to see you’re doing better. It’ll only continue to get better as time passes. Yes life has it’s ups and downs but pmo is a constant down then we feel stuck. Goodluck 
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I look forward to seeing you here bro! You can definitely do it!
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Day 11: It is getting easier to resist the urges; when I have the urge to edge I keep my hands away from my penis ,it works every time. I wake up with a lot of energy now for example ; usually when i practice pitching using rocks I can only last 5 minutes but today I lasted about 13 or 14 minutes. Pitching makes me very tired and sluggish when I do it too much.
I have a new view towards sex; I see it as just another way of masturbating but with another person. I don’t ever want to have sex it will just take away my benefits I have gained from this. I have made myself Asexual which means I have no interest in anyone.
One major change I noticed is that I am getting better at communicating with people; I still have to work on talking slower though because it causes me to mess up A lot.
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Day 12: I played basketball again in the gym after just playing table tennis for 5 weeks straight. I got an really bad head ache because I sweat a lot and it was cold in the gym. I didn’t follow my schedule today because I could barely stay focused but I did make a little progress on my math work. I can finally do 2 finger push ups but I can only do 3 to 4 teps before my fingers start to hurt. The only way I can fail now is if I force myself to relapse; in the past I lost all my old good streaks because I forced myself to edge than I went to the point of no return. I have more self control now so I know how to get past the urges now.
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I have relapsed; I should of followed my schedule. My new goal is to go the rest of the year; I will use the same plan but I will have to make an better schedule that I can follow.
I will beat this addiction before this year is over.
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You still have 45 days till the new year begins. C’mon focus, what triggered you , how did you choose to react. What you should have done and what you shouldn’t. Take notes, you can do this.
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The thing that makes me mad is I don’t even know why I did it.
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Day 1: Today I am not that happy with my relapse but I’m trying to work on forgetting my pass mistakes. The whole wasn’t bad through; I got an 86 in math again. It was a 72 but I turned in my missing work; my grade in that class keep changing a lot. I been doing two finger push ups and knuckle push ups to increase my punching power. I still have some of my energy from my last streak but lost some of my confidence; I can’t jog as long now.
I will stick to my strategy of keeping my hands away from my penis I believe it will help me beat this.
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Day 2: Today I made an 100 on my math quiz; I also didn’t study today because I found my old Pandora password. I decided to listen to the music and add it to my YouTube playlist. My YouTube playlist has 320 songs in it.
I can do up to 5 two finger push ups now; I also learned that if the water in a cold shower is too cold it can cut you.
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Day 1 again: I didn’t go to school to day because. I had an very bad stomach ache. I almost passed out too but this only happened because yetersday I wanted to test my punching power
So I punched myself in the jaw hard. After I punched myself I smelled blood in my nose but none came out. I kind of sad I didn’t go to school because I wanted to go the whole year without missing a day of school.
I haven’t been following my schedule lastly but that not the reason I relapsed; I relapsed because I had nothing to do. I like being busy all the time and just sitting around makes me very uncomfortable.
My aunt finally going to teach me how to drive an car; once I learn how to drive I can get a job and start going to an boxing gym or mms gym.
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Day 2: I almost forgot to do this because I was playing an game.Today been an good day my house finally has air conditioning agan; I no longer ave to be cold all the time. When I was in the gym today I played basketball against some of my friends and after that I worked on layup. I don’t really like basketball but I also don’t like being bad at things so I train on my weaknesses.
My new mentality is if you are willing to put in the effort to work toward your goal nothing can stop you. I finally found what I love to do; I love to make things so I decided to become an engineer.
My friend help me realize another one of my good qualities; I pay attention to details with everything.
Depression is a thing of the past for me and I no longer hate my family; I’m willing to give up my life to protect my close friends and family.
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Day 1: I must stop im starting to get back into my old habit of only lasting 2 days. Today wasn’t an great day I gave into the temtation and edged.
Please give me advice on this should I rest my counter anytime I peek or edge?
Today I just stayed on my computer and watched youtube; my schedule isn’t really interesting anymore so I barely do it. In breaking my own rule about not allowing myself to have much free time.
I’m going to punishing myself every time I think about viewing porn; I will have to punch myself in the jaw as hard as possible. I will mostly give myself an head ache every time.
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Wanted to share two songs that I been looking for a long time since last years.
This one is my favorite song I have ever listened to and I use to jump rope to it.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GXso4Sj5TEM&list=LLMsJK_JeDdsxLAcrmqK3P0w&index=3
This one just sounds very good
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Y3E1Pmf1O5g&list=LLMsJK_JeDdsxLAcrmqK3P0w&index=57
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How about giving yourself a cold shower. That is better then breaking your jaw. Break the chaser effect, rise like a champ.
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Is the chaser effect the feeling of wanting to view porn?
Yes. After relapse you might think my streak is small so I better fap again , you are trapped in a a loop. That’s chaser effect
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I’m trapped in it right now.
Day 1: I been stuck here for a while. I have decided in just going to stop masturbation and viewing porn. I will break out of chaser effect and build up a streak that I have never imagined I could reach. I noticed that every past streak I had I always had doubt that I would evenutally relapse. In going to try to work on this and start believeing that I can break free and live free. I’m ashamed of myself because there were people in the past that had no choice but to live as a slave and I’m free but deciding to be a slave to porn. I must start living like a free man instead of an slave because what the point of being free if I’m still living like a slave.
This part down here is extra stuff I did today
So today I went outside to hang my clothes up on my clothing line to let the sun dry them but it was broken. Instead of deciding to let them dry inside I spent 3 hours fixing up it so I could hang them outside. This is the first time in my life that instead of accepting something I don’t like I decided to change it so I do like it. I also climbed up an tree so I could build my upper body strength; I tried climbing it 3 times but only got to the top 2 times. The third time I climbed back down because I was too tired and I didn’t want to fall down.
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