@NhTbH
Assalamu alaikum sister,
I have some suggestions regarding the things that we do as Muslims during ramadan and also after ramadan.
If we do good deeds as a responsibility, then we will feel burdened and stressed out.
Try doing only one good deed but you should be happy while you do it. Sure, prayers are our obligation and we must do it, but try finding connection with Allah
Since your mother toungue is Arabic, it should be helpful for u to concentrate during salah.
Try to ponder and contemplate on versus that you read during salah. For me personally it has helped a lot of times, especially while reading surah fatiha.
Pray with sound mind and body.
(and you can do that by following the concept of “ihsaan” I.e; praying as if we are seeing Allah or atleast keep in mind that Allah is watching us.)
Do only one good deed but do it to please Allah and to attain the reward that will benefit us on yaum al qiyamah.
Do good deeds like Abu bakr(radiallahu anhu)
His deeds were so heavy that his 1good deed would amount to our life’s deeds.
I suggest you to listen to Recitations of “Sheikh Yaser dosary and Muhammad Ali luhaidan”
Personally it has an effect on my heart, it makes me modest, humble, emotional even where necessary.
Their style of reciting is a way of explanation.
In Arabic we call it قراءه التفسيرية.
Whenever you feel disturbed or have mixed thoughts which are troubling you then I say remember this verse👇
(ٱلَّذِینَ ءَامَنُوا۟ وَتَطۡمَىِٕنُّ قُلُوبُهُم بِذِكۡرِ ٱللَّهِۗ أَلَا بِذِكۡرِ ٱللَّهِ تَطۡمَىِٕنُّ ٱلۡقُلُوبُ)
[Surah Ar-Ra’d 28]
Those who have believed and whose hearts are assured by the remembrance of Allah . Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured."
Ma sha allah you have the quality of the successful people which is praying night prayers, feel proud that you are among those very few people.
Everyday I make a decision of doing tahajjud (night) prayers but fail to do so, because my will is not strong or atleast I am not taking it serious.
Also remember that the shayatan will be there with you to make that one mistake, and when you do, he will be waiting to demotivate you, to make you feel worthless, selfish, and what not.
I say this to many of my friends that if you are doing a good deed as burden, then it’s of no use, I say do it happily, do it for the sole purpose of attaining rewards and pleasing Allah, REMEMBER OUR FINAL DESTINATION, i.e; JANNAH THERE WE WILL BE FREE OF NEGETIVE THOUGHTS, STRESS, ETC…
DO IT TO ATTAIN THAT PLACE
I too said to myself that I am going to complete minimum 2Full Quran this month, and I started off good for the first 3days and then I reduced the amount of Quran I read and so on because of simple thoughts that shaytan tries to play with us.
It’s true that we must not waste our time in this month but try not to burden yourself, as all of these deeds are optional and you will not be sinned if you don’t do a target amount of deeds.
Prayer, fasting and abstaining from sins is obligatory and other than that do as much as you have the capability.
"Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people.”(surah baqarah)
MAY ALLAH MAKE IT EASY FOR YOU