Hmm lemme guess
SRM or Kovai Amritha or NIT Trichy or anna university or SSN?
Or may be VIT [ Vellore Institute of Technology]
Never mind
If U need any help feel free to dm me
Got new photographs done and some left out cosmetics . All set to go
Even if Im glad , Im also scared to step in . I have a bad history of shifting to places , I have done so thrice and everytime the toil has been crazy , but I was more of a kid all those times . And nothing stable has happened since 2022 , I wish I could go back to be a kid and fix those but there’s no point . Still , I lost so much about myself unnecessarily . Coming to my own home and town after living out for 14 years , shifting for studies the very next year and then hell of those 2 years , I agree I was emotionally weak but a lot of things could have been normal . Now when I finally returned , it has been so much peaceful as everything ended , I tried to fill the emptiness by sleeping , talking , music and evening walks but everything feels like a void when I remember all of these again . What was the point of this all and what did I really achieve by tormenting , fighting myself and following this race .
Said goodbye to relatives who care about me and the friend with whom I went for walks . I didn’t bond with my school friends much that they care , only 3 of my friends from class 10th and 2 of them are still going with me at the same place .
Now the clock ticks , I still have 2 days but I will be staying home only , no one else to meet , nowhere to go in the rain . I was certain that I won’t feel sad even after joining but Im already feeling emotional leaving my home where I couldn’t live long and peacefully enough , things might have been different if I never left after 10th . And my parents who care about me so much all the time , they are gonna see a home without my yapping , bitching and singing humming 24x7 for the first time .
Will probably spend rest of the time reading or playing music as I don’t feel like doing anything else before leaving .
Enjoy your time at home and chill as much as you can. After 2 days you have to face many dramatic events and some problems. Settling down at new place isn’t easy specially in hostels.
Anyways whenever you get time update here we’ll try to help you . I’ll pray that everything go well .
Last day here tomorrow . Didn’t fix my sleeping so that will trouble for a few days. The loneliness comes to an end now I guess. Even if I have grown from before , I still have a lot of insecurity and anxiousness in me . And it won’t get better by isolation or overthinking more about it . I need to be normal , as I am and stop caring about others’ views or judgements about me . No need to seek validation and rebuild that trust and image for myself .
A good good night to the past
A new journey to begin soon
On the way
Now this is gonna be fun
Good luck bro !
This is an away game but you’ll conquer. Move out, striker!
Reached hostel
My stomach fell sick from this morning . It feels bad and scary coz I’ve never been on my own . Even though I have good friends and roommates here , my old thoughts are scaring me and even though I wasn’t feeling anything before but I called my mother and felt like crying . Little scared and anxious bcoz of which I feel worse , I hope it will be better .
Finally gonna be strong
24 hrs
Feeling better and more comfortable
Still missing home in between , trying to keep my mind busy but there’s not much to do in the day , can’t roam around in the heat outside .
So that they can rise as strongest warrior.
Hostel will help you to adapt to live alone, and do things on your own mostly. This is how your life going to be like in future.
Ye kesa quote bnaya tha me expect nhi krra tha weakest likha hoga
Nvm I just had exhaustion and fever . Stomach getting better too, sore throat troubles but I have the meds and it won’t occur as I settle to the weather. I was just overthinking too much
I can relate, when I shifted to hostel i faced a little health issue (enteric fever + minor infection ) in the beginning.
Oh
I hope I have nothing that serious , I don’t wanna run around for medical already . Tbh I was scared more and anxious . I left comfort zone for the first time with no one of my own around me in an unfamiliar place , so far from home . An entirely different atmosphere , climate , food , routine and people . I thought I was mature enough that I’d not feel much but negative thoughts, missing my parents and anxiety of being on my own is messing me . Im not even busy as classes haven’t started and overthinking about this because of which I was scared more . Don’t know how long this will last .
First timers are crazy
Dm me
Kota me padhte ho kya tum?
Start talking to them and try to befriend them . Try to explore the campus, you’ll get used to it in some months