arenāt itās already a smaller paragraph? Ok I am already trying itās the 4th time someone told me gotta keep it in my mind gonna make other posts in smaller paragraphs
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Your balls get cramps? 
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Nah! That reply wasnāt mine that was my reply to @NarutoKun I agreed that it will take time to reach certain milestones.
From Godās help and hardwork somehow Iām on Day 72 now without any sort of balls cramp because I stay away from edging.
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I see so that really works!! Hmmm 
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Offcourse.
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This day is started with an nightfall yeah I still have not completed even 3 days and it happened literally looks like my pelvic floor muscles have gotten weak but if I started doing kegal exercise now then it will only result in me getting relapsed again which isnāt good i am gonna keep control cause thereās nothing like last fap exist.
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I will surely make a comeback brother, currently I am not strong.
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Thatās a wrong way you are saying you arenāt strong we become what we think ourselves to be, start thinking you are better and will surpass your present prime again and again
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Yes, I am giving my best all time. Wonāt be discouraged.
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I had many things to say but whatās the point itās just a waste, I have to do it instead of wasting time, from now on I am not gonna waste anymore time thatās enough I just need to lock in and keep the flow!
Gonna comeback after surpassing my current limits have alot to do which should be done, got many criticisms and appreciations too in my life thatās how it works I need to be better.
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I would like to tell you one thing very clearly. I hope u take this in a constructive manner.
When you are talking serious things , be very specific with your words. It goes like this
How you are not going to waste time from now on ?
What actions you will be taking.
For reference , I was very undisciplined guy 1 - 2 weeks ago. But now by Gods grace , I am decently productive . Obviously results didnt come well because life is not a movie.
My answer goes like this
I started a separate discipline journal , where its only me and my damn work. Its dull and boring but I will be brutally honest there.
I update based on time slots. I fail. I succeed . I dont care. Ive decided , I will be brutally honest there. And throw some rants to clear my head and delete it later because it will sound irrelevant after some time.
Did result came ? No. Atleast from my own perception. Did I improve ? Yes. Because Now I can study 8 + hours which was nearly impossible for me 2 weeks ago. I am decently consistant at Gym now.
What are your current limits ?
Take it in a constructive way , All the words used by you rn sounds like Goku when he is Ultra Instinct or Vegeta when pride kicks in. But these are just some general words.
Irl clarity of thoughts and action are much powerful than motivation u get from UI Goku song or Erwin smith speech.
If you wrote this as a rant , fine . Just ignore what I have said but if you are serious consider what I have said. I also think this is the reason why many fail in no fap. Its not a battle of willpower. Its a battle of clarity.
Why I am saying this is because I see many people writing like this in diaries with no action. I am no saint while I say this. I also did stupid blunders . But I am trying my level best to not fall for that again.
You can either consider this reply as arrogant one to get offended or use it as a tip to rise forward. I am letting you decide that.
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I had many things to post here made many drafts but at the end choosed to post this to keep it short because whatās the point of writing about my unnecessary life itās only me who can improve my own life, thatās why I decided to just stay away from everything,
Now what am I gonna do thatās the question?
ā¢first I am gonna complete all of my pending works before summer vacation in school instead of wasting my time there in unnecessary activities.
ā¢Second and most important from now on I am not gonna waste anymore time of mine on social media watching unnecessary shit! Instead will help myself in studies by watching videos related to studies only on YouTube.
ā¢Third gonna fix my routine actually and work on myself instead of complaining also to keep myself focused I am making a oath to myself that I will not see myself in the mirror till I fix everything and become actually better.
ā¢Not gonna focus on problems instead will focus on solutions and change for real!
I have alot to say but I donāt want to because I am the only one responsible who is the reason behind all my problems till I fix myself I wonāt return here either my current aim is simple which is to achieve atleast 70/80 in every subject in pre-board as of now this is my academic goal, also to achieve 25 pull ups 100 push ups and 100 squats in one simple set without rest the surpass my current physical limits as of now I can only do 20 diamond push ups and 50 squats in one set as of pull ups I canāt even hold a dead hang, last but not least changing my sleeping posture and starting a little skin care !!
Overall what I want is that I donāt want to stay like currently I am, I am so confuse but the only way to clear my doubts is to start practicing.
At the end I only have thanks for you blud I canāt explain myself anymore because of the way I explain about everything my friends always suggest me to be a teacher but I donāt know what I actually want .
Also why would you think I will feel offended thereās nothing here to make me offended the only thing which offends me the most is me myself and I.
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I am letting you decide. Sometimes writing a long para can free unnecessary thoughts in our head .
Keeping things brief is also fine. How people dont about you dont matter in this forum. You are doing things for your own personal interest ( Just telling this if you fear getting judged for writing your personal life , but keeping personal details secret of course )
Good , Now it sounds less general and more specific. But I want you to be more specific.
Assuming you are serious from now on , I am asking you. What will you be doing today ?
For me , my answer goes like this. I have a Robotics exam tomorrow. I start studying from 3 pm today.
I will start by solving previous qp and if I complete it , I will start doing 2 internal qp.
If an ideal scenario happens in which I complete both , I will start looking for missing topics and study them.
If you are serious with this , I can give you a lending hand.
You will have 2 months break after 12th ig , I think I can help you .
Good that you took it in a constructive way , but there are people who dont. There was one guy here , who was kinda screwed up. I gave advice something like this , he told me to stfu.
People like those only need validation . While validation is not a bad thing , if it does not help you , its a total waste of time.
People like those expect " You can do it bud , You rock etc etc , " they may get motivation for a few days but lose motivation after some time. Thats why clarity is a necissity. When i preach on this , there are people who dont take it in a positive way.
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Currently, Iām not trying to go all out at once because that just makes me lose motivation fast. Instead, Iām building small habits, brick by brick. Like earlier, I used to sleep on my stomach with my knees bent, which was bad for my posture. I also used to scroll my phone without wearing specs. Now, I sleep straight on my back and wear glasses when using my phone. Might seem like small stuff, but every small change counts. Iām also fixing my basic hygiene ā earlier I used to bath like once a week 
, now brushing and bathing daily is becoming my new normal.
About studies ā Iām honestly just surviving right now. Our accountancy teacher has gone full psycho mode. He thinks giving us 2 copies each for Accountancy and Business Studies (one for classwork, one for homework) is gonna magically make us toppers. Bro really believes that copying illustrations word-for-word from the book is āpractice.ā Like, hello? Practice means trying on your own, making mistakes, learning. Not doing Ctrl+C, Ctrl+V from textbook to notebook.
If we actually tried to solve every question properly ā first in rough, then neatly in the notebook ā it would take hours, and with evening school timings, thatās just not humanly possible. Even if we blindly copy-paste, itās still a huge waste of time. Might as well sit in school all day and work as his personal clerk. Jahil buddha doesnāt get it.
To be honest, Iāve only made one copy out of the 4 he demanded. That too, Iām stuck at Chapter 1 of Accounts homework. Meanwhile, the old man has already finished 5 chapters in both Accounts and Business. Itās actual madness.
Skipping school is also not an easy escape. Thereās another English teacher, a real special piece. Talks like he doesnāt have teeth (even though he does) ā his words stay stuck inside his mouth somehow, only the voice comes out. Plus, he seems to have a personal mission to keep track of me. Every time he enters class or assembly, first question: āWhere is my guy?ā
Once I tried bunking assembly with some friends behind the school building. And guess what?
Because of me, not just I, but everyone who was chilling with me got caught. Itās like, if youāre standing anywhere near me, youāre automatically inviting bad luck.
One of the slow-witted guys even snitched everything to the teacher, and well ā Rest is history .
Since then, if I even breathe differently, that English teacher immediately calls my father like heās some FBI agent. My father isnāt even that strict ā he just yells a little, uses a few cuss words, and then moves on. His only condition is: āPass karte reh bas.ā
Honestly, my life stays peaceful only when Iām quietly sitting at home doing nothing. Otherwise, some trouble magically finds me.
But no more complaining now.
Iām serious this time. You said you can help ā Iām ready to listen. Just tell me what to do, and Iāll follow it sincerely.
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Nah , I am not telling u to go all at once. Start small , but do it very well. I emphasise more on consistency and accountabilty than intensity.
To be able to do your task as per your standards and admitting the mistake when u screwed up. Its a sign of strength.
Trust me , the weakest warrior is better than the strongest novice.
Now to be accountable , I suggest you make it as checklist either here or in your physical diary.
I prefer here because accountability is strong when u update here.
Lol , I think professors / teachers like those are universal for every school / college. Even I also have a psycho professor who does the same thing
Since you are ready with that , I want you to write goals for today and update by the end of the day.
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Reflection ā April 29
Today started with a nightfall, but I still managed to follow my morning routine perfectly, which made me feel refreshed and energized. However, I made the mistake of skipping school, and that unstructured time led me to use my phone excessively. This triggered strong urges, and unfortunately, I relapsed.
I now realize how important it is to stay occupied and disciplined throughout the day. Skipping school disrupted my momentum and opened the door to distraction. If I had stayed committed to my routine and avoided unproductive screen time, I likely would have made it through the day without relapsing.
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Todayās been a bit rough on the eating front. Iāve been hungry since 5 PM, but I havenāt eaten anything yet because I was waiting for the custard I made earlier. Itās a butterscotch-flavored custard that I prepared around 5 PM and refrigeratedāitās been about three hours now. Iām planning to buy some vanilla-flavored chocolate biscuits to add to it, just to make it more enjoyable.
Right now, my stomach actually hurts from the hunger. The last thing I ate was around 11 AM, which means Iāve gone nearly the entire day without food. Sadly, this has become a routine for me latelyāskipping meals or delaying them way too long. I know itās unhealthy, and I really need to start eating more consistently and on time.
Physique-wise, I weigh around 60 kg right now. I have some definition in my musclesāsome visible cutsābut Iām not yet muscular or bulky. I really want to develop that V-shaped physique and will keep pushing towards that goal.
I also wasted almost the whole day just sleeping and scrolling on Instagram. Iāve decided to give myself a strict deadline: starting May 1st, I will uninstall Instagram and stop using it. I know itās a major distraction, and I want to reclaim my time and focus it on real growthāphysically, mentally, and spiritually.
On a positive note, Iām also planning to visit a generic medical store to pick up some calcium and vitamin D3 supplementsāthings I believe will support my training and overall health.
Iāll try to be more disciplined with my meals, time, and digital habits moving forward. No more wasting timeāitās time to get serious.
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Howās my blud doing in life
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