Humble Might's Journal

[humblemight]

I have understood something more today,

Because of constant consumption of trash dopamine via ■■■■ and other digital videos. The inner fire is dozen off and the body starts to expect such trash rewards in order to release energy.

Notice clearly how when I bored or lack energy to do even basic tasks like washing dishes, I gravitated full speed towards ■■■■ or videos on YT, Nflx, doom scrolling on Fb etc… or I can even go to buy Fastfood or ice-cream and eat it all.

Lack of motivation and uncleanliness messy house etc… are clear symptoms of this nonsense.

This week I have been stoking my fire with discipline and its raging, but there is so much wet trash around it that I know takes time for it to burn them off.

limiting all videos or motion pictures and of course ■■■■ is a must in my journey.

Discipline stokes my inner fire, with the force of discipline and the grace of Lord God.
Let my inner drive keep increasing.
I stoke it with discipline and resolve!

Just ate a Pitaya fruit.
they are good for the digestive system and slightly sweet. but not always available and they have their price.
But I will try to eat them at least once a month.

No urges tonight, no videos or ■■■■ the detox proceeds still hard and I require my will or light saber at ready all times.
(So far, my will is iron, incontrast to all the other times I tried, I am resolved and serious about ending this shit this time.)

All tasks have been accomplished also.

So now I go take rest for the day.
7 more days and I will make my first 30 days ■■■■ free.

[valiantwarriorsoldier]

Have you reached flatline?

[humblemight]

Hi,
Not jet, but I am mentally prepared for it.

[valiantwarriorsoldier]

Well on these days try to go out to your favourite places or travel to a tourist spot
This will help you greatly

[humblemight]

day 24+25 90

Yesterday I had a call with family members and spoke for long till midnight.
So afterwards I was so sleepy I did not finish the days journal.

A ■■■■ free and digitally limited day is a happy day for me.

Discipline is forging a warrior in training pushing forward.

[humblemight]

Yes, I have a daily routine of morning walk that’s helping me greatly.

Just walking in nature, then sitting early morning in a park listening to birds and nature I sit for long there till first rays of sun are visible.
no phone, no games, no distractions its really fortifying my mind friend.

Thats a great idea.
This weekend after chores I will go out, have lunch in town and then go for a drive around near the beach.

[humblemight]

Nowadays society is taking away power from people with fake digital things called “likes and thumbs ups”.

Many people do things for this “likes” and “thumbs ups” if they get none o few they are demotivated or stop.

Are you doing it for you or for external validation? it’s our journey like’s or not we do it for ourselves and no one else.

A Jedi’s force flows from the force, from within.
Not from negative emotions or insulting others like the Sith do, nor from external validation and praises.

My best every day.

Like the Jedi my drive keep coming from within, from the force.
and from the grace of the lord.

Of course, I will give motivation and boost others, for we should help others. but if get myself or will push forward anyway.

Praises or not, likes or not, I keep going.
I stoke my inner fire with resolve and discipline.

The Jedi resemble the real-life Shaolin monks of China allot.

I refuse to be tamed by digital trash, i raise above like a Jedi warrior!

[humblemight]

day 26/90

Feeling a little low today, but my resolve must be stronger than my feelings.

KyIo Ren said the dark side is our nature to surrender unto it. unto the easy way of negativity that gives fake power of selfish hate and greed or the fake comfort of cheap dopamine and lust in ■■■■…

No, that is a lie. It’s the easy way of the Darkside.

I must rise above. I am capable of this.

Discipline is my ally.

[The_EnlightenedOne]

Good keep going brother

[humblemight]

day 31/90

derailed a little bit due to busy schedules.

the old habit trying to pull me back, trying to convince me its ok to give in to tap into “it”.

Still facing video and ■■■■ urges.
but I know it’s a trick to yield to that trash.

When the urge come’s I must go against it. I fight back.
Discipline is my ally.
Can’t just stand passive and just complain or cry.
The clashing sound of light sabers colliding.
My resolve and discipline against that fake shit of ■■■■ and cheap dopamine videos.

I fight back with action.
The light side is stronger, I am stronger.

[humblemight]

day 32/90

Urges to tap into the Darkside early morning but I negated them.
Still feeling somewhat heavy, low motivation but I use the force of will push myself forward.

My motivation come from within.
Light sabers clash.
discipline is my ally I must keep stoking the fire my drive with it.

Let my drive increase, from within lord God…
I must keep going!

[humblemight]

day 33/90

Low urges, but most troublesome is the lack of motivation.
I really need to push from within to stay productive.

I have not watched Netflix this week at all. But i will do in the afternoon and evening but only after all house chores are done.
I cannot let go of discipline it’s my weapon.

But this is a phase part of the healing of receptors, i think.
it will be over soon its part of the reboot; many have gone through it.

I will not quit and lay down. as long as I don’t watch ■■■■ and social media videos in general, I am making progress.

This shit tries to disarm me by isolating me from my discipline to defeat me one on one.
But I won’t let go, I stick to it
Stoking the fire with discipline.
let my burning drive return soon stronger than ever.

[humblemight]

day 34/90

We all have a choice.
Lets go.

[humblemight]

Day 35/90

It’s easy to compete with and try to be more than others,
to be positive: to praise, uplift, and inspire in others that is true strength.
to focus on my journey and not hanker for what others have is true strength of a Jedi.

My only competition is myself.
I must be better than yesterday, not better than x neighbor.

No more waste time looking at them on internet or society media.

Warrior higher self (that bring out my true potential from within, not from comparison or external competition):

It’s nice you reached up to this point.
But don’t be proud or complacent for a mere 35 days… I have not seen you reach a 40 or 60 days of power jet.

Do better.

But also remember to relax and have fun in life that’s the balance of the Jedi.
Don’t look so tense, smile kid you are doing great!
Just keep pushing forward all the while.

[humblemight]

Day 37/90

Had a good long morning walk in peace.
No urges today.

Mind so relaxed but jet determined.
I feel I’m getting my life back in control.

Dicipline is my ally.

[The_EnlightenedOne]

God bless you always dude

[humblemight]

Day 41/90

It’s been 41 days ago since watched a ■■■■ video, and I also drastically reduced my other digital video’s time.

For a week or so I was feeling suddenly low and “lazy” had to constantly push myself to action.

But my drive is coming back, today I got up early and got stuff done, I actually have not watched Netflix as is customary this weekend either.

Most important the urge is very low to watch ■■■■. almost nil.

41 days no ■■■■ video’s, even I find it amazing, and some pride in this achievement. Quitting this trash forever.

My drive is bursting forward and discipline for cleanliness and many other things is formed.
I am more in control of my actions, although I still need to use will Force to push myself its really getting easier.

But more important it’s the low interest in videos and especially ■■■■ that makes me happy.

The removal of videos and screen time in general is helping me tremendously over in terms of mental health, peace and strength.

I am especially glad about the decrease in the ■■■■ urge or perhaps its me who am getting stronger?
Either way dopamine levels are dropping back to normal, my brain is letting go of those fake trash shit videos.

Living in the real world, not on fake staged YouTube, P0rn or other curated and fake digital trash.

I feel progress is being made I feel less interest in using the internet for pleasure and auto-distraction.
Video window will close soon, you know what I will not watch any netflix anymore today and just go to sleep.

I will still complete the 90 days I will not get cocky or confident I must stay humble as a Jedi and a warrior.

There is no chaos, there is Harmony.
I maintain the balance of my life by self-control.

[humblemight]

day 43/90

Light urges but stood my ground and push them back.

I Identified the reason of my relapses and the timing and worked on it.
It’s a pattern of habits we all can overcome (if we seriously want to) with determination.

reading in the forum I see many people watch ■■■■ and only count the days they did not ■■■.

That’s an illusion for the addiction is in the watching of the trash shit videos.

You will never break free with such weak mindset, you are coping and feeding the addiction through your eyes.

That virtual shit warps reality and soon any scantily dressed picture on any site becomes a trigger for sex.

Stay away resist and soon our mind will be decluttered and cleansed of the bullshit.
Man and woman we must be true warriors and stand our ground!