I am not new to nofap, I have relapsed hundreds of times in the past.
with streaks of 15 - 20 days.
I am tired of being controlled by ■■■■ and other virtual trash.
I will do it with this digital Journal, a personal diary.
Taking back control now.
Seriously, determined.
Day 1/90
I am already 3 days into no pmo and my daily routine, but I have watched some ■■■■ yesterday although I did not Jerk to it.
It’s not only about ■■■■ I’m going for a full dopamine detox:
No ■■■■ watching or downloading
No Netflix during the week.
No YouTube
No Pinterest
No Ice cream or chocolate during the week, weekend once a day in afternoon.
In the past I was very disciplined boy clean and ordered, I read many books but after starting to use ■■■■, I fell and let my life got out of control.
Just back and forth unsteady sitting Infront of a screen watching ■■■■ or my second addiction: compulsive watching of YouTube, video after video.
It’s time for me to go back to discipline.
Discipline is my ally.
All th best
Thanks, same to you 
It’s early morning and I am back from a 30 min morning walk in nature.
this will be back a part of my routine from now on.
Have been feeling very relaxed hearing the birds chirping in the fresh morning breeze.
I had taken 3 days’ vacation specifically for my reboot.
I will start now with cleaning my house fully thoroughly this morning.
Have been postponing and only doing it half for quite some time.
Then I will continue with the rest of my agenda.
I feel the dopamine habit is already trying to drag me down to sit and watch YouTube or other videos.
But I won’t give in that easily, for I am a warrior.
Not a weak prey or obedient slave to dark side.
Done, Dishes are done Kitchen is clean, living room and bedroom also.
I must say, was though.
It was literally like a light saber duel; I felt like stopping many times to go sit watch YouTube or other videos.
But I did not, I kept pushing myself forward and eventually started feeling satisfied after seeing everything nice clean.
I made it and it feels good to see everything nice clean and ordered.
I know my problem is not just Pornography but dopamine addiction to that cheap instant pleasure and excitement.
Video watching I must regulate it.
But Discipline is my ally the force is my ally.
Now I will take bath and eat a healthy breakfast
the day has finished satisfied.
was productive
going to rest now.
day 2/90
The dopamine “urge” to watch video’ s came this morning, but I negated it and went on with my program.
I am a warrior in training.
Just came back from my morning walk and had time to reflect n meditate.
I will do some exercises now; bath have breakfast and do laundry today.
This site is great and helping me alot I like to read here.
I Skipped bath and went right away for laundry but i am almost done.
I thought will get wet and muddy after all so better get that done and then bath.
I have not played a single YouTube video yet.
which I am very satisfied for this.
previously I would already be watching videos, I tried to use it as coping against ■■■■ but I got habituated to it instead.
the digital world is like just a big sticky trap of dopamine.(hajajaja)
But I am stronger that that trash.
so now I am regulating both but it’s going good so far.
You are one for sure
Good that you meditated today
Keep yourself calm and composed
Thank you, friend.
Yes, the meditation helping me a lot.
When the mind is calm after the meditation n walk, have I realized
I take next action fast without hesitation or overthinking.
Brother I would like to share something that I meditate with daily. I hope this helps you Brother.
Joshua 1:9 (KJV) Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
Wow wonderful video, thank you and to the lord
for this wonderful video.
You have blessed me with great strength 
.
Thank you .
Day 3/90
I am up and going for morning walk.
Back from the walk I heard the bird’s nature orchestra clearing my mind feels fresh.
Now I will exercise, bath n breakfast.
I realized YouTube in contrast to ■■■■ that is nothing but sugar-coated dopamine trash, is good. It’s the excess that is my problem.
I will allow myself to watch 3 videos or max 20 - 30 min of YouTube a day during the reboot phase.
The Chosen One | Remastered - YouTube
I Just saw this one and it is very emotional for my story is quite similar but also motivational.
I fell too seduced by ■■■■, But now I am a warrior of the light side, not a slave to ■■■■ or negativity.
Day 4/90
Weekend has come.
Few weak urges but I push them aside with firm resolve and went on with my routine.
I am a warrior not a slave.
During my morning walk.
Today I saw some green parrots eating in a tree, as I walked closer, there were actually 4 of them in the foliage. living simply relaxed minding their business early morning.
Shouldn’t we also live chill like this in the real world without looking at a screen all the time?
That’s so nice
Keep pushing your limits mate
You will reach your destination sooner
Until then, have faith in yourself and work hard
Day 5/90
Urge to ■■■■ is weak and controlled so far.
I have not watched YouTube either for today which is great.
The 3 YouTube videos rule is also going firm, although the urge to watch more is really gnawing at me, with those side bars and suggestions.
But the impulse on Pinterest got the best of me spent 1 hour + opening quote after quote, I had the best intention, but it pulled me in.
I will not open Pinterest for the rest of the entire challenge.
Time to levitate stones and do laundry now (hajaja)
All the best brother
Keep pushing your limits
Embrace the pain of self restrictions
Its the only way to succeed
Keep going
Thanks my friend,
Thanks so much for the motivation i apreciate it.
This age of dopamine drugs and distraction is the bane of many, but we are not giving up, we will regain control as warriors.
May Almighty lord, Sri Krishna bless you.
So, these addictions to video n media are really sticky and troublesome.
But a Jedi would say this is a chance for me to grow stronger.
In the light and banish the Darkside.
I have been in the forum and the daily check-ins help a lot its part of discipline.
And discipline is my ally.
If we can’t be disciplined in a simple login and day count in a diary, what can we be disciplined in then?
I fell many times while fighting the darkness, but getting up after each fall makes us stronger, leads us to this moment.
If I fall, I will have no shame for I am giving it my best.
but if I stay down or fall by giving just token resistance, I will be ashamed.
Staying down like a slave of pleasure or giving up leads us nowhere.
This Personal diary is perfect to help focus my mind, and like master Qui-gon said, “What we focus on determines our reality/direction.”
focusing on ■■■■ and cheap \low dopamine pleasure will only keep me a slave.
Thanks God that I found this tool.
Alright, time to continue with my agenda.
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Pornography habit is a formidable opponent i have clashed will and resolve against many times in the past.
But the video (YouTube addiction)) is pretty strong, during the day i have not much interest in ■■■■ it’s at night that the addict shows up.
But during the day the urge to binge watch YouTube, other Videos and series Aswell as eating ice-cream is really trying to drag me down.
But I know it’s just the urge for quick and cheap dopamine shots that is doing this.
I remember I was very active outdoors before, but it changed when I got a laptop and connected to high speed wifi internet.
All the dopamine from games, ■■■■ and moves clouded my consciousness before, and I saw nothing else better to do besides them.
But it’s getting better this year and with this diary I feel I am really anchoring myself forward with each step.
I strongly resist and force push or saber strike that fake trash each time it shows up.
I set boundaries and control myself.
I am no slave to the Darkside, I am a warrior of the true force.
I am removing the dopamine slave/addict suit and coming back to the light!
By Choice!
Day 1/90
A minor setback, that I learned from.
Got triggered badly by Instagram and fell, I did not fap or ■■■ but just the fact that I was browsing and watched that trash for almost 1 hour it is unacceptable to me.
Really fast, lust clouds the mind very fast.
No doubt games, movies, videos everything is being sexualized and dopamine coated in this fake digital media world.
Still at least I did not fap but it’s unacceptable.
I do this for me no one else, therefore I want a clean reboot to cleanse my mind fully.
Time to keep going full intensity.
Nothing can hold me down.
Good that you introspected where you went wrong and took the courageous decision to restart your streak from the beginning
Hats off for your determination
I’m really impressed 
Thank you brother.
I am going serious in this thing.
It’s not about some streak or so.
I quit the trash of ■■■■ forever.
