Day 11
Feel tired and lack of energy most of the time. These are my weak moments. God help me feel better and have some more energy. I should stay strong!
Relapsed after Day 11 
Because I was feeling terribly tired. And it was becoming too uncomfortable for me. Inspite of my best efforts, it won’t go away. Hence, I needed some pleasure and escapism to feel better. I have already relapsed twice this month 
Let me consider Feb 1st as the Day 1 of my new Nofap streak. I will make it this time.
Just a track record of my past year relapses. Though I have stopped using it henceforth.
Total Relapses in the month of January::
2018- 7
2019- 5
2020- 2.
Total Relapses in the month of Feb::
2018- 7
2019- 0
2020- It should be atleast zero for 2020. That’s my modest goal for now.
I know I am growing better. Feb should go a completely clean month. I don’t know about the future but Feb will go 100% clean, I take the pledge.
Day 1
Go to bed in time and wake up early, refreshed in time. Stay active the whole day working and enjoying this life.
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Day 2
Grow up, give up porn and masturbation. Enjoy the real life.
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Feb 3, 01: 05 AM
Fell again, fail again.
Feb 6 01:20 AM
Such a SHAME. Fell again and again and again.
Feb 11, 02:02 AM
Relapsed. Sick.
Oh God help me. I am so stressed and confused. Help me.
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These are the triggers. Stay away from these atleast for 30 days. If successful, it would be extended. Completely avoid.
- No social media.
- No YouTube, except for educational.
- No music video, songs, movies.
- Just stay away from the multimedia. For educational purpose, that’s excusable.
- Listen devotional songs instead of romantic songs which nevertheless stimulate the sex centres.
- Don’t worry unnecessarily all the time.
- Limit YouTube time. Strictly monitor it. Don’t browse through unnecessary videos all the time.
- Self-Discipline is the key to greatness.
- Get up early and go to bed early on regular time.
- Exercise, Pranayama and Meditate. Specially at night before sleeping.
- Eat healthy and regularly.
- Sleep well.
- I will use only my professional YouTube account for 30 days.
- I will slap myself whenever I find myself touching my dick other than for urination.
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Feb 23, Day 12
Semen conservation 90 Days
Semen conservation 90 Days
Semen conservation 90 Days
Semen Conservation 90 Days
Semen Conservation 90 Days
Feb 24, 01:10 AM
Fell after 14 days.
I will be back! I am strong willed, smart and will do it this time.
The way that you have kept track of all your relapses is an inspiration, only if I had done the same I would be aware and be at a better place today. I have been aware of the low low value of pmo since mid 2018 and joined the Nofap forums however I didnt Indulge in the great information that was available there in form of reboot logs success stories and many other forum subjects. I so wish I could then have been more sincere and dedicated. I was lucky enough to be p free from the years 2016-2018 because I didnt have a smartphone and internet connection on my laptop( I had failed to qualify for my year end bachelors of computer application exams two years straight due to lack of attendance and my gf who I was dating broke up with me because she realized how f’d up and weird I was and I out of no where had a though to move to Goa and live away from my parents or education so yeah I had no Internet there on my computer for 2 years straight) however I was not mo free. Yeah since moving back to my parents I have been pmo’ing till I registered on nofap forums I had a 80 days p free streak and a 87 days pmo free streak then I fell into a cycle of binges. Now I am on day 4.
Brother your journal and that you have kept a track of your relapses is such an inspiration.
I am definitely going to track the same way you have from now onwards.
Wishing you the absolute best in your journey
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March 5, 2020
Fell after 10 days.
Same reasons… God save me
March 22, 02:00 AM
Fell after 16 Days
Because
- I used to feel very low energy all the time
- My upper body always remains tense
- I became depressed due to these reasons.
And I succumbed. Rather, I knowingly indulged in ■■■■ so as to get some sort of relief which I did, atleast for the short term. I am trapped here forever.
Track record in 2020:
Jan- 2 relapse
Feb- 4 relapse
March- 2 relapse
I promise that I will quit watching porn and masturbation no matter what…
Day 2
Relapse is very painful. The loss of energy is debilitating. The after effects of relapse is worse than the pain/discomfort experienced while on nofap. God help me! I quit porn and masturbation. God help me be strong and firm. I want to quit porn and masturbation forever now. I do hope I will quit it. I will overcome it now.
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Just a track record.
2018 Relapses:-
Jan-7
Feb-7
March-6
April- 4
May- 5
June-2
July- 4
August- 2
September- 3
October- 5
November- 3
December- 1.
2019 Relapses
Jan- 5
Feb- 0
March- 3
April- 3
May- 1
June- 5
July- 5
August- 1
September- 0
October- 5
Nov & Dec- 9
2020 Relapses
Jan- 2 relapse
Feb- 4 relapse
March- 2 relapse
Day 4
I will never look at porn again and I will never masturbate again. It is so destructive. The feeling I have been going through after the relapse is terrible. It’s all pain, lack of energy, depression, and mental fog all over me. Stay clean, stay natural and healthy.
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