14 May 2020
I masturbated today offcourse after watchi’ porn.
I know very well porn made my life miserable. Then why I am watching everyday.
This is so strong. So good. It is making your day awesome. Feels so happy and intersting.
So watch it and feel good. Yes.
Lekin jab mai hi nahi rahoonga to ye happiness intersting kis kam ka
PORN DEKHNE SE MAI MARA JA RAHA HOON
So choose between Death and Happiness.
Happiness which is of 10 second duration and afterthat feel guilty, depressed, and feels like No interest in Life.
So precisely this is not the real happiness. Masturbation is not the real happiness. Can’t be. Because it follows pain.
– I watched porn at 10 am.
– After masturbation, feels so depressed. Like death is Better than life.
— I Forget my all goals today.
How to avoid possible porn watchi’ mindset tomorrow ??
– follow routine
— remember goal
— Work on building discipline.
Rating of this day 0/5 starts