No words can ease your pain still am deeply sorry for your loss. The pain she endured is heartbreaking. But your strength in holding on says so much its okay to let it out. She deserved peace, and you deserve to heal. let me know if you need anything or someone to listen. Stay strong bhai !!
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I want to thank everyone for their support. I’m struggling to find the right words. If I’m being honest, I wasn’t the best son. I failed her.
The doctor told us that my mother’s cancer had spread throughout her body, and every cell was affected, even her brain. She knew she was going to pass away, which is why she asked her relatives - her mother, brother, and sisters - to take care of us and visit us regularly.
Now, they’re coming to our house every day with food and telling my sister not to cook. They’ve taken some of the burden off our shoulders, at least for a little while. With my mother gone, the responsibility of taking care of my family now falls on me.
I’m trying to stay strong, but it’s hard. The day we buried her, I saw tears in my father’s eyes. He’s not in good health either, but he’s still managing to take care of things.
I’m deeply ashamed of myself for disobeying my mother and not visiting her in the hospital. I didn’t want to see her in that state, and I thought I’d only meet her when she came back home. I planned to show off my achievements and make her laugh with some jokes.
But she was in so much pain, crying day and night. Whenever we talked to her, though, she’d smile and laugh with us, giving us advice on what to do after she passed away. I’d get angry and make fun of her, but she was right.
As far as I remember, my mother was ill for almost 8-9 years. After getting one disease treated, she’d get another. I don’t know why God put her through so much suffering in her final days. She became a living dead body, unable to control her own body.
In the hospital, when my aunt and sister tried to sit her up, she’d fall back down. She couldn’t see properly, and everything was blurry. She’d lost her appetite and was only passing blood.
The doctor said that if we started any treatment, she’d die from it. My mother wanted to spend her last days with us, but we convinced her to go to the hospital. It was already too late, though.
The cancer report took too long, and eight days ago, my father took her for a full-body scan. That’s when we found out the cancer had spread to every cell in her body.
(I didn’t knew anything before her death and doctor never explained things to us I want to report that doctor if he explained us earlier about this full body test and where it can be happen he just written it in October and explained it to us in January it costed 13 thousand rupees but it had not helped us much because it was too late)
The day she passed away, my sister came home and washed some clothes. My mother told her to come back to the hospital, but I refused to go with her. I don’t know why, but I was only thinking about what would happen if she died.
I was praying for her recovery and long life. Eventually, my brother and father came back, and everything seemed fine. My mother was going to be discharged the next morning.
But then my sister got a call, and I ignored it. When it came to my phone, my junior brother was using it. My sister said my mother had lost consciousness after the doctor drained 650ml of water from her lungs.
My father went to the hospital, and I thought everything was okay. I went to sleep, but then some aunties came to our house. I let them in, still confused.
More relatives arrived, and I set up some seating arrangements. It was around 10 pm when an ambulance arrived. I thought they were discharging my mother, and everyone had come to visit her.
But then they took her into our room, and she was wrapped up like a package. My heart started to feel heavy, but I thought maybe she was just unconscious.
My sister asked for scissors and unwrapped her. Some aunties told us to cover her with a bed sheet and cover her head. I still thought everything was fine and told my sister to put a blanket on her because it was cold.
But then my sister shouted at me, telling me she was dead. I was speechless, and my heart felt like it was going to explode. I stood there, frozen, and then sat down beside my sister.
After a moment, I stood up again and told my junior brother what had happened. He came to see her and started crying, along with my sister. My father had tears in his eyes, which is why I didn’t cry.
Now, we need to give food to homeless or needy people for 40 days as part of a Muslim ritual. We’ll also visit her grave every day. But I’m scared that one day I’ll forget where her grave is. Things happen unexpectedly, and I can’t do anything about it.
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You’re a good son. However much you may not show, all your actions were a way of caring. I know you will never forget anything, if you do forget, that’s like forgetting your own self. Visit her grave often, in happy or in sad moments, she is your strength and blessing.
Your mother’s wise nature and strength far exceeded anything. I don’t know man, words can’t describe what I feel after reading your mom’s story. It felt like a personal loss.
I just want to tell you in this moment of sadness, I am here beside you mourning.
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By forgetting I literally meant it! Because they dig new graves on a daily basis although I will remember the place where she is buried but will not know the exact grave after a while if I lose the sight
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I will express everything when I will become worthy of it like after achieving my goals and reaching my dreams till then I will use it as a fuel!
Believe me I definitely will!! I never did anything for her was just used to think that when the time come I will fullfill every dream of her, she always wanted to live in a good house a good life and wanted to see us successful.
That’s too big of a goal for me it’s seems out of reach but I will do my best my mother always said me to study wholeheartedly ! Maybe in search of stars I will get the moon, I mean maybe chasing being the one of the best in world I will become atleast better than average although the saying is like in chase of moon may one get stars but it’s wrong! Aren’t it? Stars are more precious than the moon they are thousands of times larger than a sun.
No brother, that’s not how life works! Death is a sad reality of life it will happen eventually and you will lose your loved ones eventually you too will die one day. Instead of mourning on past mistakes we should live the present.
The one who creates also knows how to destroy, the god made us he may have more good plans ahead for us we should believe on God and proceed ahead in life! This too shall pass away.
I know bro, I am not worthy enough to fullfill her dreams as I am now! I should change for the better a little day by day.
Thanks brother for thinking about me! I do made some brothers here on this forum, it’s the best thing which I have, I don’t know why I am feeling more sadness whenever I read all of your replies and condolences guys 
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No brother in this world everyone have some suffering instead of thinking others differently and only praying for the ones we know and for us own selves we should pray for everyone who is suffering and have problems in their life, Everyone have them by visiting graveyard daily I got to know the sad reality everyone losses their loved ones on a daily basis and that’s how life is! I saw the new graves digging and the destroyed old graves too, whenever I visit there I sees new corpses coming there, from a young infant to young and old peoples too!
Thanks for the help but I don’t need it god had given me enough and I hope in future I became worthy of helping others too! You have such a big heart brother thanks.
Thanks
I will stay strong and thanks brother
Inshallah
Everyone have their own pains and one day in there life they get rid of it or get rid because of it!
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My friend you are one of the most remarkable teenagers I have had the pleasure of reading about. I know that you won’t let this compliment go to your head, so I am happy to tell you it.
I can offer no wisdom that you will not find from others nor yourself. Merely encouragement and sureness of the fact that, through the dedication and good heart that you evidently have, you will grasp the life that your mother intended for you, and that you really want for yourself. Protect and serve your family as they do to you.
I know someone who lost his mother young - in the year just gone - cancer also. His strength, like the strength you have, served his family well. Yours will serve you and your family well. Never give up on the happy thoughts my friend, and try your level best to keep your thoughts pure. We are always here for you. Always.
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Never expected that I’ll read this news, and that too so soon. I’m extremely sorry brother, really from the bottom of my heart, more importantly because I could not be even here or remember your mom in my prayers while I was away. Sometimes we become too selfish in our individual lives. Your mom was a fighter bro, I hope she stays high there in the a good place in lovely care of God and she maybe freed of all her pains now. You are a strong son of a strong mother, and I know you will get out of this tough phase and rise high in the sky, making your family proud which will bring a smile on your mother’s face when she’ll look from above. 
Take care of yourself and your family brother.
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Heart clenched after reading the whole post . You are a strong guy 
, God bless you and your family bhai.
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