In 2020 when I was 12.5 year old I watched a
Hot video on YouTube I first time masturbated that time but I didn’t know what is it what I was doing after doing this thing 4 time First time my sperm come out I was like what is it why is it too sticky and white I was Shocked Then I start searching Google about it I found a Post where it’s written it’s nothing Dengerous it’s very normal even you have to used to it Masturbation is no harmful that Time I was Dumb Enough to get manipulated by those nonsense post after that I start masturbation every day 1 to 4 time every time urge start become stronger than ever but almost 1.5 year later I Realise I Ruined my life I start trying to leave masturbation but even 1 year later I can’t leave it but now I was 15 year Old This time I will Definitely leave this fucking P*rn I already almost Destroyed My Social skills My face my memory almost everything because of this addiction So I wanted to change my self before it’s too late. I already wasted 3 years of my life but Now I will Definitely change myself!
•That’s my Story My Name is Faisal Age- 15 in 2023
P.S - I just Shared the story How I got addicted to Fap but It’s not The whole story I start doing it to escape Reality and pain but Running from problem is not the solution So I will solve it in my way I do not wanted to blame anyone I will take my own Responsibility by myself it’s time to face Problems and Fix them .
Proud of you bro. When I was your age I was unaware of the damage I was doing to myself
Date- 11 November 2023 Morning .
In 2 hours My Day 1 is going to start.
What I am going to do today?
Schedule for Today I will take a bath after that I will do 10 squats and 150 wall push ups Today I am not going to do intense exercise because on 4:00 pm I will go to play football Till 18 November I am on a vacation provided by the Government because of Pollution from Next month My Pre-Board is going to start So I will Study for 2 hours today That’s it if anything else happens today I will update it here .
Today I am ill so I am thinking to skip football today let’s see if my health get better before 4:00pm then I will go for football .
its good you realized too early
Day 1 Completed… With night fall but I am not going to give up it’s Now or Never.
Day 2 Completed … Today I played football again after 3 days My legs in now Paining I am noob in football I just started playing 10 days ago So it’s obvious But I am learning it day by day Btw Now I am happy with my decision that I started playing with my friends and Increasing my socialization I was just passing my time but Now I understand it that this time is most precious time of my life So I will make memories of this time I will definitely make friends in Real life.
Day 3rd Relapsed… ! I Need to control myself I will Practice Mindfulness whenever I got urges again.
Day 5 is going to start In just 3 hours .
Many things is going on in my life I am making little changes in my life to improve myself and it’s worth it I am seeing the little results of my efforts I never win arm wrestling in two years I got defeated within a second because I am too skinny and weak but from 6 months I started eating more but I do not stopped my habit of eating junk food but now I am controlling over myself I will gain healthy weight also I am exercising whenever I got time because of this finally I can now withstand for 2 minutes in arm wrestling even I defeated my one friend in it but it’s not enough I want to Defeat everyone in my class I am not a professional Arm wrestler even I don’t want to become one but in class we do this as a timepass I do not want to stay weak that everyone will take me lightly I will become strong mentally and physically no matter what Now I know what’s my aim is I want to become best I also wanted to get more tall I am 15 year old My height is 166cm I wanted to become 180 cm tall I don’t like to write in notebooks that’s why I don’t make notebook of many subjects but now I am completing my work because many of my teacher recognise me but still I don’t care I am just going to complete the notebook of science for other subjects I will made stories to fool them although my class mate always tell teachers that I didn’t even made a notebook .
It’s Day 5 I didn’t attended my school today So I was at home I did some bodyweight exercises for legs also I trained my core muscles (abs) it’s a sleepy day I slept for almost 3 hours in Evening I got many urges but I controlled myself Mindfulness is working whenever I got urges no matter what I am in which position I start doing mindfulness you can think it’s kind of meditation.