Diary of Aragorn

[SunRise]

Hello,

The root cause is technically the true cause of your relapse.
It’s something that is under the " i feel horny " reason.
Like for example, some people who have been hurt physically in their childhood by their parents will do the same to their childrens and saying " i can not control this and i dont know why i’m doing it “. The reason they will say will be " they are frigthening me " or " i’m tired and i’m stressed” , but the root for them is that they are repeating the same thing that has been done to them it’s under the " i’m stressed" reason.

This is an extreme example, but for porn addict people can feel horny because they are depressed, and being horny is a defense mechanism against depression sadness or any unconformtable feeling, then you masturbate and you don’t sense your sadness or stress anymore , this is automatic.

And in many cases, people are just searching love in porn, it’s not ’ i’m horny " but " i really need love "and automatically when you need love, you go in porn. But porn does not bring love, it’s just a replacement in a time you really need it , and one day you can do without it and you feel guilt by doing this because inside you know it’s not that what you want and optionally, it’s trash, so you need to stop it.

This works with many others reason, but porn is generally a replacement for a deep lack ( love, attention , affection , recognition).

In the end , you can’t fix that in one or 2 days or whatever , but at least you can see the root and accept that today, you will not be able to fill the void of love recognition or whatever reason . At least this what i do.
You can only work everyday to fill your life and to train yourself to resist to urge. And then maybe one day you will become human again.You may not be happy in an instant, but at least you will be honest with yourself and you will stop hurting your body and your mind.
And being honest with yourself is the best feeling ever even if you are not happy or filled, i know that.

I hope what i said is understandable.

Just continue.

[AnkitK]

You have to identify for yourself. There can be many. For example, the food we eat affects our consciousness, triggers are not eliminated properly, etc… I have gone through all those stages. I voluntarily did not chose to change my habits in the beginning because I thought that they did not make much difference. But after frustration, I changed. I have written the big steps taken in my diary. You have to do research on yourself and pass through many stepping stones.

[udi]

Screaming in pain is acceptable, getting KOed by relapse us acceptable, crying after that is acceptable but brother dont ever Quit thats not acceptable…
@Aragorn get back up… get angry pump up ur adrenaline … just do it come onnn…

[gunsblazing]

Why don’t you do like I do? Or just find a startegy yourself, what I’m doing is really helping me, I don’t want to miss any prayers because then they stack up on me, and I don’t want to quite the only thing that keeps me close to God, these reasons are whats keeping me strong, I haven’t seen you cross day 7 in a while, let me see that day 7 man, you can do it.

[Aragorn]

NoFap Champion 2019

Do you really want to relapse now? What will you get by chatting? What will you get by seeing some pics? What will you get by watching some filthy videos? Don’t you want to take care of your mental and physical health? Just think about it. The 5 seconds pleasure you are getting from it. Seeing some actresses in revealing clothes. Seeing some ladies nude. Is that what you want? Is that really what you are after? Do NOT go back to that life buddy. You have a higher purpose in life. I kn…

This is a way i have found for myself to deal with the urges.
Simply put, when the urges comes, i speak to myself from a third person’s perspective.
And i write down all those dialogues in my diary.
Am posting this here to help others.
If anybody find this helpful, am more than glad for them and me.

Peace out.

[Aragorn]

I Cried Out of Happiness

It is a strong addiction am trapped in. One which rewired my neurons so much so that am actually the lowest possible self of mine. The realization of the existence of such an addiction and confessing that am one of them was the first step in my de-addiction journey. It was difficult. Many a times i was searching through out the web looking for some excuses to keep doing this thing again and again. And i found many explaining how this is normal and there is nothing abnormal doing these things since most of the people are already doing it.

It was over a period of time that i got the actual realization that this is wrong. It was when it actually started affecting my life. It was when i saw the adverse effects of it in my real life. I was both determined and excited at that period to beat this addiction.

For me personally, it was always easy to start and difficult to maintain. Its been not so long i have found this platform. I was starting well and then started relapsing again and again. Its not a easy journey. Its very hard.

But i don’t want to give up. What ever happens, no matter i relapse a 100 times, i don’t want to give up. The realization part of my journey is already over. And its the execution and maintenance part am in right now.

I have completed 2 DAYS in my journey today. And i was feeling so much peace and tranquility today. That didn’t happen every time I have completed 2 days in past. But today it was something special. My mind is so clear. Am at peace. Am thinking only good things right now. I am thinking about how great my life will be. Am thinking about my family. My parents and their happy faces. Its really something special for me.

I am praying to the Almighty to give me the strength to keep moving forward and find the inner peace and tranquility. And i strongly expect the best will come tome at the right time. I will keep working hard and wait for it.

[Aragorn]

Today was a good day, Tomorrow will be a better day

And one more day in my life is coming to an end. And am happy. Am positive. And am at peace. Am grateful for the wonderful day i had. Many things could have gone wrong. But i was lucky to not fall in to any trap.

As long we try and do work towards our dream sincerely, everything else will make it easy for us. I was mostly focused in my studies today. nothing much has actually happened. But that’s wonderful for me.

I was very sad to hear the news from Sri Lanka. For a moment i imagined myself as one of the relatives of a victim. What all the emotions i will be going through if such things happened? My prayers goes to those people.

I have read some where something like this: Truth is like the Light. Even if we are in Darkness, it does not mean that the light has disappeared. We are in Darkness just because something is blocking the path of the Light. Light is still there and Light will be there always. One fine day, Light will overcome all the hurdles in its path and come out. And just like that Truth will prevail.

Yes, Truth Shall Prevail.
#2 DAYS

[Aragorn]

Every Day is an Opportunity

Am a 25 years old person. In this 25 years, i have seen a lot of morning. Primarily from a traditional and religious family, i was lucky to be nurtured and advised to wake up early in the morning for prayers and start the new day before a lot of other people. Thanks to my parents.

And this single habit have contributed to my happy life. I like waking up early and starting my day before most of the other people. On the other end, i cant stay up till late night.

But all this changed when i moved to hostel for graduation course. Every other hosteler is staying up late in the night. And , no hard feelings to any one, I also started developing that habit. Now when i look back, i see that staying up late night has contributed to my PMO addiction a lot.

Fast forward to this day, am developing my early wake up routine slowly and slowly. The effect which it has on me cannot be explained in words. I totally respect those people who works better at night. This is just me. I feel that am more productive whenever i wake up early in the morning. That whole day will be a better day for me.

The better day started with an early morning routine is the best thing for me. And i can surely see the excitement, vigor and confidence to do things in me. On this occasion, i must realize that NoFap is the result of a bunch of other good habits. And developing a habit in to our routine is not an easy thing. We have to completely trust the process and keep moving forward in the journey. We should not be giving up at any point of time. Its the hardest process of reaching your dream, that makes the dream and success more enjoyable.

Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’

#2 DAYS

[gunsblazing]

This is looking great for you man, same here, something about this streak feels special to me, I feel like this streak is so clean and honest, I believe this streak will be fast healing, it will be the one. I would suggest you to put your focus on getting out of the cycle, some people, including me, forget how important it is to get out of the cycle, how it brings you a whole new self, that’s much powerful and could resist and will feel disgusted by p. You will feel no intention of going back, all we got to do is reach that 10 to 15 days, and the cycle is over, only then will you feel how amazing it is, only then would you comprehend how important it is for your reboot.

[Aragorn]

Thanks a lot for your kind words and support man. I hope that you are doing wonderful.

Night is the darkest before the dawn.

I am hopping for the best and doing whatever i can to stay productive and win every day.

[Aragorn]

Learn to Enjoy the Process

Some days are like this. Some random negative thoughts comes to our mind and starts disturbing us. Its such a day for me. Am tensed up now. Anxious about my future. Anxious how will my career go. Will it be good? Will i meet a good girl? Will she likes me?

After some time pondering of these thoughts, i came in to the decision to give them up. I have to learn to leave somethings unattended at sometimes. Every single thoughts coming up in my mind don’t need a pondering. I will have to just smile at them and leave them as it is.

We can’t predict how the future unveil for us. And as life gets for almost all the people, its an exciting journey ahead. Hardships are inevitable.And i hope those hardships will ingest some new good lessons in us. That how we grow, right?

So, we should not be wasting time on thinking about the future unnecessarily. Instead work for a better future. And future will gift you with amazing things at its right time. The sincere, consistent and determined efforts we make now for a better life ahead will get you peace and success.

And most importantly, we should learn to enjoy the process. The difficult thoughts we face and difficult times we are going through will be the most close-to-heart and inspiring stories we can tell to our friends, children and other loved ones after many days. The process is long. Its time taking and its not easy. But its worth it. So try to enjoy the process.

#4 DAYS

[Aragorn]

Relapsed again. This needs to stop. Still am growing. I will improve. And I don’t want to post a similar post soon again.

Time to work on what went wrong and improve myself.

[gunsblazing]

Sad to hear, learn from it and it’s not a failure anymore. I will see how things work out for me and I’ll share what I did, hoping it will help you quit.

[Aragorn]

My Quest Begins

Something is NOT working. Am falling for the same mistake. Its been a long time am trying hard get out of this less than 10 days cycle.

Why am i not getting serious? Why the hell am doing it again and again?
Do i really want to ruin my own life?

I have nobody to blame other than myself. A come back from the deepest of pits what i have to pull off now. I have fallen to the darkest of caves and there is no light that i can see anywhere now. Am not sure whether i will find one.

But what will i get if i keep sitting here like piece of wood, not trying; blaming myself again and again?
What will i get by smashing my head on the wall till it bleeds and then despair on my faith? What will i get from staying in my room all the time regretting the precious time i have lost due to this shitty addiction?

I don’t want to ruin my life. I really don’t want to.
I believe that there is still hope for a person like me.
I cannot see the light of hope anywhere around me now.
But i have no choice other than believing that there is that light some where.
And if i persevere i will find it.

After all, there should be atleast slightly better life than the one am living right now.

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[gunsblazing]

@Aragorn

I cannot see the light of hope anywhere around me now.
But i have no choice other than believing that there is that light some where.

You can’t see it now, get closer and you will. I have been stuck on this cycle too for so long, I have set limitations, we will get over this, evanutually, if not now then after 100th try, loong as we keep trying there is hope. Remember that. It could be this time that you set yourself free or the 1000th time, Remember the sooner the better.!

[Aragorn]

Very encouraging words my friend.

Infact i was feeling ashamed of myself lastfew days.
Because i have let down my friends in here. I have fallen for same mistakes again and again.

But as you rightly pointed out, we have to trust process and keep trying again and again.
We should make limitations and strategies.

I also hope that this may be might successfull streak.

God Bless You brother.

Keep in touch.

[Aragorn]

Conversation with My Brain

Me to my brain: I’m gonna fap tomorrow, not today.

Brain: Aight.

next day

Me to my brain: I’m gonna fap tomorrow, not today.

Brain: But yesterday… Aight!

next day

Me to my brain: I’m gonna fap tomorrow, not today.

Brain: Huh? Are you playing with me? Do it today!

Me to brain: Today is a beautiful day and it would be foolish to spend that time alone in my room jerking off to ■■■■.

Brain: But, but…

Me to my brain: Nope.

Brain: Aight, master. Tomorrow!

another day

Brain: Time to fap!

Me to brain: Woah, wait a minute, buddy! I haven’t even gotten out of bed.

Brain: Let’s do it!

Me to my brain: What?

Brain: Let’s watch some ■■■■ and jerk off like crazy.

Me to my brain: I’m gonna fap tomorrow, not today.

Brain: No Waaaaaay! You’ve been saying that since the first day! I want that high. If I don’t get it, you’ll die!

Me to my brain: Nobody dies from not watching ■■■■ and masturbating.

Brain: I don’t think so…

Me to my brain: Yes, nobody!

Brain: Anyway, let’s watch ■■■■, bro.

Me to my brain: I’m gonna fap tomorrow, not today.

Brain: sigh Alright!

Few Days Later

Brain is quiet.

Finally, felt some relief from him. Today I can focus on my work without getting distracted by my brain and phone. Little did I know that my poor brain has hit flatline. I felt sorry for him and thought of watching ■■■■ and jerking off. I just wanted to see if he still gets aroused. The moment I was about to open up ■■■■■■■, I heard a voice saying, “You’ve gone through the pain of addiction once, you don’t have to go through it again.” I agreed to that voice and switched off my phone. The sun was shining and the birds were singing, I went out and felt something out of this world. For the first time in my life, I felt that I AM FREE! Free from my own mind. It was beautiful.

And I think my brain is rewiring as I’m not watching ■■■■ anymore. This flatline stage is probably my brain resetting itself. I’m happy that I’ll get a new brain free from ■■■■ addiction.

1 week later

Me: Wow! I feel so energized! It’s like I’m reborn.

Brain: Yeah, you deserve it.

Me: Right.

Brain: Hey, you haven’t watched ■■■■ for a long time now. It’s good. But I’m curious what new videos are up on ■■■■■■■. Let’s check. But don’t jerk off, ok?

Me: Really? Should I go there?

Brain: Yes, you deserve it.

Me: No man, I’m not going there. That’s the main thing I’m trying to quit.

Brain: I’m just telling you to check…

Me: Nope! I’ll do it tomorrow.

Brain: Ah shit, here we go again.

Me: Deal with it, 'cause I’m never gonna give you ■■■■ ever again.

Brain: This guy is dead serious about quitting ■■■■.

Me: Oh yes, yes, I do.

Brain: Ok, I’ll make you do it tomorrow.

Me : Lol what?

Brain: See ya tomorrow. Let’s go out and play some games.

Me: Let’s do it!

Day 90

I kept procrastinating ■■■■ and masturbation to tomorrow and that tomorrow never came. I now look myself into the mirror with love and self-esteem.

Finally, I have overcome my ■■■■ addiction. My relationships and friendships are way better than they were three months ago. I feel confident and I feel like a new man. Life is beautiful.

But don’t be too satisfied, even though my brain is accustomed to my new life, it can still get addicted if you give it a chance. So, be careful there.

With that being said, I’m gonna keep staying away from ■■■■ and masturbation forever.

Peace

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[Aragorn]

Easy method to stop unnecessary Boners and Urges

Everyone has problem that you get boners and that lead to orgasm and masturbation finally. This is very bad feeling as it breaks your streak in an instant. So here are the steps.

1. When you get boner close your eyes or keep it open. Do which you feel easy.
2. Keep your attention to your dick feel the sensation and slowly shift your attention to your balls.
3. Slowly continue shifting your attention to your spine then back, then to your neck , then to your head, from head to your tongue and finally to your chest.
4. Repeat the path few times and you will find that the same energy which was rushing in your dick reverses and flows in the path we are providing. And urges and boner gone.

It takes little practice. Those who have done meditation will find it easy. In few minutes your boners and urges will go. Try it once and share your experiences.

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[Aragorn]

Why NoFap Might Be Killing You

I have been on a journey of self-growth for a while now, and quitting my porn and masturbation addiction is one of the things I always put off and procrastinated on. Arround last week I finally took the challenge seriously, and I must say, the benefits are incredlibe. No depression, high motivation, instense creativity, and most importantly I am in control of my emotional state. I feel amazing.

With that said, I’ve been lurking arround the forums for a while now, and I noticed the horrible cycle a lot of people go through, they start a streak, the relapse, feel shitty, make a post, start again. Repeat.

I’ve come to belive this method of quitting addiction is only setting you back, as the shame associated with ruining all your “progress” triggers you further into a binge down a dark hole.

So, I recommend you stop taking the challenge so seriously. Stop fighting it. Just be. If you relapse, cool, mark it as a day that you jacked off, but don’t mark it as, a start-over point, keep counting your days. Your brain will keep getting rewired the less frequently you release the dopamine.

I think, progress is, doing it less and less frequently, and most importantly, staying focused on your purpose, which should be rewiring your brain. Not getting to some magic number, you will only waste mental energy this way.

Playing this “NoFap Challenge” which such seriousness might be fucking you up even more than you think. Stop trying so hard, just let it be. Set your intention and let time do the rest, focus is the key.

With that said, I hope you all keep staying strong and wish you the best on your journey! Much respect to anyone willing to break out of an addiction, especially one normalized by society. It takes courage to listen to your heart and follow your intuition, PEACE

TLDR: Trying so hard to keep a streak might be giving you more stress than it should, therefore you should stop trying so hard to reach a number and just focus on masturbating with less frequency until the habit is eliminated.

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[Aragorn]

“No one will come and save you. No one will come riding on a white horse and take all your worries away. You have to save yourself, little by little, day by day. Build yourself a home. Take care of your body. Find something to work on. Something that makes you excited, something you want to learn. Get yourself some books and learn them by heart. Get to know the author, where he grew up, what books he read himself. Take yourself out for dinner. Dress up for no one but you and simply feel nice. it’s a lovely feeling, to feel pretty. You don’t need anyone to confirm it.”

― Charlotte Eriksson

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