guys
All it starts with a simple image.or an ugly thought in your mind that u have watched in past.Or the comedy videos which we generally choose to change the mood during urges.
then u think I’ve stepped wrong side.u quit but the thought persists.it takes away your concentration,u lack focus,u can’t do your work.
then u think it’s ok to watch some friendly videos.as they are not harmful.and u start watching them.but generally these have triggering contents ( smiling ladies etc…as now the level of everything is changed even the ads.)
then u think oh it’s nothing harmful to watch porn videos until u don’t gap.and u open a soft site crossing all the checks that u have made for yourself.
then u feel relaxed,but u keep on searching until u get the video u like,or as per your interest.by this time u r happy that u haven’t fapped. and u carry it on.locked door
then u find some movement in your pants.in order to minimise it u take your hands there.
and and and
now u have lost control…u r saying no i won’t do but u can’t stop the hands.u start remembering the promises made by u.but nothing helps. u TRY to endure it but u get rid of it only when u have fapped.
then u cry,call yourself as the worst person,curse yourself.and when this all is over, say nevermind we have ruined our today.
and u start watching more of it and fap a lot.and u think u can never leave this.
THEN AFTER SOME DAYS THE SAME THING HAPPENS AGAIN.
GUYS DID YOU FIND WHERE WE MISTAKE.
it is the third paragraph when u start watching the T.V. or soft videos.
instead of it u should try by this time to do what u like most (more than this shit)
u should play football alone, move out of house and not return until u have changed the thought or anything but not this
@kingxvi Thank you very much for posting this! In case of any urge for soft images/videos, I will read whole of this and then go out of my home for roaming around for a while. Thanks again!
Black clouds in the sky…
Smell of Death… Blood stains on the walls…
A man has been beaten… puking all over… Tears & blood…
A Wolf is approaching… His teeth are ready to bite the wounded flesh… Eyes… of Devil… Claws of steal… Ready to attack me.
Night is Dark… There is death in the Air… Cold air… Snow… all around… Beasts ready … thinking … its our turn… man is weak & wounded… He can barely walk… only a blade in his hand… waiting for the perfect moment of weakness… waiting for the man to sleep…
The Man has opened his eyes…
His Eyes are focused… His Blade is shining in the moon light…
His Arm got some strength left…
He swing his blade with all might and cut the devils throat…
Rest of the wolves disappeared from fear…
This warrior wants to live… This warrior wants to reach his destination. This warrior is strong.
He is fearless…
He is powerful… smiling on the face of death.
We need to REPLACE. Replace urges for something different and healthy. Sport, reading, jumping in your position 10 times, listening to music (I tried anti addiction music, and It works).
Cold showers are a powerful tool.
A little bit of looseness and you are done… a lit bit of slip… and you fall…
A lit bit of sleep… and dragon eats you alive…
The dragon has awakened.
You know very well … why he is showing up…
Because you allowed him…
Now … He is standing in front of you… showing his sharp teeths… laughing…
Cut the head of the dragon… with your mighty sword… with full confidence. Finish this matter here… dont allow it to make more moves…
This is time to kill him for good.
March forward with clear focus on your goal… that you had on day 0.
Make your consciousness clear & pure.
There should be no doubt.
We admitted we were powerless over PMO—that our lives had become unmanageable.
Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to… …, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
