16 July Day 11
Well i woke up late today and sorry for not writing my diary yesterday cause I was very depressed from my 10th results. I got only 84% whereas I was sure I would get 90. It was so frustrating. I was sad whole day, but my family supported me nobody in my family said that my marks are less or anything l, on the other hand they supported me and pulled me from that depressed state. Today I was very productive but I didn’t do my daily routine.
Which is quite a bummer l, but im sure I’ll get back on track. I’m more fired up to flip the coin in 12th. Hell yeah I’m a beast, I will prevail, why?? Because I choose to, I am in control of myself and I will choose anything but porn.
because pain is acceptable crying is acceptable but relapse is not acceptable.
I’m a man now faping is to kids
Wake Up at 6
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Behave Well
Control on Anger
Productivity Superhero
Puja
Mindful Eating
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 20 times(starting)
Study: 7hrs
That’s right bro, nothing is worth doing pmo. No matter how hard your life gets pmo will only make it harder. I have jerked my ding dong a million time in the past but never did it ever make my life even a fraction of a percent better.
Even your worst day in nofap is 1000 times better than your best day of pmo.
17 July Day 12
I am happy from my todays productivity, im feeling more manly and alive, today i was very focused and tackled all my tasks, studying physics got stressful lately, as im on my own. Other things are also going well, i have much more energy to work.
Well today i’ve learned about improving willpower. It’s so easy that you can do it even while going through your usual day,
The Steps Are-
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Finishing what you’ve started. Now this is exactly what it sounds like, don’t leave tasks unfinished. Plan your tasks, acess all resources you need to do it and then just do it. for example start making your bed in the morning. It will finish the task of sleeping.
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Try to do it better than you expected. This is also clearly understood as effectiveness. Do your task goodly. example make your bed and arrange the pillows, fold and lay the sheets in a different manner
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The last one is to do it more. This is practiced mainly by athletes, they gradually increase their reps or exercises as they become comfortable with it. For example; make your bed several times a day when you feel like it’s messed up.
Wake Up at 6
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Cold Showers
Behave Well
Control on Anger
Reading: Productivity Superhero
Puja
Mindful Eating
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 20 times(starting)
Study: 7hrs
I can understand brother. Though I managed to secure above that benchmark you mentioned in class 10th, but I am still not sure where did my 5 marks deducted in maths.
Well let me tell you, these marks are indeed something that can get you through some competition to some good college after 12th, but not everything in the life. Even if you top JEE/NEET they will talk about it for 1st year at best. Your future will be decided on what you do at present.
So it’s good to have expectations, it makes you toil for the action. So make it a weapon to go for more, and not to be disheartened. These are just some small goals for a larger goal in life.
Keep moving and all the best…
Cheers!
18th July Day 13
Today i was good, productive. I’m not getting too much into studies because duration doesn’t matter what you study, understand, retain, and cultivate; that matters. So i don’t try to do more hours instead i read one topic from each subject and just think about what can i understand from this, what ideas can i form based on this knowledge, try to be creative with relating things i’ve already studied. I believe if i study like this from the very first day of 11th class then i’ll be good at grasping the concepts really well. Thats what i like about this idea. As for urges, i got some in the morning when i was studying and then i kept on studying and it vanished after a while. Well another day well spent, i’m really satisfied with how i spent this day. Namaskaram
Wake Up at 6
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Cold Showers
Behave Well
Control on Anger
Reading: Productivity Superhero
Puja
Mindful Eating
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 20 times(starting)
Study: 7hrs
Today I’m having a lot of urges. But I declare that ill not lose today I will prevail just watch
That’s right brother! You will get through this. You are a beast. Those bitch ass urges will go away themselves, when they realize that they can’t take down this beast. 
19 July Day 14
Today was my dayoff and i really enjoyed it. I played games, watched movie with my family and spent this day with them, it really calming after a long week.
Then i reflected upon this week, made plans for the next week and pointed out some areas in my life where i can improve and grow. That was a motive of a dayoff and yeah today i had very strong urges and so that i stayed with my family for the most of the day. I had fun and i really loved this weekend. Also i wanna tell you that if you don’t know about bullet journaling then please start doing it. Its a fun way to be organised and you would really enjoy doing it. If you wanna be organised then its a must do.
Hey man
Ur diary motivates me so much thank you so much
I’ll try to record myself and try to improve
Thanks a lot buddy
Your diary is turning into an inspiration brother.
Keep going. You are in the right track.
@DARSHAN2017 that was the point of this diary, to motivate and inspire you guys. Now I feel like I’m fullfiling my purpose .
Thank you
@Tagore thanks brother this time I’ll not fall. I will prevail we will be at 1000days this time. Hell yeah
Good going brother…
Socializing is indeed an antidote of urges.
All the best!
20 July Day 15
So this day was kind of full of good things and also much chaos. i started waking up at 5 am from today, i felt very sleepy in the morning; changing your routine requires balls mate. I was literally a zombie when i walked out of bed. Usually i wouldn’t be able to do it but thanks to @Tagore i was able to do this humongous task(it is; atleast for me). Then after pulling myself together i got through my morning routine but couldn’t complete it as today was rudrabhishek at our home so mother got me engaged in preparations and then rituals. All of this gave me a lot of positive vibes and peace; it’s a good thing to overcome the yesterday’s strong urges. Then i worked for about 1.5hrs and was tired all day cause of this new sleep cycle. In the afternoon i came to know that my fridge has burned it’s compressor. That kept me busy for around 5hrs, i was calling every electrician in the city to get some help as companies customer care centers are shut down these days. finally got it replaced, it was exhausting. I’m too tired right now seriously wanting to sleep. I guess this was all for today’s hell of a day
Wake Up at 5
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Cold Showers
Behave Well
: Reading: Productivity Superhero
Puja
Mindful Eating
Watch some useful stuff
: Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 20 times(starting)
Study: 1.5hrs
Hey
I will tell anyone in this forum. “READ SRIMAD BHAGVAD GITA”
THIS IS MY WORK IN THIS FORUM.
Brother @Deadpoolgupta for you to not feel tired sleep early. It is very important.
We have to get atleast 6-7 hours sleep.
Keep going man. Now there is no going back.
Only 2 chances. You cannot give up this time.
DEAD SERIOUS
Fuck what do i say, i relapsed again. I did everything but i can’t resist urges like i used to do. Urges seem too powerful now. I was getting urges from last 2 days. when last night i couldn’t bear it and gave in.
Now i’m seriously depressed. I did everything, i stayed busy, done workouts, read books, woke up early, deleted social media, but i’m not getting further.
i’m frustrated and depressed. i’m tired of getting fucked man, i can’t do this all my life, i’m sick of this, i did everything, everything
@Deadpoolgupta, What was your reason of relapse?
toomuch urges that i could’nt hold back
Shit man, thats too bad. I had really high hopes about our challenge and all…
When I have urges like this I immediately go outside and walk for 1 to 2 hours. I look at the trees and try to calm my body and soul. This is the best way to defeat an urge in my opinion. If the urge comes at nightime I take a cold shower and convince myself that I’ll relapse the next morning but not tonight. The next morning after I wake up I quickly go to a park, to consume the essence of nature,and thus preventing a relapse. Please give it a try next time.
Lastly, get back up man. There’s no other solution but to try again and again. Try to do things differently each time and find what works for you and what don’t.
I have nothing but the best wishes for you. May you be successful in all your endeavors.
Peace 
Reduce powerful urges:
Eat twice a day
First Meal: Morning
Second Meal: Evening (Not night)
No Snack between First and Second Meal at all even fruit