Deadpool Forging his Future

7 November
Well I’ve been recovering. I’ve lost all habits that I’ve acquired during lockdown, but I think that’s quite a good deal for being sick for several years.

My old disease started to comback, thank God I spotted the symptoms in the initial stage. I’m saved from several years of medical struggle.

I’m starting to improve again. Today was first day I could follow my routine. It feels so good to do the things that are actually good for myself. So guys I’m officially back.
:white_check_mark: Wakeup at 5
:white_check_mark: Drink water after waking up
:white_check_mark: Workout
:x: : Affirmations and Visualization
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:x: Meditation

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Great to have you back brother, I hope your health has improved.

Time to fight our way through the pain and reach the true joy on the other side!

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Hell yeah brother
we will do this together

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25 November
Well, i’m very disappointed with myself lately. It’s been a month of unproductivity. I’ve slipped back to my old life, Addicted to gaming, social-media, youtube, not studying. I used to have strong desire toward studying to reach my goal, but now it’s been a month since I’ve felt like studying.
I’ve been daily setting goals and routine for next day and end up completing none of them. I’ve got no routine.
I decided to come back to this forum but, i was scared to face you all cause i’m no more the person you used to know, you followed.
I’m just holding on to nofap somehow, and I managed to stay clean this month so far.
The guilt haunts me at nights that i can’t sleep. I’m heavily sleep deprived. Im numb. I don’t know what i want. i don’t have any desires left.
Can anyone help me???
I’m tired of lying to myself.
Whenever i promise to improve, my mind laughs at me and it tells me that i’m not gonna improve anyway.
my brothers @Tagore @_TIGER @selfconqurer @Martial_Beast @JumpingBuddha Im asking for help cause i cant even think clearly i am just straight frustrated. I sometimes cry through nights, i dont know.

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Throughout the day i laugh, i smile, socialize with others but on the inside im broken. I can’t tell anybody. I just have you guys. You guys are the right person to ask.

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You have hidden depression bro. Anyone would be depressed, if your internal self talk laughs, berates and belittles yourself. Can you consult a therapist?

Hence you find no motivation to do anythibg. And just fap and play video games.

"The person who can change your life is only you "

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Well, i am also going through same state. This is brain fog and emotional disturbances which is caused by excessive dopamine in our brain. But i have brain inflammation too😢. It will disappears if you change your lifestyle.

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Dear @Deadpoolgupta,

Hope you are better now.

Getting root of the problem is the best way to resolve the problems.
What’s the cause of frustration?
It’s the feeling, when your expectations does not meet the outcomes. Now why is so? There are two possibilities-

  1. Your expectations are too high with respect to your current capabilities.
    If so, add on your skills and improve your capabilities
  2. You are not working enough to produce the expected outcomes.
    If so, Work hard. Think less Do more.

About your current routine- Just stop wasting time on games and social media platforms. Don’t fool around yourself more.

Plan and kickstart your routine. Initial pain is better than perpetual repentance. A small tip- Come whatever, Do Not stay awake late in night, everything will fall back in line. Keep engaging your body, mind and soul.

This is simply procrastination.
Why does it happen?

Some reasons may be-

  1. You have started liking your comfort zone.
    If so, just remember there is no life inside cocoon, even caterpillar comes out of it to grow as a beautiful butterfly. Remember No pain No gain.
  2. Fear of future uncertainty or failure. This is common reason to putting things off. You keep living in future by procrastinating. And as you know, future is uncertain. The only thing which is certain and under our control is the present moment. Use it to make your future better.

Your problem is very normal dear.
Your dilemma seems to be caused by your weak self-esteem created by inaction, which in turn further weakens your self-esteem, self-confidence and self-awareness.

You need to break the cycle immediately. It’s very simple. Start identifying with your strengths, your past achievements, your goodness. One way is to change the current environment or adapt to the environment, or maybe both as and when required.
Most importantly start actually acting. There is no benefit crying over spilt milk.

Keep reminding yourself the real truth, that you have the potential to overcome any challenges thrown at you. You have successfully done it many times in your life. Do you remember?

Identify yourself with the real You, the confident, sincere and winner You.

Just open your book, your most interesting subject! Read a page, if you feel like reading more, please do it. If not then also do it. Enjoy it. See the fruits of your hardwork. Let your actions speak for yourself.

You will see all your insecurity and other problems will dissolve away :grinning:.

You Can definitely Do it. Stop Nonsense and Start Actions.

Best regards
JumpingBuddha

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Thank you so much brother for your kind words. Your words show your wisdom and willingness to help.
I’m better now, thinking clearly and rationally.
I shall put your advise to work.

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@_TIGER thank you for reminding myself of who I am, i think i had forgotten myself. Thanks for staying with me

@StealthChopperinbond yeah brother I shall change my lifestyle. Thanks for understanding my concern.

@TheWillToLive Brother I’m better now after talking about my problem here. I think i needed to get that off my chest, it started feeling better from then on. And yeah if i encounter any more problem i’ll see a therapist. Actually I had long depression, but it is cured now, it just some past echoes i guess. Thanks for your concern.

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Yesterday when I was feeling broken, @Tagore dm me and recommended The Easy Peasy Hackbook by Allen Carr.
And I’m so glad to tell you that I’m The Luckiest Happy NoPMOer ever.
I read the whole book today, I have to say It’s like I got the missing to break free from PMO.
I’m no longer a slave to PMO. I now have the clarity of my One and ONly reason to relapse.
I am enjoying every minute as I am sure that i’m free and i will not fall into this trap again.
I already have 26 days on my streak and i’m not plan on resetting that.
I am glad that I got recommended that book

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Now I will stay on this forum for 3 weeks, until I finally get back on track of m usual routine and then I take a break from here and I will comback to tell you if this method worked totally or not

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Hello brother, hope you are feeling better.
Dont worry about your problems, it happens to everyone, it is a part of who we are (we fall) but most importantly we have the power to change our situations as well…

When we move along the road of self improvement, sometimes things get blurry and we get stuck in old bad habits, it’s a part of journey… At that time we cannot see what good we have at the present, so it’s ok to make mistakes, but it’s not ok to think too much about them, we should act.

If you don’t have the power to act right now, then just compare yourself to a year back, see all the positive changes you brought in your life from that time…
Eg. If you meditated zero days last (0/365) year and are not very consistent this year (say 200/365), still it’s way better than zero…
So, enjoy these small achievement s too, it will give you strength to carry on with your work. NO ONE IS BORN PERFECT, EMBRACE FAILURES

Also, if it seems difficult to start your good old habits right now, don’t worry… Just pick the top 3most important tasks to do that will help you positively in your upcoming year, that will give you and your close ones real happiness (habits that will increase your confidence) and as you gain momentum you will be able to manage more than three habits easily again… Just pick up the most imp. Ones…

And like @JumpingBuddha said, find the root cause, he pretty much gave you the right mindset to look at your problems and how to solve em…

Life is beautiful and problems and setback make us strong… :grin::metal:

Don’t worry, relax and keep grinding like you have been doing @Deadpoolgupta :fire::fire::muscle:

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27 November 2020
Woke Up at 8:00
:white_check_mark: Drink water After Waking Up
:x: Meditation
:white_check_mark: Affirmations and Visualization
:x: Exercise
:white_check_mark: Study: 5hours and continuing
Well First day since I got out of my emotional rut. I couldn’t wake up early. Gone through the day well. I studied also, and life seems to fall back into place.
I can’t woke up at 5, that’s too hard right now. I’ll wake up at 7, cause studying is my first priority and I’m gonna focus all my willpower on that task for now.
I’ll think about waking up early later.
So This Was It for Today

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Yeah bro when im on nofap i can easily wake up at 5:00 am but after i relapse i wake up late
That also shows nofap is healthyest thing for you!

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I feel great that you finally understand pmo addiction bro @Deadpoolgupta
Read easy-peasy book again. Really understand it. Every word, every sentence. Then read YBOP. Then read all the scientific articles in YBOP site. Then wack: addicted to Internet pornot by Noah church. Watch videos by YouTube channel fight the new drug.
It is easy to conquer PMO addiction. Brian Washing is the thing that kills us!

30 April 2021
Well how you guys been, long time no see, huh?
It’s been a hell of a ride. After I escaped this trap using EasyPeasyMethod, I relapsed 3 weeks later, i then began studying extensively about all the ideas in the book from other sources at the same time my streaks were barely 10days. It happened for quite a long time. Then after understanding everything, now I don’t get urges(or what you normally define as urges). Now I just get a desire for a girlfriend sometimes, which is fine since it is my biology. Now I know the differences between propagative sex and amptative sex. I don’t hold any wish or brainwashing for orgasm now. But yeah, rarely, very rarely i get cravings for girls, even then I don’t want to look at porn or masturbate, cause if you wanna have sex then it doesn’t make sense alone right?

This month’s been tough, coaching is closed, me and my whole family got covid, and thank god we recovered. Since recovery i am having tough time getting back on track, and accountability is zero among all my friends, so i thought let’s fire up rewire and get some competition among some tough titans.
So Here I am, All Open For Challenges

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And yeah, my current streak is after i recovered from covid, cause it was not less than any relapse, as my whole body was weakened to the point of death. Honestly I didn’t thought I would survive as I had medical history of Nephrotic and respiratory diseases for 13 yrs of my life. It’s only God’s Grace and My Mothers Prayers That i’m here

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