11 August
Well today i got up on time. I think i’ll find my sleep pattern soon, i was productive today and i really appreciate that habit of mine. Today was a bit busy day as it was my little sis birthday so i was given task of arranging all the items needed for the party. It sure took a lot of time but it was totally worth it. And yeah i feel a bit tired these days, i can’t even study in noon, i feel sleepy as hell if i try to study at noon and today i slept on my notebook. Hope somebody has the solution to this.
Wake Up at 5
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization(Beastmode)
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Water Intake : 1.8ltrs
Cold Showers
Puja
Mindful Eating
Freedom Ritual
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
: Chew Food 20 times(starting)
Productivity: 7hrs
Study: 5hrs
12 August
Well today was kinda bad day, i woke up late which fucked up my day and i really hope to comeback with more momentum. I’ve made a lot of changes today, that i will not see my days i’ll only use rewire forum so that everyday is a new day of my life not some porn free streak which in my opinion will make you feel connected to p. I also stopped watching anime, the reason being it was too good, i would get an escape from my reality from watching that, it was all good until my reality seemed boring to me and anime felt exciting that’s when i decided to quit watching it. Today i wasted a lot of time on my phone and i hate to do it. Let’s hope for a better tomorrow
Wake Up at 5
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization(Beastmode)
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Water Intake : 1.8ltrs
Cold Showers
Puja
Mindful Eating
Freedom Ritual
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 32 times
Productivity: 5hrs
Study: 2hrs
Hello, Bro i used to see ur replies in other post. I wanted to tell you you’re a really big motivator to all. Thanks for that… PS (i am an anime watcher too…
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Well that made my day brother.
Thanks
Urges are high this morning since the moment I woke up
Hanging on.
Will not let go
13 August
Well today was a hard battle, as soon as i woke up urges attacked me, it was the result of the yesterday’s accidental peeking. My morning was rough, i tried to do my morning ritual but the urges were too high, i couldn’t focus. Then after battling for 3hrs i found myself in a p site, But I controlled myself and shut it down immediately, I then grabbed my headphones and played some calming music on my laptop. I listened to music for about 1 hr then urges withdrawn.
They again attacked me in the noon, then i decided that i can’t study today like this so instead of pushing myself i decided to go to family and do coding in the living room with my siblings. It worked like charm, i won today’s battle, but it was close, i have to improve.
Wake Up at 5
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization(Beastmode)
Write Goals
Workout
Pranayam
Water Intake : 1.8ltrs
Cold Showers
Puja
Mindful Eating
Freedom Ritual
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 32 times
Productivity: 5hrs
Study: 3hrs
14 August
Well todays post is not a regular check in. I will not check in today as, i took a break from all these routines and tracking everything. I noticed that from last somedays i was just not interested in doing anything, i was experiencing high inertia in my body and mind. I was just dragging myself to do all the things, and we all know what happens then. My mind was craving for some change in my monotonous life, it got a reason to back to shit. So i took a day off, cause if had waited for sunday, probably it would’ve been too late. Today i called a lot of friends and family, it gave me some motivation, i felt good. Whole day i was doing other things, like helping my mother cleanup the house’s dark corners, monthly cleanup of my room, analyzation of my bullet journal data, and some pending works that wouldn’t have caught my attention otherwise, today was a good day. I will make a good comeback brothers, thats for sure. ok i guess that’s all for today.
No need to apologise. @Sahas is not aware of how aggressive he comes across sometimes. And when people fight back, he wonders why. It’s a recurring trend in his threads/posts. There was one time where he berated Forerunner (even though they’re friends), and some guys who viewed his thread regularly didn’t like it. If he is like that in real life, he’d invite external forces against him, and wonders why he’d get beat up. He can be a bully.
He doesn’t know himself. At least I am in full control of what I type. Lol.
Correct @TheWillToLive. 
.right point you told. One day he wrote I hate those type of people who is relapsing .but after 39 days he relapsed. If you can’t do then dont say you hate them . 
17 July
Well here i am, my Life is not going well, but that doesn’t mean that i’ll give up. Well honestly there been urges that told me that relapsing will feel better, but I sticked to one statement that it will not improve things it will only make them worse.
These are tough times , problems have cornered me but that’s also the time to be most vigilant and defensive. Started reading the alchemist and I fell in love with it. My only regret is not reading this book till now.l, it’s magical. I love this. As for other things, it’s fine. I think I’ll get a girlfriend only if I fell in love, I don’t want any physical relationship, I just hope that someday someone will reach to the deeper end of me, to the place of love in my heart. I hope
Wake Up before 6
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization(Beastmode)
Write Goals
Reading:The Alchemist
Workout
Pranayam
Water Intake : 1.8ltrs
Cold Showers
Puja
Mindful Eating
Freedom Ritual
Watch some useful stuff
Meditation
Journal
: Chew Food 20 times(starting)
Productivity: 6hrs
Study: 5hrs
100% … great brother… all green ticks… how this feel bro?..awesome… isn’t it… remember this feeling and make it motivation for the next day…
All the best…
Sure brother, I’ll do my best.
The song “Man in the mirror” by the late and Great Michael Jackson comes to mind 
It’s hard to see our own faults/weaknesses/insecurities but quick to point out others’. I’m working on that as well…
Wake Up before 6
Drink a glass of water
Affirmations and Visualization(Beastmode)
Write Goals
Reading:The Alchemist
Workout
:Pranayam
Water Intake : 1.3ltrs
:Cold Showers
:Puja
Mindful Eating
Freedom Ritual
Meditation
Journal
Chew Food 32 times
Productivity: 6hrs
Study: 5hrs
What day are you on bro???
It’s 29th day today as of 19 August
Fuck i relapsed.
The reason is I was too focused on my sleep that I left my guard down and fucked up my routine that caused my relapse.
The urges were too strong since I relapsed. After first relapse I took a cold shower and then went to sleep, but the urges wouldn’t let me sleep, I was literally shaking, and my breath was damn too fast, I holded on like this then finally relapsed again. It’s been three times since I relapsed. I couldn’t keep my shit together.
The I watched fearless Dan’s Saiyan recovery video. Got some good feel. Now I’m ready to continue my journey here.
I will go monk mode for 30days. Then decide what should I do beyond 30.
I learned from my mistakes. I won’t be so hard on myself. Now I have to atone for my sins. I have to improvise on my mistakes.
@Tagore I’m in the challenge, If I relapse now, I will-
-Tell my parents
-Tell everything to my family
I’ll record that conversation and post it here. I don’t want to leave any loopholes this time, I know if I leave even a slight loop my brain will exploit it.
My mind was telling me not to reset my counter, but i did as the streak doesnt matter to me now.
Keep reminding yourself this… write this thing as much as you can…initially…becoz I analyzed that… in intial days… when urges hit… our brain do not respond to stop it… even we don’t remember anything… any promise etc.
So write this again and again…here…in your notebook… etc… so that when urges come… the first thing your brain reminds you is this promise or consequence… then you will have a chance to choose atleast…
Bro I feel really sad to see you relapsed. But i also went through the same fucking situations. Iam getting pissed off like anything.
Why why why the fuck are we going back to the filthy, disgusting prostitution videos again and again!!!
But this time trust me my brother @Deadpoolgupta Iam dedicated like anything to not look back. Join me.
You can you can you can you can!!!
IAM WITH YOU!!!
IAM DONE WITH ■■■■. IAM DONE AND AM VERY ANGRY ABOUT DOING THAT SIN AGAIN!!!
IF I RELAPSE AGAIN I’LL TELL EVERYTHING TO MY PARENTS AND WILL SEND AN AUDIO RECORDING TO FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUPS EVERYWHERE!!! I’LL SEND THE SCREEN SHOT OF IT HERE AND WILL LEAVE THIS FORUM AND WILL GO SEE A PHYCHATRIST OR DO WHAT MY PARENTS WILL TELL ME!!!
IAM DONE WITH THIS SHIT!!!
**STAY WITH ME. **
FORGET EVERYTHING. MAKE PLANS. GO THROUGH THE PAIN AND BECOME A LION!!!
OH GOD, I CAN’T TOLERATE THIS. I CAN’T SEE US RELAPSING AGAIN!!!
IAM DONE, IAM PISSED OFF LIKE ANYTHING!!!
I’LL NEVER DO THAT SIN AGAIN. IAM VERY SERIOUS… I’LL QUIT THIS FORUM IF I DO IT AGAIN!!!
Yes this is the same technique I used to reach 100+ streak.
Our Journey becomes much more easier once we commit 100%
Trust me!!