Yep agreed
Now just tell how many of the people type thank you completely and 20 characters
Not many
How about no 20 characters rule??
And the reason for telling thank you showing my gratitude towards the people who help me and motivate me
And the reason for this is ik how important it is to express what u feel rather than texting ty as a habit
Yeah thatās why there should be compensation (like 10-15 characters).
And itās stupid to think 20 characters can prevent spamming. They donāt know the meaning of āspamā.
And who decides 20 characters is dry or actual responsive texting? Itās subjective imo
Agreed
And its fine to have different perspective
Im not against reducing 20 characters
But against removal of it atleast
What pisses me off is not the 20 characters. Its the 1 MB shit. Literally every gif these days have more than 1 MB. Atleast extend it to 2 MB.
5th December
(yay 
)I couldnt workout because i woke up very late and didnt have time afterwards as i got busy attending function
In the evening i could have worked out i just got busy
Yesterday and today was damn difficult to guard my eyes protect my brain from being corrupted and not falling to the urges
Both these days i was exposed to women all around me who were looking fabulous and many of them were wearing revealing clothes too
I didnt want to worry about it but i was constantly getting urges
I just said so what
Everywhere i go
There will be beautiful women
What can i do about it?
I dont need to do anything
Just take a breathe
I didnt look at any girl with any wrong intention
And the i succeeded
It was damn difficult
But i was strong this time
In the evening i had huge urges while helping a fellow companion
Which triggered something
I dont blame him
But the reason the conversation took place was because our habits were 99% similar
Like ditto
And i just wanted to help him and not get any worse
Currently its hurting me down there
But the urges have vanished
And im not giving up
Thats all
Few self realisations
I look worse physically
I need to reconnect to god if i want to ever be happy
No matter where u go there will always be urges and they will keep getting strong with more revealing clothing more technology advancements
The only way to overcome all these is to get stronger with each passing day and not to give a f@#k about any of those
Thats it
I have made up my mind
Today was the last day i watch anime or read manga or watch series
Im not telling i wont do it ever
But not for now
Ill make sure to achieve some progress from tomorrow
8th December 2023
I havenāt completed my daily tasks for last many days
I have been having low energy
And dont feel like doing anything
Even though is said yesterday
No anime or series or manga
I lost to all three of them
Im sorry to myself and to all of you
Ill not lose tomorrow
I want to let out few more things
I feel embarassed to share that
But before that
Today i was very close to peeking
Almost searched it
And almost got convinced to relapse
Then there was some inner voice
Coming to other aspects
Today i wasted my time on youtube, anime (2 episodes), manga few chapter and then kdrama( 4 episode)
@The_Rising_One
Youtube - i have habit of watching youtube tarak mehta while eating
So its a mountajn of challenge for me to abstain from this
And it starts from here and i end up wasting the entire dayā¦
Thats how i lost the no youtube challenge today
Now since the urges were super high
Hence i decided to watch some drama because i could get the required dopamine from that
But that caused a trigger 
Trigger not for urges
But trigger to the past cause of urges
I dont get it why in every fcuking series and drama
There should be atleast one couple who is not loyal to their partner and fall in love with the mc and when the mc doesnt love them back fall in love with the previous partner like he is always available
I have grown up watching shitty hindi tv serials
And in every one of them
There were cases of divorce because of jealousy and all
I dont know if u are able to understand this or not
But i just wanted to share this out
So previously
I used to have thoughts of what if my gf cheats on me
What will happen
And for some reason this would make heart pain
I dont know for what reason
What if she cheats amd goes with some else
I know she wont
But then i would get these thoughts and i would watch corn related to these things
Which would make me more hurt but still i would m@$trubate to thoseā¦
Hence when i was on 5th episode of drama
I suddenly felt
Its not worth watching
Because either they will go separate ways and then meet later on and patch up
And the thing that angers me is
In any show
If the fault is of men
They are made to suffer and feel guilty
But when its the other way round
The men accept it easily
Its as if mens emotions dont matter
I know its all just stories
But when these same stories having these ideologies are shown everytime
Peoe will get accustomed to thinking that its fine and this is normal
For the very first time today
I didnt feel like watching drama
Whats ur point on this??
I can relate to you by 100 percent. But honestly I donāt have any exact answer to this.
Before our challenge , I was in same state . I really donāt have any logical reason how I was able to control YouTube.
Only thing is that I donāt want to disappoint you. You have created a challenge specially to help me and hence it would be a disgrace from my side if I didnāt take it seriously.
Trust me , Ever since I got a phone on my own, I dont remember that I didnāt use YouTube Voluntarily 5 days straight. Its you who have made me achieve that. Thank you !!
Whenever I get an urge. I admit to myself that I am getting an urge and tell to myself that giving in will not reduce the urge. In fact , it increases the urge. I started to tell myself everytime I use YouTube I am reinforcing the habit to go back to old habits again.
For the past 5 days , I didnāt neither deleted YouTube nor used any blockers to suppress it. It is right in front of me.
But I do admit I play video games and watch anime AOT both for entertainment and for the challenge I am running.
I am really grateful to you. So at the same time, I also want you to win. Thatās why I got pissed off when you put your guards down 2 days straight. But at the same time , I donāt have any logical solution to this.
I just want to say , never give up bro 
9th December 2023
Im getting surrounded by urges
I was about to peek today
But then I consciously said no because i have started loving nofap
But it was damn difficult day because the entire day i was protecting myself because i was very close to relapse
But everytime i started telling no i dont need it
But i guess i might relapse if i dont start changing the way i think
I have been too focused on abstaining and hoping things to click previously
Whereas this addiction is a symptom of something deep rooted in me and i need to improve myself
Im confident enough that today was the last day for the urges to make me weak
Things are going to be positive from right now
Thats all
21st Dec 2023
Its 1.37 am when Iām typing this
I m unable to sleep
Probably because i took a nap in afternoon
Ill not sleep tom afternoon
Currently i feel my hesrt beating a bit fast because of anxiety
Ill get it to beat normal by deep breathing
Few days back when i was texting privately to one of the fellow rewice user
I just realized that i dont trust myself
Let me explain this
Like i lock the doors everynight
So even after locking
Ill keep checking that i put the lock on correctly
I put the upper lock in the hole only amd not outside or inside
I almost confirm 10 to 15 times that i have surely locked by pulling the locks out up and down 10 to fifteen times
So locking the door which should not take more than 1min
I take more than 5 mins
And even after this i go down twice or thrice to check i have locked or not
This is just one example
And the same thing happens in studies
I dont trust myself that i will remember what i have read
I need to start putting more trust in myself
Thats all
Byee
21st December 2023
I really want to have a successful life and for this i need to starf getting disciplined
No matter what ill make a post here everyday to stay accountable
My habits
- 7.45 (40 mins) ( i did a bit but then controlled myself)Previous relapse was due to combination of sexting + reading erotica (soft corn) + entertaining horny thoughts
My last relapse was due to combination of sexting, erotica reading , entertaining horny thoughts and not being disciplined
I havent added no youtube here but i have a method to keep in check my useless youtube usage
Which ill post tom onwards
I just had urge that let me think something horny and m@$trubate to it yesterday and even now
Yesterday i said no
And today now again i said no and i wont relapse
Today while i opened youtube to see some gaming videos
I no more had the urge to play or get good at game
Its like i dont need it
Btw its almost 1 year when i quit gaming once and for all and ill surely quit other things once and for all
As a fellow bro I am telling you to slap yourself back to reality.
Bro, in todayās time there is enough competition in almost every field. And one can only get job through consistent efforts and improving daily.
I really didnt get why u asked me to slap myself
Because of high phone usage??
Phone is not an issue unless you are using it for productive work.
Having lot of red crosses in your targets is not an issue unless you tried your best and reached close.
Im aiming for consistency
As i read one of ur posts where dont make the same mistake twice
If i dont workout one day ill make sure i do it the next day
Ill try to follow this principle as best as i can and will try to achieve my goals
I know
Today i didnt put efforts
The list is to remind me that i habe many things to complete in a day rather than just having it in mind and doing if possible else not
Actions determine whether or not you decided to do them. Saying that you will and you wonāt and then you donāt do them means that from the inside, you didnāt decide.
Iām not trying to guess that you wonāt improve in the future or anything but take it as an advice.
You donāt want to be merely planing, you need to be practicing. Your training is one day at a time.
Time can be an enemy just like an ally. It multiplies everything you do.
As the book āAtomic habitsā beautiful described. Thereās a difference between being in motion (planning, designing) and being in action.
