For the sake of your mind, I would. It depends on your definition.
Does P help you get free of P? I wouldn’t say so, and for me, it means that I reset my streak. This addiction is too serious of a matter to not take seriously - no matter how often you do it. At least that is my opinion.
Personally, I also find that it feels much more honest . It is your live so you decide. You should be proud of yourself either way, and rightly take to this challenge with new excitement .
This morning was excellent. Filled with energy and I woke up at a good time. I am glad that I am being more disciplined with bedtimes. Study for 4-5 hours today. First 2-3 hours laser sharp, next 1-2 hours less so. I will do better .
Super intense workout. Cardio. Like I have got out of the sea. Stitches came and I ignored them, and they went.
Day 5/7 Check-in:
I felt old emotions without me doing anything at the time. They flowed through me and everything started to seem interesting, less insipid. It happened that I lingered on thoughts and looked at some photos of women dressed in haste. But I lingered on thoughts for a short time and tore them away. This day was not very difficult because I fought with dignity and without dwelling too much but unfortunately I did not act in a professional way. And anyway day 5 was completed.
Well done on being strict mentally. It is the thoughts that kill first, allowing an opening for PMO. With time I hope that you will learn to detect thoughts before they fully materialize. It is useful. Be professional today man .
Not happy to share this, but the truth must be faced. I knew I was doing something not fruitful for myself, but I did it nevertheless. 3 times in the course of 24 hours, leaving me deprived of energies.
It’s time for a new streak, with compassion but keeping things straight, honest and out there for me to remember and check on my self.
Day 6/7 Check-in:
Well done, It was quite challenging because the difficulty was not easy but I managed to finish this day in a professional way. There were so many thoughts that wanted to come out.
Thank you. My baseline standards are growing higher through practice and consistency. The encouragement of you guys and @FaithfulWalker and @Covertxomic etc has lifted me up so strongly.
Sorry to hear of the trouble bro. That is painful.
You are taking the right approach to relapse . Complete honesty - being hard on yourself - and then using all your strength to acknowledge it and immediately go all out to change it is what will help, as you are doing . You cannot let PMO strike you to the ground again bro. Your days of freedom recently have shown your strength. Use all of it to strike PMO!
studied for 3-4 hours. Focused 1-2 hours, hit and miss afterwards.
my body was not in a place to workout, so I decided to rest. This was a poor decision, as I realise that I could have run. I will take this lesson forwards.
I do not count yesterday as a success. Though it was restful and peaceful, I did not try my hardest - not even close. I was poorly disciplined at times, and that is why I did not study as hard as I could have - and why I did not run.
Taking these lessons into action. I have already studied for 1.5 hours out of the 2.5 that I have been awake.
Sorry again, guys. I relapsed . Starting fresh again just now. Can you guys give some advice on what to do if the urges come? cause even if I play games to divert them, they come back again as soon as the game is finished, although the urges go away temporarily while playing. Can you guys give me some of your knowledge, please?