CM2018: My Journey to Porn-Free (+ Advices)

Day 13 now, climbing up to finish week 2.
Forerunner’s description of a flatline is exactly how i feel. Not in a very good mood, feeling like being in a streak of bad luck, tired and not motivated at all. In phases like this it is hard to stay sober. But I will dot it somehow.

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You’re doing well man. Keep going.

Remember that a relapse would only mean you’d have to face another flatline the next time, and it could be even more uncomfortable to deal with.

These feelings will pass.

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@Forerunner Thank you so much!
I won the fight for today. Also my flatmates helped me. Had a fun chat with them this evening. :slight_smile:

@Special_Bird, what are you doing actually? Haven’t heard from you for a while…

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14 days now. Today was a crazy swing of moods. From the happiest person on earth to depression level 100 and back within a couple of hours. I even felt the urge to PMO in between. I did a good job to stay sober. It is 14 days without alcohol now as well. :slight_smile:

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A true champion! Keep going man!

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Thank you @Forerunner! Same for you! :slight_smile: 15 days now.

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Day 16, fun time with my flatmate, drank coffee, had deep talk and went to the cinema with her. No urge for PMO.

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Day 17 finished, had a wonderful sunnny Sunday. And met my friends for dinner. All of them are fighting with their new years resolutions! :smiley: no drugs, no alcohol, no smoking, less partying, more sports and so on… They are doing great as well! But they also tell me that they are feeling a sort of emptiness in their lives after quitting these things. And I do perfectly understand them.

Another thing: I had a wet dream 3 days ago. Since then my flatline is not that bad anymore. Although there is much stress and annoying stuff going on in my life, I do not feel the urge for PMO at the moment.

Stay sober, guys! :slight_smile:

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18 days - no problem today. I was at work from early morning till late night. This Friday I am going to have my next DJ gig. And my laptop (first broken then fixed) makes trouble again…

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Day 19, continued reading YBOP last night. Awesome book! The description of PMO addiction is so damn acurate! I recommend this book to everyone!

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Day 20, no urges, good mood, fun day.

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Hey guys!
My counter just turned from 22 to 23 days.
I was quite busy the last days: worked till late night everyday, went to an art exhibition and to an author’s reading and had an 8 hour DJ gig yesterday. I drank alcohol on that occasion, but I am still ■■■■- and fap-free in this decade. :slight_smile:

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25 days pmo-free achieved now. Getting close to the streak that I had before my last relapse. It was 31 days that time. Quite confident that this time the number of days will grow bigger. Actually the plan is even to stay ■■■■-free forever. Had another wet dream last night. I experienced it as very annoying this time. I don’t even remember what I dreamed. I only saw that my bed was a mess. :confused:

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26 days now. No urge to pmo. Actually I am not feeling anything at all. I do my work everyday, plan some stuff for the next weeks - but always with a taste of emptiness. Hope this phase will fade away soon. This app definitely helps to not consider PMO as a solution. Thanks for that!

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It’s probably due to a flatline friend. You’ll get through this and what’s on the other side will be worth it.

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Thank you, @Sacred! Yeah I definitely think so too! The good thing on that one is, that there is really no urge to PMO at all. But my expierience tells me to stay aware of it. It can hit you like a bomb from one second to another. So mindfulness and consciousness are key.

This was day 27 by the way. :slight_smile:

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It is 31 days now, after a very busy weekend including a job interview and an assessment center in another city. It went great and they would contract me right away. Big desicions have to be made the next days. Cheers guys!

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Day 32 finished - the journey continues!

33 days now, had fun at work and a great dinner with friends. :slight_smile:

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After 34 days, I am starting to feel some slight effects in self-confidence, eye-contact and talking to people. To clarify: I always was able to talk to people and everything, but for a couple of days now it seems easier.

I also had a very clear moment today, when I realized how bad this PMO shit is! A voice in my head told me: This damn thing has the potential to destroy lives completely.

Keep fighting my friends!

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