Checking in : week 44- Tuesday
All good.
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Week 44 - Tuesday
Relapsed. Day 0 again
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Check in Tuesday, week 2:
D9: All Good.
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Week 44 ~ Tuesday
All good 
So close to falling, but remembered companions, and then God, my challenges, and comittment/choice/the decision to do this.
Stuff changes, but these always stand true.
Thanks be to God for today 
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Week 6 - Sep 3, Tues - Streak: 9 days
Life is good when I make it good.
So happy I found this group, it’s been helping me more than anything else I’ve tried before.
I want to spend my days living my best life. Everything is so clear without PMO. No going back.
Think I’m going to talk to my little cousin about PMO, he’s at that age and I have my suspicions. Just looking for a good time.
“Being true to yourself is the best feeling in the world”
-Rewire Companion user
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Checking in - Wednesday 4th September. All good, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird I wish you the best of success with approaching that conversation when the time is right brother.
If you do a good job for others, you heal yourself at the same time, because a dose of joy is a spiritual cure.
Dietrich Bonhoeffer
On this journey, there’s something wonderfully transformative about being supportive and understanding of your companions. We start to heal our self-image and see ourselves in a better light. By doing so, we gain more love and self-respect and are more motivated to fulfil our commitments to overcoming the addiction.
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Checking in - All good
Week 44 - September 4, Wednesday
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Checking in :week 44-Wednesday
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@Special_Bird It’s great that you are thinking about your cousins life. If only someone had been there to guide us. Btw I too talked to my younger brother about the addiction and it’s effects on people’s lives a few months ago. I think that it turned out just fine because I see ‘the glow’ on his face when I look at him. Hopefully he will keep on growing.
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Check in week 2,
All good
Wednesday 4th
Trigger/Edging/ThoughtControl: all at good level
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Week 44 - wednesday
All good
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Week 44 ~ Wednesday
All good, Thanks be to God
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Week 6 - Sep 4, Wed - Streak: 10 days
@Forerunner @MrXYZ Thank you guys for the encouragement! Hopefully my talk with my cousin will go as well as the talk went with your brother. I think it will, I have facilitated deeper conversations with both of them before so it won’t be completely out of the blue or unnatural.
As for me, I have been feeling good today, tired though, so I’m looking forward to getting my sleep after I write this.
Feeling better and better each day. Got to remember to keep my confidence in check tho and not let it turn into cockiness or arrogance towards my current position. I’m really not that far off the drawing board at this point. A simple, mismanaged urge could come and swipe me away if I’m not careful.
But even so, this streak for some reason just feels different. I think a big part of the reason for that, as I have stated in previous journals, was the trip I made to my home town. I finally realized that I am different not because I have failed in some way, but rather because I belong somewhere else. The culture here is too different. And it feels good to know that and know where I want to be.
There will always be more to learn, but I feel that my confidence is in an important place where it can finally stand on its own. And hopefully, as it appears to be doing, that will continue to carry over into my streak and my drive to succeed in this area.
“A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him.”
-David Brinkley
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Checking in - Thursday 5th September. All good, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird Really agree with your point about not being cocky or arrogant. As we regain our strength and self-control, urges become much more manageable. They are no longer huge boulders obstructing our path, but we can still trip on the small pebbles along the way at any time. Constant vigilance.
Pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall .
“The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.”
Chinese Proverb
It’s easy to get caught up in the past and lament where we could be if we had quit years ago, or if we had never been addicted in the first place. Where we would be with our studies or our careers. Our relationships. Our confidence and self-respect. The social gatherings we could have comfortably attended.
But the past is gone. The future is available for us to make of it what we will. There are tens of thousands of success stories online of people whose lives have been incredibly transformed for the better within less than a year clean and free. People who lost all forms of sexual dysfunction and were relieved to have normal sexual health once more. People whose social anxiety, depression and low self-esteem disappeared. Those who became clear-minded and their memories improved so they could advance further in their studies. Those who enjoy fulfilling, affectionate and intimate sexual relationships with their wives and girlfriends. Who used their new time and energy to advance in their careers, start businesses, learn languages and play instruments.
All in less than a year. Where will you be a year from now? Plant your tree today.
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Check-in week 2
All good
Thursday 5th September
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Glad to hear @nGpS09 
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Week 44 - Thursday
All good. Will renovate every day the decision of not giving in to PMO!
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Week 44 ~ Thursday
All good, Thanks be to God
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Week 6 - Sep 5, Thurs - Streak: 11 days
All good on my end. Had some small to medium urges today, but I was able to quickly push them out of my mind. Not going back to that hell. I’m happy and confident right where I am and where I’m heading.
That’s it for tonight, got to wake up bright and early tomorrow so trying to get to bed as soon as possible.
“Strength is the product of struggle, you must do what others don’t to achieve what others won’t.”
- Henry Rollins
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Checking in - All good
Week 44 - September 5, Thursday
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Checking in - Friday 6th September. All good, thank GOD.
Recovery is not a race. You don’t have to feel guilty if it takes you longer than you thought it would.”
Anonymous
After years of addiction, our brains won’t be healed with the snap of a finger. We have to work on ourselves to overcome. We have to develop a solid plan with methods and strategies to help us when the temptation strikes. To discover what our triggers are and what we will do when we encounter them. To discover what strong reasons we have for overcoming this addiction in order to make a firm commitment to breaking free. To find companions who will support us on our journey.
It’s unlikely we’ll make it the first time. Or the second. Or the thirtieth.
If we fall down, we must get back up again without losing our enthusiasm and resolve to improve. We have to learn from our mistakes and refine our plans. We have to be compassionate towards ourselves and not drown in feelings of regret, shame and guilt.
If we feel guilty for lacking self-control, recognize that the addiction has literally shrunk our pre-frontal cortex - that means lower willpower, impulse control and consequence perception. We’re driving a car with low gas and flat tires, and still managing to make it a few miles. That’s incredible! With time spent away from the addiction, our brains will repair the damage.
If we are religious and feel guilty, recognise that GOD sees our efforts. Everyone sins, but not everyone wants to change and is actually working towards doing so. Don’t judge yourself more harshly than GOD would. Take courage that you are climbing out of your addiction. Be compassionate towards yourself and grateful for every day free and clean.
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