DAY 184
6 Month
Week 43
Check in… Mon, Tue, Wed, Thu, Fri, Sat, Sunday
All GOOD
Checking in - All good
Week 43 - September 1, Sunday
Week 5 - Aug 31, Sat - Streak: 6 days
Geez this month flew by! But I’m getting back up there with my streak and im feeling good!
A little bit of urges today, maybe hinting at something coming? So gonna stay watchful.
“We gain the strength of the temptation we resist.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Checking in : week 43 - Saturday, Sunday
All good.
Checking in - Sunday 1st September. All good, thank GOD.
Only passions, great passions, can elevate the soul to great things.
Denis Diderot
There are plenty of reasons why we should leave this addiction behind for good. I’m currently reading Your Brain on Porn and the symptoms are horrendous. PIED, ED, RE, anorgasmia, HOCD, social anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, change in sexuality, compulsive sexual behaviours…Within the last 5 years, the world’s top neuroscientists have confirmed that addiction to pornography is real.
Multiple studies have linked the addiction to withdrawal symptoms, decreasing satisfaction leading to a search for more extreme material, sexual problems, decreased relationship satisfaction, as well as poor cognitive function and mental health problems.
But when one holds a low enough self-image, even these symptoms can still be overlooked. This is why it is even more important to not just to think of reasons to quit, but also the reasons why we want to be free. To see ourselves as deserving of that freedom; if we do not believe that our current selves are worthy, then to envision ourselves as a person we would be proud to be, and work towards becoming that person daily. We must re-ignite our passions and excitement for our future in order to truly succeed.
Week 43 ~ Sunday
All Good, Thanks to God
Week 43 - sunday
I’m back, relapsed twice today, it was a bad week lost a lot of progress, I need to get up again from this!
@Gk-00 Yes bro, I’m with you. Let’s have a good week ahead, I’m always praying for you
Week 5 - Sep 1, Sun - Streak: 7 days
@Gk-00 Stay strong man! You will make it through this, always keep your reasons for quitting at the forefront of your mind. Those first few days will suck you in if you let them.
Been doing good myself. Noticing a lot more clarity on homework, able to finish everything faster without the brain fog. Ran into some triggers today while surfing the web, those stupid ads at the bottom of articles.
Stopped myself from going any further by opening up some educational YouTube vids I had been meaning to watch and remembering why I am fighting this. The YouTube vids actually ended up being super helpful and completely took away my urges. Its way too late now and I need to get to bed but I am just happy that I won’t have to fight urges tonight cause I’m too tired to have them.
Keep fighting guys!
“Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone.”
— Pablo Picasso
Checking in - All good
Week 44 - September 2, Monday
Week 44 ~ Monday
Had a stumble this morning
but I’m all good, thanks be to God
Will Check-in again tonight
Checking in :Week 44- Monday
All good.
Check in D8, Monday, Week 2, All good
Didn’t check in yesterday, as was working 36H shift
Today is the longest streak in the past 2 weeks.
An achievement to be proud of.
Normally post 36H shift, I’ll feel entitled to have the instant pleasure through PMO previously.
However, as I am committed again to do this, I find myself staying away from it.
Unhooking with the thought, replacing the habit, and having good support can ensure success.
RespectTheOtherSex 4/5
ThoughtControlled 4/5
Edging 0/5
TriggerResponse 4/5
Week 44 - Monday
Relapsed. Starting over again
Checking in - Monday 2nd September. All good, thank GOD.
@anon67854825 Glad to see another friendly face brother!
“Fall seven times, stand up eight.”
Japanese Proverb
We’ve experienced so many defeats on our journey. Dozens upon dozens of setbacks. With each fall, we’ve left a small part of our spirit behind on the ground. It can become incredibly challenging to get a two-week streak again.
Every time we rise again, it really could be the last time we need to do so. As difficult as it is, we have to summon all our energy to fight as if we’ll never get the chance again. We have to look forward to powerful reasons why we want to succeed. We have to create a vision of a beautiful life that we can’t wait to live; a life which would be impossible with PMO. To sharpen and refine our strategies and add new weapons to our arsenal. All it takes is one victory to make all the defeats worthwhile.
Thanks @Forerunner you inspired that
But seriously,
thank you for those wise words
a vision of a beautiful life
to sharpen and to refine - Amen
As always, you’re most welcome my friend!
Week 6 - Sep 2, Mon - Streak: 8 days
Cruising right now, it’s been good. But as we all know, that can all change in the blink of an eye, especially when things seem to be going their best.
But I need this, my life is so good without PMO. I am feeling so confident and healthy. I feel like my future is getting brighter each day. When I relapse, that will all go down the drain. It’s a living hell back there.
@anon67854825 I would like to make an honest profile as well, but not sure about it. That would actually be sick if eventually we had everyone on rewire just using their actual face as a profile pic. Like it shouldn’t be something to be ashamed of actually, every man deals with this problem but not everyone attempts such a challenge to beat it. It’s a noble effort, whether others see it as such or not. I feel like it even might be encouraging for new members, seeing all the normal people also dealing with the issue. Either way, good for you, definitely braver than me.
“The past is a place of learning, not a place of living”
Checking in - Tuesday 3rd September. All good, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird I completely agree brother. The fact that we’re here and working on getting this addiction out of our lives is inspiring. That alone makes us heroes. We may not have won the war yet, but we’re still here fighting and that’s something to be proud of, not ashamed.
There’s a good reason why people in recovery have to band together. There is so much healing power in sharing and bringing light to our struggle; sharing with other people who understand the difficulty, who have been there themselves, who will not judge you or condemn you. This helps us to remove the deep-rooted shame in our life which has become a part of our psyche. It’s much easier to feel love for ourselves when we are not ashamed. It is only when we love ourselves enough to commit to keeping the promises we make to ourselves, that we regain our integrity and can succeed at overcoming any addiction.
Checking in - All good
Week 44 - September 3, Tuesday