I’m glad I reached day 1 without PMO after many days. Today I offered 4 namaz in masjid, read Quran with translation, completed my study goal and also exercised for 1 hour. I got my motivation back.
I realize I cannot fast everyday now but making this challenge has helped me overcome my shackles. I believe in myself again.
I didn’t went on complete screen ban. I started watching attack on titan from season 1. I think I should avoid triggers but avoiding entertainment completely wrecks my brain after 30 days and I get serious dopamine cravings. Maybe I’ll learn to self control with this and also tune down my dopamine cravings.
I will be posting here from now on instead of my diary.
It feels great without regret and depression. The ray of hope, the sunshine falling on your smiling face, and the knowledge that I have completed today’s task and improved, this is what I wanted.
Im 26 years old and don’t have a job yet (still completing education) for 1 year.
But today I asked my parents to find a girl for me for marriage.
Surprisingly, It took little effort convincing my father who had an opinion that without a job, it would be difficult to find a match. But I said, you just start looking, leave the rest to Allah. I can enter into Nikkah= marriage ( girl will still live with her parents) and after 1 or 2 years when I get a job, she can move into our house.
This will act as a motivation for me to change my life for good, be more responsible, and clean up my act. There is an authentic Hadith, if someone marries to become pious and get protection from sins, then Allah’s special help arrives for that person.
Anyways, I’m trying my best to break my limits and improve myself.
But I couldn’t sleep on time last night and unfortunately missed Fajr.
@Samaranjay@Binocular Haha😂 Thanks a lot guys.
Well this was hard for me first. Then I tought its my life. I should be in control of my decisions. I have to decide how should I live my life. I have to take charge.
I know it will take some months to find a suitable girl to marry, but this time is my goal. I have a target now. To rewire, to get physically healthy and mentally mature. I have to change my self for good, be more responsible. It’s a real target.
Thanks guys for reading my posts and replying too . It’s really means a lot.
My depression is gone. I’m feeling happy accomplishing my exercise and study goals. I’m also watching anime but clean ones, with least triggers. I think I should be not too afraid of triggers. Its okay to be horny. I just have to learn to be in control and not act on my impulses.
Stfu dude, you don’t have to stop living your life.
You don’t have to change your life in any way jist because you arr stopping watching porn.
If you like something you should do that just don’t watch porn and enjoy your life in any other way possible.
Yeah it’s that in few days you’ll have so much time and energy that you’ll be automatically motivated to go for good habits.
That’s my view now don’t start a debate with me on this.
True , I still watch web shows and sitcoms and yes I encounter some bad scenes too , but that doesn’t affect you once you have strong will and mindset . If any such scene comes , I oftenly skip it or don’t mind it . I don’t think of them the way I did porn . It doesn’t even matter now , I have uplifted myself from them .
There is risk but we have imdb parental guide to check for these types of stuff. It will show some triggers, but I think I should face some triggers and learn to control them. Obviously not intentionally put yourself in trigger zone.
I will be exposed to triggers eventually in life. Why not early and learn to tackle then then be late and unskilled leading to relapse.
BTW, thanks for your input, I’ll try to be more vigilant in this matter.
I know you don’t mean it, it’s just an expression
Golden advice. Also, I can change my enjoyment to more safer and less trigger containing during recovery. That was what @Binocular was trying to say.
Actually in my previous streak, I completely avoided all movies, series and animes. Total screen entertainment ban. That didn’t end well. In a few weeks, my brain just got messed up.
Now Im watching Attack on titan only. It doesn’t has fan service. It’s relatively clean. Obviously I will not watch stuff with many triggers, that’s too risky. But I’m just watching strictly controlled content to avoid that messed up brain and to have some happiness in life.
People have reached 1000 days. They are people like you and me. We can achieve great feats too. Move away from comfort zone. Break the shackles of presumed helplessness. And don’t be afraid of the resistance you face when you walk on the path of success. It’s an uphill struggle. Just imagine the view from the top.